SURVIVAL #2

This is the post about last week hehe. My hell-ish week. This is my 2nd survival. hehe. Okay, so after the crazyness about the group project, I felt so relieved because all the tension on the creative part is gone. So that night I get to sleep without stress for the first time after a few weeks since I’ve already finished my clay assignment and the drawing and stuff so I had nothing to do. Wednesday same thing, no stress. Come Thursday..I went through hell again.

It was raining hard. I was getting ready to go to my Animation 1 class. So with my clay, and assignment I went to my car. Then I entered my car and I noticed my front window was very blurry and I was like wtf? I looked closer and OH MY GOD.

MY CAR’S FRONT WINDOW CRACKED!

It was so bad that every inches of it is cracked. I closed the door and BAM, the glass shattered on the floor and onto me. I was like panicking, with a hole in the front window, and it was raining so I ran back to my place, told mom and went back downstairs. We don’t know what happened. Could be heat, could be people…because there’s been few cracked window cases.

I was panicking before not only the window is cracked, I also had the clay due that day and I had no way to go there. We tried to solve things but so far, no luck. To make long story short, luckily there’s a car repair shop outside of this flat, so I walked there and asked that guy to take the car and fix it. While waiting, a taxi parked in front of my car, and came up to me to ask what happened. So with my puppy dog eyes, hoping he’d feel sorry for me because I’m panicking about my assignment that’s due and help me, I told the story and voila! He offered help XD I don’t care anymore.. all I wanted is to submit the assignment because Mr Terry is not the permanent lecturer there so I won’t be able to submit the next day.. I’d have to wait until next week’s class so imagine how many marks I would’ve lost.

So after he ate his lunch, he took me to college and I rushed to see Mr Terry. Ito was still there so I got the notes from him :D I submitted the assignment :D AND Mr Terry was so nice that he let me sign the attendance because I took the effort to be there XD Gotta love Mr Terry.

OMG you have no idea how relieved I was! I get to submit all the assignment, got the notes, attendance no affected and Ito put my name for new class hour which is 4-6 pm now. XD So $15 gone for the taxi and $250 for the replacement window but I survived that emergency thank god.

Here are some pics on my window.

See? IT SHATTERED.

See the cracks?

Shattered glasses.

Lots of bits.. my arms were very itchy cuz of the tiny pieces poking my skins.. those you can barely see.

And it was all over the car.

Well that was my story.
Anyways, while we’re on the car subject, I’d like to do a shameless plug…get steering rack at carsteering.com lol.

Today was a long day. Blog about it coming soon.

Hmm
Again, wanted to blog about what happened last week but kinda got lazy. So I’m just posting random shit today lol. My left hear is hurting bad :( I think there’s a wound there and it got infected. I remember I used to get same kind of infected and pain in my ear except worse, and like oozing out liquid.. it’s not gross tho, it’s not like icky puss or anything.. but omg, the intensity of the pain was extreme.. and until it got better, I could barely hear correctly. It was so annoying. And extremely painful. I would constantly cry out loud :(

My right eye is also hurting but the pain has lessen now. I poked my eye with my finger yesterday x.x Oh well. I’ve been quite a klutz lately. And in photography class I screwed up my whole film cuz I’m stupid and I can’t get over it. Don’t know why. It’s just a test film where I took pics of things randomly but since I was the only one stupid enough to fuck it, so I’m like hating self o.O I can’t get over it argh.

I better go back to sleep now.
I’ll blog again later today.
Yesterday was a very long day.
Btw, how do you pronounce CAT5e? I’ve blogged about it before but I still don’t know how to pronounce it.

