Well, it’s Christmas day so Merry Christmas to those celebrating it.
This year has got to be the shittiest Christmas ever for me. Not only I have nobody to celebrate it with, didn’t get any presents, not even from myself like I usually would, but this week has been the most devastating Christmas week ever.
On Monday, which is 3 days ago, I lost my beloved Puteh. He was sick with fever since last week and I didn’t take him to the vet because I’m so stupid. I thought it was just a normal fever and that he was getting better. He got out of bed and all. Turned out his condition had worsened. Monday was supposed to be a good day because I won a free pizza from Vivo Pizza and was supposed to go to AEON Station 18 to enjoy it but when I woke up, Puteh started choking and I tried to rush him to the vet but he just… didn’t make it.
I don’t deserve to live. Please kill me and end my misery. The pain is too much for me. I miss him too much and I feel so guilty. God I’m such a useless human being.
The next day, my friend told me her rabbit died, and yesterday her kitten died. See how much devastation I have this week for me? But 2 days ago, my outdoor cat had 2 new babies, hopefully she can take care of them.
I was told I should blog more with less depressing stuff… well my life has been depressing and I wish I could write something happy and cheerful like I used to but there’s none. Nothing. All I’ve been doing is just sit at home, write stuff, watch stuff, eat, sleep. That’s all.
Usually I’d be spending my Christmas eve with movie marathon while munching some gingerbread cookies but this year I didn’t. I’ve already planned to watch holiday movies on Netflix but I’m too depressed to do so. I did put on HyppTV’s Comedy Central and they had ‘Chrismassy’ Saturday Night Life marathon so I guess that’s enough.
I’m just gonna watch a bit of Youtube then sleep.
My year is not ending good.