If you’ve noticed, I changed the layout, and added the tag box again. I absolutely love this layout and the colors as pink and black are my faves, clean and simple. I wish my room can be pink and black, and clean and simple. Anyways, I have meeting in like 20 minutes and I’m not ready. Blah. Hate it. I want a vacuum for my room, it’s so dusty.. and air filters to clean the air but I need money to buy portable external 500 GB HDD. I badly and desperately need it because I’m not gonna carry the whole 1 TB external HDD everywhere. Unfortunately PC fair in December will be held on the 3 days I have my graduation showcase. FML.

With luck, H helped me in getting the remaining RM150 to pay for the grad showcase. I’m extremely happy now that I have some money to spend on my basic needs. I so need a job. Well I better get ready for meeting. Blah.

Gah. What a luck.
My thumb is 85% better, cold is gone, coughing almost gone, backpain gone and guess what? Now I feel like I wanna vomit. I suspect food poisoning. I have no idea what food I ate that caused it. I can’t eat food that’s bad or expired, if I don’t puke, worse come to worse, at least headache, feeling nauseated and urrgh diarrhea? Hate it. Problem is I have to be at the shooting location today for the whole day, and I’m not feeling that well. That’s gonna suck.

Yesterday went to the office from 1 pm to 5 pm. Did some work. Got myself bubble tea, again. @_@ Then went shopping with mom and dinner while feeling completely sick.

If you haven’t noticed, I changed the layout! I like this layout and I don’t know why. I’m working on my food blog again after it being on hiatus for a year. Then I’m gonna work on my other school/work blog. Ok I better get some rest now, in 3 hours I have to be at the shooting location.

This ephedrine site says that I could lose weight rapidly … but they’re reformulating it. I wonder if it really works as they say it does? If so, it’s something I really need then.

My domain is expiring in a few days… if I don’t fork out another $50 bucks this domain will be gone. So bye bye.

*if you can’t tell I’m in major depression now*

EDIT// I have opted for monthly payment, because turns out the $50 setup fee is waived  for me for being over 97 days. So now I have to pay $10.95 every month instead of $9.95 when paid annually. Such a hassle. But on the positive side, if in case I need to switch host, cancel hosting, or whatever, I can do so now without worrying that I’ve already paid for a year.

I’ve been thinking of switching host anyway… any recommendation that’s cheap, and RELIABLE in terms of uptime and support. Plus with 1-click install of any scripts or application with 1-click update… I don’t want to use FTP to update everytime.

Anyways, proper blog coming soon. Blah I have much updating to do. I just finished a project yesterday and today I was just given a new one which has to be researched, compiled, edited and rendered within 24 hours. Fun. I broke a part of my laptop at the part where the heat comes out…. now I have an ugly hole at the bottom back of this laptop. Poor laptop. :(

I want pearl necklaces…

I”m at work, and I’m taking a break. My god, I have been so stressful today. And I’m sleepy as fuck.

I just got an email about my domain auto-renewing this month… that means my hosting is up too… gah. I have to fork up USD$120 by the end of the month or else bye bye blog :( Not sure how though, cuz I spent my last dollar at the petrol station this morning.. so I have no money now.. totally broke. Mom borrowed some money so that’s why I’m broke.. she bought a new washing machine o.O That’s why we’re broke o.O; But thank god no more bitching from mom about washing my clothes lol. Now she has no excuse not to do my laundry :P

Gah I wanna go home now… I hope I don’t have to work 24 hours today, that’s crazy dude o.O; Fuck I so want some days off next week! I have to finish montage today o.O And flyer… but I’m not sure they will want to use my flyer though…I can’t be in a creative mode when I’m sleepy as hell.

New layout, bitches.

It’s February, and I thought this theme fits the mood for Valentine, which I’ll be celebrating A-L-O-N-E. Took out the tagboard cuz it wouldn’t fit the sidebar, and I have yet to add some stuff from the old layout so… I’ll do that later. I’m currently too busy :\

Today is supposed to be a holiday but nope, just like yesterday, I have to work, blah. I am overloaded with work too… with really tight deadline.. I have to get a montage done by today… then a poster… I hope I’m not given much work today so I can finish my poster at work.