Originally I thought I wanted to blog about something, but I got lazy so I decided to post lyrics XD Okay.. this past few days I’ve been re-addicting myself to old JPOP songs that I used to like few years back. I’ve been download clips and songs from youtube like crazy. So I’d like to post one of my fave songs of all time….. ORENJI NO TAIYOU. It’s a soundtrack from the movie “MOONCHILD” starring Gackt, Hyde & Lee Hom. Omg I miss this movie. I want to watch it again but the cd is in Ipoh. The movie is like one of my faves because OH MY GAWD can you say BISHOUNEN HEAVEN???????  I mean Gackt & Hyde together with a little hint of shounen ai (boys love) PLUS VAMPIRE THEME? That’s like super major double uber ultra turn on for me! I’d have multiple orgasm throughout the movie, lol.

Unfortunately, the song is extremely sad. I’ll cry every single time. You’ll know why if you’ve watched Moonchild. Now I wanna see the concert again.. blah cd in Ipoh too. Anyways, this is a live performance from his concert (jyougen no tsuki saishuushou)… it was supposed to be a duet with Hyde but Hyde was busy with L’arc-en-ciel. :(

Random thoughts: I feel like cooking again. I need to find recipes and cook..first I want a portable gas cooker x.x Or those electric one… Hm now I want to listen to Gackt’s Crescent album… omg I can’t believe I bought that album for like over $150…omg. But no regret, the album is just awesome!

PS: I’m posting romaji lyrics & english translation

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オレンジの太陽 (Orenji no Taiyou)
by GACKT

yuugure ni kimi to mita orenji no taiyou
nakisou na kao wo shite eien no sayonara

kirameku nami to tawamureteita
mujyaki na kimi no sono yokogao
suashi de sunahama wo kakenukeru
kimi ga itoshii

suna ni kaita kimi no na to
kazaritsuketa kaigara ha
kata wo yoseta bokura no mae de
nami ni sarawareta

yuugure ni kimi to mita orenji no taiyou
nakisou na kao wo shite eien no sayonara

aoi sora ha iki wo hisomete
akai yuuhi ni dakareteyuku
boku mo kimi wo dakishimenagara hitomi wo tojita

ikutsumono yorobi ya kanashimi mo
kazoekirenai deai ya wakare mo
ano koro to kawarazu yasashiku miteru
orenji no taiyou

eien wo yume miteta ano koro no bokura ha
itsumademo hanarezu ni dakiatte waratteta

akireru hodo kimi wo omou yo
sore dake de boku ha mitasareru
nakanai de itsudatte aeru yo
hitomi wo tojireba…

yuugure ni kimi to mita orenji no taiyou
nakisou na kao wo shite eien no sayonara

yuugure ni kimi to mita orenji no taiyou
nakisou na kao wo shite eien no sayonara

——–ENGLISH TRANSLATION———-

The orange sun I saw with you at dusk
making a face about to cry, the big farewell.

Watching your innocent face
as you played in the glimmering waves.
Running all over the beach barefoot,
How I adored you.

Your name we wrote in the sand,
and the shells we adorned it with,
shoulder to shoulder
we watched as the waves wiped it away before us.

The orange sun I saw with you at dusk
making a face about to cry, the big farewell.

The blue sky, slows its breathing,
to embrace the red setting sun
As I too held you, I closed my eyes.

all the joys and sadnesses,
the countless encounters and partings
just as it did back then,
the orange sun oversees them all.

back then we dreamed of an eternity
laughing, we held each other for so long.

It’s stunning how much I think of you.
That’s all I needed to satisfy myself.
Don’t cry, We can meet again anytime,
just by closing our eyes…

The orange sun I saw with you at dusk
making a face about to cry, the big farewell.

My god I’m so tired. Yesterday there was a charity carnival at my college so I was asked by Kah Mun to help and I agreed and oh man.. it was burning hot, it was crowded, and it was crazy madness. I’ll blog about it later today if I feel like it. Have some other thing to blog about first. Plus I’ll post pictures. Blah, I passed out at like 9 pm and I woke up at 2 something am and now I can’t sleep, and I had a good dream too, damn.

