I just installed this plugin called Deepest Sender so I can blog from my browser without actually having to go to my site, log in, go to wordpress interface, typing and submitting the blog. This would make quick blogging to my site easier.

So I’m just testing it. If this appears, cool it worked!

EDIT//

Yes it worked, cool. When I’m currently depressed.. blah. So I don’t feel like blogging much. I also need to get some acne solutions fast because I hate getting breakouts from all the stress, and depression and especially from the lack of sleep since I feel restless nowadays. Blah. Monday is public holiday so this week I had 5 days off, great. Well I’m gonna go lay down and well…do something. Hopefully I’ll feel better when I wake up. I have to sleep on the floor tonight cuz my cat peed on the bed…great.

I am suddenly emo tonight. I don’t know… I tend to get during that time of the month I guess… you know the usual shit, feeling that I’m useless…and I’m not good enough for HIM …that kind of stuff.. don’t worry I’ll be ok. I have many things to do tomorrow particularly SL related stuff in the morning, and then websites. I still don’t know when to go back to Ipoh. Frankly, I can’t handle that emotional stress again of seeing my house.

I’m also emo about certain someone… I hate it when at the time a person wants you the most, you are always there…you endure all the depression, his sorrow, carry this huge burden of his that you shouldn’t be carrying but when you’re the one with problems, that person acts like you don’t exist. I’m beginning to hate ‘him’ more and more everyday… enough stress and tension from him. I hope he’s happy even after doing all this shit to me. That’s ok. I accept this fate. Hope he’s happy…and live fucking happily ever after. Even though only my baby Aaron knows ‘who’ I’m talking about, and what I’ve been going through with him…it’s okay. I’m used to having people judging me. I have no idea why I’m showing to people that I have ‘attitude’ or someone that I’m totally not..I don’t know what people see… unless of course they get to know the real me.

bus for sale - I want one, then make it like a trailer… a comfy one and just drive endlessly… with no place to go … just driving endlessly… alone… just to get away from this life that I have.

Okay, it seems like I so need sleep… get rid of this emo-ness and crankyness.

PS: I have upgraded wordpress. Yay.

Even if I’m anti-social, doesn’t mean I should be FORGOTTEN

I hate this. I fucking hate this. I hate taking all this craps from other people. Last Thursday, I was up all night working on my flipbook animation that was supposed to be due on Friday. So I was so stressed, tension.. cranky, fucking sleepy as hell …tired… then come Friday, mom asked me to send my uncle (who came for one day) to the bus station but since I was so busy with the flipbook I said no. I felt SOOOOOOO bad because mom and uncle were panicking and I couldn’t do anything because I was only halfway finished with my drawing. Plus, I was told there was a meeting at 3 pm.

Guess what?

STORY #1–> Just before 3 pm, I rushed in HEAVY RAIN to school for the meeting and when I got there the room was fucking E-M-P-T-Y! So I messaged Ally and guess what? It was a a “LET’S TELL EVERYONE THE MEETING IS CANCELED BUT LET’S FORGET TO TELL TANY‘ day! I was so fucking pissed because I rushed in heavy rain, declined to send my uncle because of the meeting and turned out it was fucking canceled and no one even fucking bothered to fucking tell me!

*breathes*

STORY #2–> After that, I went to the library to finish my drawing and I messaged Rashman if he submitted the flipbook already and guess what? Now it’s “MR EDDIE SAID FLIPBOOK CAN BE SUBMITTED ON MONDAY NOW BUT LET’S FORGET TO TELL TANY‘ day! Weee! *sarcastic look* So pissed, upset, disappointed, I called mom.

STORY #3–> To add insult to injury, it’s now the “LET’S MAKE TANY FEEL EVEN MORE BAD AND BLAME HER FOR NOT SENDING UNCLE OFF” day! Mom was yelling and making me feel sooooo bad that after I hung up the phone, I ran to my car and cried my fucking arse off because I felt extremely bad.

I’m pissed that no one even bothered to let me know anything.. fucking vice president of student leader my arse! I don’t have a fucking clue what’s going on…if I tell anyone, I get yelled at for not asking other people what’s going on… yeah sure, ask them… when I ask, they don’t tell me.. when I don’t ask, they don’t tell me either so what’s the point??? I’m seriously thinking of resigning my post middle of the year and just concentrate on my studies. I can’t take this stress anymore.

However, after crying my arse off, I went to the mall and got myself starbucks and big apple donuts and that made me feel better until the next morning, when I woke up and smelled cat pee. Turned out, my cat Jojo fucking peed on my LAPTOP and new bed! I don’t know if the piss went inside the lappy or not but for 2 days my lappy smelled of cat pee. I was so fucking depressed and I guess I was pms’ing that I just snapped and was in a bad mood for 2 days. It unfortunately affected me and Aaron but I’m sorry, I couldn’t help it. It was just too much for me. Plus with the toothpain. Urgh,

Speaking of toothpain… my gum has swelled up now and the pain has spread from my left jaw to my left side of neck now. I made a dentist appointment for tomorrow (it’s called iSMILE Dental Center, in Damansara Uptown, only 5 mins from my place) and hopefully it’s nothing serious and not involving the root where tooth extraction is necessary… oh heavens no.. please god no… heaven forbid..

I have also changed the layout. I got bored with the last one, this one looks cool to me… and also updated link exchange request :) Oh and new site coming very soon!

