February 17, 2007 at 4:35 AM

Fuck everything.

I’ve been so depressed it’s not even funny. If only I could end this all now but I can’t ๐Ÿ™ 2007 is such a fucking bad year for me. The worst being my computer that crashed… well the damn comp guy didn’t save the “MY DOCUMENTS” folder in drive c so I lost most important data and IMPORTANT PICTURES. Jeebus cripes. MY PICTURES. Years of memories gone within a blink of an eye! Webcam pics of me, my friends, my pets, videos I took, videos I edited… ALL GONE. I also lost more than 20 GIGS of Japanese music videos and clips I’ve downloaded over the past few years.

But my other documents are still there.. I managed to find some backups of webcam pics but only like 5% of them.. I still have my mp3s.. and videos and movies I downloaded off bittorrent. So fucking unfair.

Then somehow someone close to me decided not to talk to me anymore and I have no fucking idea why. What the fuck did I do? Oh fuck this. I’m through with this shit.

My precious, precious, precious cat has been missing for more than a week now. Tell me if all these things won’t affect you? Cuz I’m so fucking mad, crushed, heartbroken, depressed, suicidal.. all within a course of 2 weeks! This has got to be the worst punishment I’ve ever received and I don’t even know my crime!

Well shit happens. I gotta move on no matter how suicidal I feel. What a great start of new year huh? I wanna go back to KL badly. I hate Ipoh so fucking much now.

At least I’ve been pre-occupying myself with shopping and my new obsession – cooking ๐Ÿ™‚