But yesterday, work was much more relaxed than usual, lol. I arrived at almost 11 am cuz I was procrastinating lol. Then I just sat around watching American Idol (yay for tv) until 12 pm… then watched some more tv until like 1.30 pm… while at the same we brainstormed ideas and stuff. It was just me and my 2nd supervisor cuz everybody was either busy, didn’t come or disappeared lol.

I had to revise my shirt design.. and yay, they chose my design XD Revised the flag design… and did some other minor stuff. I went home at 4.30 pm cuz I was too tired to stay longer, and I wanted to do my other work at home but I ended up passed out on my bed until 10 pm. Bleh.

Ok, I’m like friggin hungry now. Gonna eat, and then at least sleep for an hour before work.

HAPPY RAMADHAN.

Fasting started yesterday so today would be the 2nd day of fasting. Unfortunately I can’t fast yet lol. Um it’s a girl thing. But unfortunately I still have to act like I am. Sure I can secretly eat and drink but there’s nothing to eat :( So I’d have to wait until break of fast where mom would make something.. that’d be around 7 pm.

The past 2 days I’ve been working on my new college blog and DRUMROLL… presenting:

EXCENTRIX!

I just thought I’d have a separate blog to put all of my college stuff/works without having my personal stuff mixed in together. They’re lots more pictures that I haven’t put up yet…which I’ll try to finish tonight XD

Any heard of CAMP ROCK? Sure, kids and disney movies enthusiast would have already watched it. It will premiere this week on Disney Channel Asia on Sept 7th if I’m not mistaken.. now I like disney original movies.. you know how much I looooooove High School Musical.. so before I was kinda looking forward for Camp Rock UNTIL…..

I started hating The Jonas Brothers.

OMG I can’t stand them now. Not only they remind me of Hanson (which I was obsessed with before) but they can’t friggin sing. Their voice annoys me big time. Their songs are so annoying. I just can’t stand Jonas Brothers. They’re so overrated. Unfortunately they’re in Camp Rock. I wanna watch because of Demi Lovato cuz I think she’s pretty, but urgh Jonas Brothers? God help me. Each time I see them or hear them, I feel like strangling a crocodile.

My face is so itchy right now. If upclose, you can see black dots like tiny little pixels on my face..

Sorry people. If you came to the site since couple of days ago, you may have noticed that my blog has been FLAGGED as being a suspicious site…

I had absolutely no idea wtf was that o.O

But it’s true, when I loaded my site, my antivirus warning told me that my site is distributing some kind of trojan. I have no idea where the fuck that came from, but after that I deleted any links I see suspicious, I don’t think it’s distributing trojan anymore, I’ve asked google to re-review the site again and I think my site has been deflagged. Let me know if you still see it flagged.

This past 2 weeks had been extremely stressful to me but the hellish part is sorta temporarily over. Tell you about it tomorrow. I decided to treat myself with Dominos Pizza tonight as part of stress relief. Now I just need some wieght loss pills to kill the fat I’ve consumed and to stop the weight I would be gaining from tonight :( :(

I just installed this plugin called Deepest Sender so I can blog from my browser without actually having to go to my site, log in, go to wordpress interface, typing and submitting the blog. This would make quick blogging to my site easier.

So I’m just testing it. If this appears, cool it worked!

EDIT//

Yes it worked, cool. When I’m currently depressed.. blah. So I don’t feel like blogging much. I also need to get some acne solutions fast because I hate getting breakouts from all the stress, and depression and especially from the lack of sleep since I feel restless nowadays. Blah. Monday is public holiday so this week I had 5 days off, great. Well I’m gonna go lay down and well…do something. Hopefully I’ll feel better when I wake up. I have to sleep on the floor tonight cuz my cat peed on the bed…great.

I am suddenly emo tonight. I don’t know… I tend to get during that time of the month I guess… you know the usual shit, feeling that I’m useless…and I’m not good enough for HIM …that kind of stuff.. don’t worry I’ll be ok. I have many things to do tomorrow particularly SL related stuff in the morning, and then websites. I still don’t know when to go back to Ipoh. Frankly, I can’t handle that emotional stress again of seeing my house.

