Wisdom Tooth Sucks

May 27, 2015 at 6:04 AM

It’s 5 am and I’m in SO.MUCH.PAIN.

I thought I would never have to deal with my wisdom tooth. When I was in college, my dentist told me that my bottom wisdom teeth are impacted, and also touching my nerves. She suggested that if they don’t bother me, then it’s recommended to leave them alone. If I wanted to take them out, I needed to see professional, which would mean private dentist, which would mean – EXPENSIVE COST.

She told me roughly a tooth extraction would cost about RM1.5-2k. Hell, of course, I didn’t have that much. So, decided to leave them alone.

Now it’s fricken causing me so much pain because half of it somehow broke recently, there’s a huge gaping hole exposing the nerves. I even started Googling for an emergency dentist in Perth, with little luck. This past couple of days I could barely eat, drink, gargle and today I can’t even talk properly nor sleep. Even breathing through my mouth hurts so goddamn much. The pain has spread from my bottom right jaw to my ear down to my neck. Earlier today, something was swollen inside my throat as well. Gah! This is pure torture!

Kill me. Kill me now.

So Much Pain…

April 28, 2014 at 12:42 PM

girl_sleepingI don’t even know how to begin. I’ve been bawling my eyes out since morning. My eyes are so swollen, I look deformed right now.

About two weeks ago, I lost Keypoh, my cat. The next day after that I unexpectedly lost my kitten as well who had been sick for 2 weeks. It was such a painful tragedy because I didn’t know Keypoh was sick, and I knew my kitten was sick and I’ve been nurturing with much TLC for 2 weeks, hoping that he would be better but the next day he just.. died.

Goodbye Keypoh…

April 10, 2014 at 3:07 AM

At the beginning of every year, when I make my new year’s resolution or wish, there’s one thing that I always wish – to have an awesome year ahead. Wishing for no drama and no depression. And shortly after that, I get a confirmation that my wishes never came true when shit happened.

Yesterday morning, I lost Keypoh, one of my cats. I noticed that for the past week or two, she’s been quiet and not as energetic as she used to be. I sensed something was wrong but a few days ago she was back to her original self. She’s been eating, she was cheerful, until 2 days ago when she was so quiet and barely responding to me at all. She didn’t eat nor drink. I’ve faced kitty death so much that I know well the signs of you know.. death approaching. So I was preparing myself. At least when you’re expecting it, it won’t hurt as much as something that came as a shock. At least you have time to prepare and accept what’s coming. I had 2 days to prepare for what’s coming.

Apart from that, I’ve been having major health problems since last month. And it’s not helping that yesterday I woke up with an excruciating pain in my right foot – the same kind of pain I’ve been having since December in my left foot. It’s like they’ve switched. I don’t even know what happened. So since yesterday I’ve been in SO MUCH PAIN and limping like [insert a word here].

I have other problems too that I cannot mention here. I have high tolerance for pain and sorrow and depression but try having 5-10 major problems at the same time. Tell me if you don’t end up in a mental hospital or do something stupid. So for the past couple of weeks I’ve been avoiding people. I’m alone, always alone. I tried talking to some people about my problems but nobody understands my shit, nobody would help and end up making it worse. So screw that. I’ll deal with my shit alone.

It seems that the older I get, the more shit I get into, and the more I feel like … I don’t want to mention it here so let’s just end it at that.

Goodbye Keypoh.
I miss you so very much 🙁


Jonti Roos, the Attention Seeking Whore?

March 12, 2014 at 8:45 AM

What. The. Hell. Is. This?

An obvious attention whore. How disrespectful and insensitive could she be to reveal this piece of information on A Current Affair? Why not just take this story to the authorities or MAS and let them handle it? This should have been private and investigated on, not revealed on TV on this piece of trash show and upset everyone, including his family. Fariq may have changed over the years. This news was 3 years ago. He was young and he made a mistake. We all made mistakes when we were young. So if this girl was genuine about sharing this piece of information, she wouldn’t have contacted this sleazy TV show. She obviously wanted attention and took opportunity from this tragic situation.

I would be ashamed if I was her friend.

Anyways, I don’t have any right to make any judgment on Fariq as I didn’t know him personally. What he wanted to do with his life, that was his own thing. I think the big mistake he did was befriending this slut. Show some respect to the families, woman. They’re still very upset and sad and depressed. This piece of information is not helping anyway, and they need to focus on finding the plane first, not about this. Some people say it can compromise the safety of the passengers and open up the possibilities to hijackers… well, I don’t think the pilots would invite guys into the cockpit? As guys are common hijackers.

MH370, where on earth are you?
And we are getting very tired of hearing nothing, false leads and speculations.

EDIT// Mar 23rd

So what do you have to say about this?

Help, I’m Going Crazy!

January 26, 2014 at 5:52 AM

I'm going crazy


Now I realize how boring, dull and unproductive my life can get when I don’t have internet. I’ve been depending way too much on it and now when I have a shitload of work to do needing the internet, I don’t have it! And I thought, until I get my payment I can survive with my mobile internet… WRONG. That connection is even more shit. When I did get payment, suddenly so many other bills arrived needing me to pay for them first. ARGH.

I’m seriously going nuts here and I’m not exaggerating.

I’m also working on a project right now that I can’t reveal yet. But it’s so hard to proceed before the deadline when I have no internet. It requires constant googling and research and my mobile internet has been very slow and sometimes barely working at all. I hate this. Please God, I need my internet back. This is making me so stressed out that I feel like I want to stuff myself in a steel case, and hopefully get shipped to an island and start a fresh new life.

I’m thinking of getting a new personal domain. Just thinking it. This is my personal domain, emphasis on ‘personal’ which means I do write about stuff that nobody gives a shit about. This is more like my personal public journal/diary so that years later I could look back and remember things that happened. It beats writing down a shitload of stuff in a diary by hand. So I’m thinking I want a new not-so-personal blog where I write about everything else but my life. Should I or should I not? Hmm….

Now let’s see what I did today, back in 2008 – hah, just another day in college life. I miss it! I especially miss Film Appreciation..as the name says, it’s where you appreciate films. So all I did was watch films and appreciate! haha, best class ever. Same goes to some other film class like videography, video editing etc… I also miss the simpler life. I think I lead my life to the wrong track and now I’m paying the consequences. Hmm. That’s life.