A Little Stressed Out

December 1, 2011 at 4:15 AM

Yes I am.

I’m on the edge of bankruptcy. I’m not kidding. There’s nothing I can do in this city. If I was in KL, I’d have bigger and better opportunities to get a job that’s related to what I studied. I have loans to pay, bills to pay, personal expense to cover and I’m pulling my hair out right now. Why am I stuck in this city? Because I can’t afford KL lifestyle at the moment. Also, there’s NO WAY in hell that I’m going back living in that hell hole a.k.a my apartment.

I’m being pressured from every corner. My work, my mom, my ‘boss’, my colleague, my family, my own self… I just wish that I could disappear for a while. Sometimes I think that I’ve strayed too far from my life plan and made some bad choices .. especially leaving KL and leaving my passion. I don’t know. This is killing me. I just wish everybody would stop pressuring me, leave me be and let me do my own thing peacefully.

What’s even suckier is that I went into Amazon.com couple of days ago and saw majority of my DVDs that are in my wishlist are on SALE. Some are dirt cheap. And I can’t friggin afford them anymore! But I couldn’t let go two – CHARMED COMPLETE SERIES DVD which I’ve been wanting for SO LONG but it has always been so expensive.. It was on sale for USD$71.50 so technically each season cost about $9 only.. so that’s cheap.  The second one is THE VAMPIRE DIARIES SEASON 2 BLURAY which cost $23.00.. FUCKING FINALLY. I have been keeping an eye for this set to go cheap and finally it’s cheap enough for me to buy! Right after I ordered them Charmed increased to almost $100 and Vampire Diaries increased to almost $51.00 at the time I’m writing this.

There were a lot more DVD that were cheap but I didn’t order them fast enough and the next few hours they increased in price 🙁 This is so depressing but I did spend thousands on amazon for the past few months.. O_O;; I think now is a good time to save because it’s –


‘Tis the season to be jolly, falalala la la la laaaaaa….

Jolly my arse.. Gosh I can’t believe it’s the last month of 2011 already.. and I don’t think I’ve done anything productive this year…