Anyways, just a bit of site review before I go. If you lucky people reading this has a pool, why not head to poolandbeachtoys.com and buy some pool toys….? They have like stuff for your pools like toys, floats, and also backyard toys. Heh, I’ve always wanted a pool. When I was little, I’d use this basin where my mom use for laundry and my cousin and I would use the hose and just go crazy. Then my fucking uncle who is no longer my uncle cuz I loathe him would see us playing and beat the shit out of us lol

Well as you’ve read in my previous posts, I’ve been having problems with my group project. I was in hell. But, thank god, I survived it all…so far.This is going to be a very long entry.

So ever since Nesh, our ‘group leader’ defered the whole sem, we are left with no one with leadership quality. I’m stepping back because I don’t want to handle such responsibility but unfortunately, if I didn’t do anything, we’re completely fucked because it seems that no one cares. So I had to step up and DO SOMETHING.

I gave Jackie work to do and Ito, but both didn’t do anything. I was panicking on Monday because they said they’d do on Tuesday morning when I KNEW all along we wouldn’t be able to finish it on if we do it on Tuesday. He couldn’t draw the storyboard so I had to give to Bryan to draw it cuz he was the only one who could draw.

I did my work. With me, I always will have a backup plan in case things don’t go great. So I did a bad sketches for storyboard so I could put it in my comp and do the animatics. I planned Jackie could finish the work by Monday but when he couldn’t, I had to come up with a plan on the spot. And I also did the style board. I gave Jackie the simplest work which is writing two column script -

He couldn’t do that either.

…..

I was panicking even more. Because Monday night, my phone line and net was fucked up from 12 am… I WENT CRAZY! It was the last strike for me.. I broke down.. I was crying so bad in frustration, I was pissed off, I was screaming and cursing until 3 am when I was just about to go to bed and was feeling suicidal, and suddenly my phone line and net came back! So I quickly searched for pics, did the style board and went to bed at 4 am with very swollen/puffy eyes.

I woke up at 9 am. Panicked some more when I called Bryan, he haven’t fnished coloring the storyboard. Got ready. Went to print the style board… I only arrived at class at 11am. Luckily Mr Kelvin is a nice lecturer.. :D So I wasn’t in trouble for coming to class late. Filled in subject evaluation form..then went to the library with Jackie, Kah Mun & Ying to check on Bryan. Things didn’t look great. We needed color pencils and couldn’t find any. I just said we had to setlle with the color marker we had.

I was losing hope. We all went to lunch. Then Ito came. I pitied Bryan cuz he was doing it alone. I wanted to help him so bad but I couldn’t draw no color. By 12.30 pm we all went back to library… I told them to help Bryan with coloring..more shit happened. I was losing more hope. I was preparing for the worse. I saw Esther in front of me and she was looking calm. I was like oh shit.

As I remember we’re not supposed to show script on that day but Jackie told me I should do the two column script anyway so I thought maybe I should as a backup. That was the best decision ever because it turned out we needed it. As everyone is helping with each other, I did the script with Ito.

Finally when the coloring is done, it was like 15 mins to class. Bryan and I rushed to the IT room to scan it but that guy said to use the scanner that’s outside and there was like 20 fucking people crowding it, waiting to use the machine. That’s one thing I don’t like about Segi college. I never photocopy paper there. Scanning? It would scan to email… what? Like 20 pieces of paper scanned to email? WTF? Considering the connection at college is like a fucking snail, how long do we have to wait to download the email attachment? WTF. That’s so stupid. I ran back up to the library and said there’s no time.. used my backup plan. I had a feeling scanning would be a problem so I prepared a plan B at home which is taking photos of the storyboard using my digi cam.

It worked. Dura came. I told the rest to help with pasting the storyboard onto the mounting board while I rush to download photos to my comp and redid the animatics. We went to class at 2.15 pm but luckily everyone including Mr Eddie just came too so we weren’t late. At this point, my group started making jokes again so stress is lessen a bit.

Everything turned out ok. I think Mr Eddie thinks the styleboard is okay.. so we had everything done JUST IN TIME. You had absolutely no idea how relieved I felt at that time after all the stress. After all of this I seriously need a vacation. Since lately I’ve been looking into cruise ship stuff…it’d be nice if I could just get away from all of this, find a good cruise deals and spend some time away from the land in a total luxurious crusie ship. Sigh. A girl can dream, can’t she?