I’m also emo about certain someone… I hate it when at the time a person wants you the most, you are always there…you endure all the depression, his sorrow, carry this huge burden of his that you shouldn’t be carrying but when you’re the one with problems, that person acts like you don’t exist. I’m beginning to hate ‘him’ more and more everyday… enough stress and tension from him. I hope he’s happy even after doing all this shit to me. That’s ok. I accept this fate. Hope he’s happy…and live fucking happily ever after. Even though only my baby Aaron knows ‘who’ I’m talking about, and what I’ve been going through with him…it’s okay. I’m used to having people judging me. I have no idea why I’m showing to people that I have ‘attitude’ or someone that I’m totally not..I don’t know what people see… unless of course they get to know the real me.

bus for sale – I want one, then make it like a trailer… a comfy one and just drive endlessly… with no place to go … just driving endlessly… alone… just to get away from this life that I have.

Okay, it seems like I so need sleep… get rid of this emo-ness and crankyness.

PS: I have upgraded wordpress. Yay.

Even if I’m anti-social, doesn’t mean I should be FORGOTTEN

I hate this. I fucking hate this. I hate taking all this craps from other people. Last Thursday, I was up all night working on my flipbook animation that was supposed to be due on Friday. So I was so stressed, tension.. cranky, fucking sleepy as hell …tired… then come Friday, mom asked me to send my uncle (who came for one day) to the bus station but since I was so busy with the flipbook I said no. I felt SOOOOOOO bad because mom and uncle were panicking and I couldn’t do anything because I was only halfway finished with my drawing. Plus, I was told there was a meeting at 3 pm.

Guess what?

STORY #1–> Just before 3 pm, I rushed in HEAVY RAIN to school for the meeting and when I got there the room was fucking E-M-P-T-Y! So I messaged Ally and guess what? It was a a “LET’S TELL EVERYONE THE MEETING IS CANCELED BUT LET’S FORGET TO TELL TANY‘ day! I was so fucking pissed because I rushed in heavy rain, declined to send my uncle because of the meeting and turned out it was fucking canceled and no one even fucking bothered to fucking tell me!

*breathes*

STORY #2–> After that, I went to the library to finish my drawing and I messaged Rashman if he submitted the flipbook already and guess what? Now it’s “MR EDDIE SAID FLIPBOOK CAN BE SUBMITTED ON MONDAY NOW BUT LET’S FORGET TO TELL TANY‘ day! Weee! *sarcastic look* So pissed, upset, disappointed, I called mom.

STORY #3–> To add insult to injury, it’s now the “LET’S MAKE TANY FEEL EVEN MORE BAD AND BLAME HER FOR NOT SENDING UNCLE OFF” day! Mom was yelling and making me feel sooooo bad that after I hung up the phone, I ran to my car and cried my fucking arse off because I felt extremely bad.

I’m pissed that no one even bothered to let me know anything.. fucking vice president of student leader my arse! I don’t have a fucking clue what’s going on…if I tell anyone, I get yelled at for not asking other people what’s going on… yeah sure, ask them… when I ask, they don’t tell me.. when I don’t ask, they don’t tell me either so what’s the point??? I’m seriously thinking of resigning my post middle of the year and just concentrate on my studies. I can’t take this stress anymore.

However, after crying my arse off, I went to the mall and got myself starbucks and big apple donuts and that made me feel better until the next morning, when I woke up and smelled cat pee. Turned out, my cat Jojo fucking peed on my LAPTOP and new bed! I don’t know if the piss went inside the lappy or not but for 2 days my lappy smelled of cat pee. I was so fucking depressed and I guess I was pms’ing that I just snapped and was in a bad mood for 2 days. It unfortunately affected me and Aaron but I’m sorry, I couldn’t help it. It was just too much for me. Plus with the toothpain. Urgh,

Speaking of toothpain… my gum has swelled up now and the pain has spread from my left jaw to my left side of neck now. I made a dentist appointment for tomorrow (it’s called iSMILE Dental Center, in Damansara Uptown, only 5 mins from my place) and hopefully it’s nothing serious and not involving the root where tooth extraction is necessary… oh heavens no.. please god no… heaven forbid..

I have also changed the layout. I got bored with the last one, this one looks cool to me… and also updated link exchange request :) Oh and new site coming very soon!

Last but not least, truck bed liner anyone? Anybody uses truck here?