Hello, I’m Back…

November 18, 2018 at 3:51 AM

Wow, it’s been a long time since I last posted anything here. My last post was February 2017. That’s 1 year and 8 months.


I don’t know why I’ve been neglecting this site. Not just this site. My other blogs as well. But right now I’m in a deep shit financially (like always) so I need to revive all my blogs again, keep posting regularly and hopefully I’ll make some money. I miss this blog because this used to be my place to just talk about anything that’s going on in my life without caring a damn thing. With other blogs, I have to conform to a certain standard, style, and theme like food, lifestyle, etc. So, I’m reviving this blog to just ramble about crap that nobody else cares about.

This year has been the hardest for me. I know every year, things were shitty but this year was different. I lost someone very dear to me.

My uncle.

He had been sick since last year but it got worse at the beginning of this year where he was bed-bound for a while in Shah Alam before moving back to his place in Ipoh. A month later on May 9th, the exact day Malaysians went out to vote (resulting in a new government in Malaysia’s history), he passed away in the morning. I’m not gonna write more because the pain is still unbearable and just talking or even thinking about it makes me depressed as hell.


I went to KL a couple of days ago but I will write a new post about it tomorrow. I changed a few things in this blog like the header image. Still quite a few things to tweak, edit, and filter out but it’s almost 4 am and I’m tired as hell. I’ll do it tomorrow. I also have so many blog posts to write and post, and a few blogs to modify and fix.

Hopefully, I can keep posting and not abandon this blog again.


When I Was That Annoying, Angsty Teen…

February 11, 2015 at 9:09 PM

girl freaking outSo yesterday, I logged into my old livejournal and decided, out of boredom, to read some early entries.

Jeebus cripes.

I had absolutely no idea how annoying I was back then. Well, I was the typical angsty, depressed, suicidal teen with so much drama. I actually had quite an interesting life, spent too much money on unnecessary things, was a very spoiled brat who kept whining and swearing and invented many stupid words. The current me feels like I want to bash the old teen me in the head.

It’s fascinating to try to remember everything.

Luckily, everything is private and not published publicly. Can’t say the same with this blog. I have so many annoying posts from years ago that I read a few days back. I’ve had this blog since 2006. A lot of things I wrote back then were extremely personal because this domain was meant to be a private blog. Blogging has changed a lot over the years and it’s no longer just a platform for random angsty rants like it used to be. I remember how I got into massive trouble at college because I couldn’t keep my mouth shut and bitched about people openly in this blog. What a huge, retarded mistake. I think it’s time for me to go back and make all those stupid and annoying posts ‘private’.

Since I have YEARS of entries to go through, I’m sure it’ll take ages. I’ll keep general posts public of course but whatever I no longer want published for the public eyes (in other words, my private life) will be hidden. I can’t delete them though because I love reading old posts and reminisce old time. But I think now it’s time that I ‘erase‘ my past from the internet and move on. I’m trying to do the same with facebook but it’s much harder. Obviously deactivating or deleting my profile is not an option. I’ve already ‘privatized’ majority of uploaded pictures though.

One thing I find upsetting when reading my old livejournal entries is the fact that I’m no longer close to my online friends as I used to be. I don’t even talk to any of them anymore, except maybe one or two once in a blue moon. I’m just not good at keeping friends I guess. Many have even deleted me from their friends list on social media sites, facebook especially. I guess I’m either still annoying, not interesting enough for them to continue the friendship, or just no longer want to be associated with me. Oh well.

No Internet = Ultimate Boredom

March 31, 2014 at 12:57 PM

Okay so for almost one week, I didn’t have internet. No internet = ultimate boredom. To top that, I was tethering from my mobile phone and Maxis has been so SHIT. It keeps getting disconnected or just not connecting at all. So stressful! So, for almost a week, my life felt incomplete. I was like wrapped in my own cocoon, disconnected from the outside world. I hate that feeling.

So I didn’t get to do much except read a book, watch TV shows and sleep. Once in a while I would check facebook and that’s it. I couldn’t work on my website either. Speaking of website, I’ve registered my new domain! Was working on it until they fucking suspended my account. I didn’t know they could do that even when I haven’t reached my account credit limit (for Unifi). So now I can go back to finishing my site. It’s all set up except I have to tweak a bit here and there, setup plugins and I’ll be done. It will be my new personal site. I’ll reveal the address soon.