1ST SURVIVAL. 2ND SURVIVAL COMING UP.

Sorry people. If you came to the site since couple of days ago, you may have noticed that my blog has been FLAGGED as being a suspicious site…

I had absolutely no idea wtf was that o.O

But it’s true, when I loaded my site, my antivirus warning told me that my site is distributing some kind of trojan. I have no idea where the fuck that came from, but after that I deleted any links I see suspicious, I don’t think it’s distributing trojan anymore, I’ve asked google to re-review the site again and I think my site has been deflagged. Let me know if you still see it flagged.

This past 2 weeks had been extremely stressful to me but the hellish part is sorta temporarily over. Tell you about it tomorrow. I decided to treat myself with Dominos Pizza tonight as part of stress relief. Now I just need some wieght loss pills to kill the fat I’ve consumed and to stop the weight I would be gaining from tonight :( :(

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I HATE GROUP PROJECTS.

Shoot me,k?

Wtf is wrong with the people in my group? Why the hell don’t they care about failing it?????? And why the hell are they dragging me in????

Fuck this. I’m not gonna bother with this shit. I’ll do my work I need to relax myself before my blood vessel bursts.

I want Pn Ju. I want her to do what she did with that fucking Jeya. I want her to YELL at her in front of the class for not cooperating in the group. If only Pn Ju is my lecturer now…….

Me and Jackie called Dura. She wasn’t answering. Called Halili. Wasn’t answering. Called Ito… HE FORGOT. He wants to do the work tomorrow. Is he fucking kidding me? Why not just kill me and be done with it… so I don’t have to go through the embarassment of not having anything to present on presentation day.

On the brighter side however, yesterday I met with Bryan at Centrepoint to discuss our presentation. Never knew he’s a fun guy. Always thought he’s a quiet guy. We have lots in common, especially on Japanese culture and language. First we discussed at McDonalds…he treated me banana pie, yum. Then couple of hours later, i went back to my place to get my laptop charger and went to pump gas..since burger king is there we thought we’d discuss there…wanted to go to the malls but too many people.. So we just sat at burger king until 8 pm discussing our presentation.

And we finished our presentation, and luckily our presentation today was not bad at all! Ms Jenny didn’t say much on it, and thought it’s ok. We’re both happy and relieved about it. At least that’s something good.

I’ve written about mesothelioma before right?

Ahhhh.. I was looking at websites and I found this website that sells slipcovers for sofas and chairs. OMG is there anything like that sold in Malaysia? Cuz I need something like that so badly. Remember when my house was broken into and the took one of the cushion covers to use as like a bag to put our stuffs in there? Those fucking bastards… because of that my lovely Fella Design sofa that we bought for over $1000 looks very retarded now. We went to Fella Design to see if they can duplicate the cover but unfortunately they don’t come up with that design anymore… :( We tried everywhere else even private tailor but it’s too hard to make.

Plus my sofa looks icky now. And I sleep there when I go back so that’s why I always get my asthma when I sleep on it. So having a slipcover would fix a lot of problems. Argh where can I get it in Malaysia? :( :( :(

I want to vent about people and college but since I can’t do it openly I might do a privately. I think I’ll make it password protected so no creeping eyes can see.

It’s hard when both of my phone lines are barred now. I can’t message or call my friends. I don’t have the money to pay for it because of the stupid fucking monitor. I’ll have enough by the end of month around $300+ (RM 1100) but blah… so much money but will be gone within a blink of the eye… Hopefully I can get cheaper good monitor and I have some left to spend.

It’s easier with credit cards for emergency :( Students can’t have credit cards. When I see the smart balance transfers website, they have cards for student. So unfair. I want one. I want to pay my bills now. I want my phone line back.

Soon I’ll blog about college stuff in a password protected entry. Rahhh. I’m not in a good mood. Stress is taking its toll on me.