Claudia came to Ipoh a couple of days ago due to some event and I decided to see her yesterday and we hung out. That was nice. I also got “Awek Chuck Taylor” book by Nami Cob Nobbler. Damn all the hype and review had me all excited and desperate to get that book. I’m currently reading ‘Cerita Satu Malam‘ so I’ll finish that one first (almost done), then KL Noir: White then Pinjam then I’ll start on Awek Chuck Taylor. Had to get it yesterday because MPH had some book festival going on so I had 15% discount. Yesterday was the last day.

Awek Chuck Taylor by Nami Cobb Nobbler

I’m not sure if I’ll like it or not. I’ve also read a good amount of negative reviews but I feel it’s personal preference. Not everybody would like the same thing you do. I won’t let that hinder me from reading this. We’ll see if I end up liking it or not. I’m thinking of making another personal book review blog since now I’ve found my love for reading again like I used to when I was young. I don’t know what happened that made me lose interest in reading completely… oh wait. I know what happened. Computer and internet came, that’s why.

I wanted to read ‘Babi‘ because of course, I heard all the hype and positive comments about that book. Didn’t have enough cash for it 🙁 I wish Lejen Press would start selling their books online in ebook form like Buku Fixi. I’m happy I could get majority of Buku Fixi through Google Play at half the price of the printed book.

I have updated the layout of Sinfully Delicious – Malaysian Food Blog a bit! I wasn’t happy with the old layout and kept wanting a cleaner 2 columns look. Finally took the time yesterday to fix that. Next up to fix my movie review blog because I hate the layout and then finish working on my new domain.

Quick Update Again

September 22, 2013 at 5:39 AM

Girl ShockedacAhhh. Damn.

I didn’t mean to go on a long hiatus again, but unfortunately I did. I’m sorry!
This past few months, I’ve lost my mood and ideas of what to write here. Depression is also part of it, apart from some other problems.


I’m reviving some of my sites again, and I’ve been writing contents in them. I also have a new website called OH MAH GAWD! (www.ohmahgawd.com) and it’s mostly my blog about interesting celebrity gossip and popular trend on the internet. It’s new and just launched so not much in there yet. Also, all of my movie reviews will be moved to my movie review site which I’m also reviving – Living Dead Girl Movie Review Site (www.livingdeadgirl.net).

I didn’t have an interesting Ramadhan in July and I also didn’t have interesting Hari Raya / Eud. The shittiest thing that happened was just 4 days before Raya, I got sick! I was cleaning my house and I guess I inhaled way too much dust when I was taking down the curtains and bam. I had throat infection and then I had a fever. It was the worst because on a day before Raya I needed to take mom to do Raya shopping and I could barely even walk. I had to stop every few steps in order to avoid myself from fainting from not able to breathe. It was horrible. I continued to be sick until 3rd Raya… that’s one week of painful sickness. I felt so crappy and had no mood to Raya anyway. I just ended up sleeping. I also didn’t do anything on Merdeka day.

There’s nothing else interesting to talk about at the moment.. my life is not that interesting. So I’m gonna end this here. I’m gonna start blogging here more frequently now. I won’t abandon my sites again 🙂

Layout Change, Yay

July 19, 2013 at 3:21 AM

Yay. New layout.

I’ve had my previous layout for quite a while – I think a couple of years? Or more? Yeah, THAT long. I still love my previous layout. I think Mystique is the best wordpress theme ever in terms of layout, colors and options available. Alas, I have to change. Why? Because it had issues since wordpress had major updates and well, I couldn’t stand the issues no more. The developer seems to have abandoned the theme since there has been no updates since last year.

Trying to find a wordpress theme that I like has been a pain the ass. Seems that you can hardly find layout for blogs nowadays, simple blog I mean. With a sidebar on the side and the content column. No. It’s all fancy magazine style now. I hate them all. Ones that I do like are not free. I don’t see why you need to pay like $100 for ONE theme that you need, or pay monthly for ONE theme that you’re probably gonna use for years like I did? Ridiculous.

Well this is the best theme I can find. Not much options to customize, and I had to deal with the theme php files to customize a little bit of this and that but after couple of days of stressing out, I finally like how it turns out despite it looking a bit plain than before. I’m not 100% in love with it because my heart is still with my previous mystique theme and layout but this will do. It’s the best I can come up with. Also cleaned up a bit, so it don’t look so messy now.

I’m hoping to get back into blogging more often now. Consider the layout change as my first step of coming back from my long hiatus. Toodles.