Last but not least, truck bed liner anyone? Anybody uses truck here?

My toothache is beginning to worsen.. I think this time I have to go to dentist no matter how much I fear them ever since when I was little, they pulled my tooth out that wasn’t supposed to be pulled, causing me to bleed for at least 2 days. Ever since that, I developed a phobia of dentist. I have a long blog to write about but I’m busy right now so I have to wait until tomorrow or Friday.

Guess what? Gonna talk about online casino slots again which is not something new, lol. I wonder how many actually use this casino rating site thing? Do you even play online casino? What it’s like? The only slot game I play at is at neopets, lol. You know, that reminds me of something. I read in newspaper few days ago about this girl who won like $9 million for lottery I think.. and she spent it all in 9 years, now she’s all broke.. O.o; Seriously, if I won that much..omg… lol. I could finish it all in a year :P Haha. But that would be stupid. What I’d do is invest..and put it in bank.. so I don’t have to work for the rest of my life and still can be living large ;)

I’ll update any link exchange tomorrow :) Any of you wanna link exchange feel free to leave a message in the tagboard or comment :D

Woah. Today was very tiring O.O;;;;

First thing is that, I miss my baby Aaron. He’s on business trip in Yokohama since yesterday, and for this 2 days we’ve only talked for a total time of 6 hours. It’s driving me nuts at the moment…but thank goodness he’s going home tomorrow… so I’ve been trying to keep myself busy… which mean, I accepted the one day part-time job offer at my college today… TELE-MARKETING!

One thing I hate is contacting people on phone. lol. Since my mom encouraged me, so I decided to go. I had to call 80 people for me to get paid and I did! I came at 12 pm, boy was that a mistake. I saw the rest of chinese girls (like 4 of them or so) calling up people and a guy - APEX! Haha.. good thing that there’s someone familiar there. I was freaking out at first to call but once I started, I couldn’t stop o.O;I was working nonstop until 5.15 pm…. I totally didn’t feel it was long because seriously, I got so busy time was passing by like within a blink of an eye. Apex finished a bit earlier than me but he was so nice to wait for me to finish, he even called someone to help me finish my last entry lol. I shouldn’t be scared you know.. since I was in secretarial course o.O I had experience before… but it was all interesting and a good experience. And we had so many funny calls lol. Me and Apex were laughing.

Yesterday was fun too… we had practical again and I took pictures and LOTS of videos but I”m too tired to post. Maybe tomorrow. Hehe. RIght now I have works to do so I’ll end this blog here. Tomorrow I”ll blog more and post pictures! God I feel so dead. Oh I just downloaded motorama movie, FINALLY! I went to Ikano yesterday alone, and saw Sony HD flat screen tv for RM20,000…fuck. But damn…if only I could get that huge HD tv, plus HD dvd player…then set my house like a home theater…put some home theater chairs…just like a mini movie theater like how I saw on MTV Cribs..then wow… I won’t even leave the room! LOL. Total relaxing time watching HD DVD movies… :D

PS: I’ve changed the layout..might change it again though

I have updated the site :D Uploaded new theme and rearranged some stuff. I hope you’ll like the changes. Now it’s almost 2.30 am so I better go to bed. Why am I always up late nowadays?

I’ve written half of these on my friendster blog but I’ll write again.

So yesterday was my first day of school for semester 3. Because I took 2 naps on Sunday I was wide awake at night so I ended up staying up all night. Ack. I went to school at 8.40 am and when I got there, went straight to Ms Jenny’s office to get my time table. Here’s my timetable for semester 3:

Monday - Videography - 9 am -12 pm
Tuesday - Free
Wednesday - Intro. to Animation - 9 am - 12 pm
Thursday - History of TV & Film - 2 pm - 5 pm
Friday - Free
Saturday - Photography - Studio & Lighting - 9 am - 12 pm

Ok first thing… not too much subjects I’m taking. Glad I’m done with Malaysian Studies cuz if not, stress! No drawing subjects, woot! Some has drawing concept O.o; Glad I don’t lol. The other thing is that …. I have class on Saturday! Argh. Lol I was like whining in the staff room and Mr Nicsson was smiling at me lol. Argh class on Saturday. They can’t do anything cuz it’s a part time lecturer. Oh well.

My first class was ok. Found out Sham, Rasfan and Daniel have all resigned o.O; So I have Eddie as my new lecturer (and in charge of my course). So far I like him. He’s nice. First class of Videography was ok. It was just an introduction class… turns out that class is combined with Mass Comm students.. 28 of us together or more I think. I spent most of the time talking to Jackie lol.

After class Jackie and I went to the comp lab cuz we had 4 hours of free time until the faculty briefing. Argh. Spent an hour in the comp lab and I got bored to death. So at 12 pm -ish, went back to staff room and asked Ms Jenny for result and it was not out yet. We were supposed to see her at 1.30 pm but I was so fucking dead from being up, I went back to my car and slept there for almost 2 hours LOL. I was too lazy to go back to my place cuz it’s too tiring. Then went for the faculty briefing. Us, student leaders had stuff to do like handling out forms, and taking care of our faculty. We also had to introduce ourselves to new (and old) students lol. Wasn’t prepared for that. I was busy the entire time o.O;

Oh FOCAD (faculty of creative arts & design) has a new forum now - http://focad.forumotion.com

After that went back home, stopped at McD to get prosperity burger… you know, Drive-thru McD at Mutiara Damansara is so efficient .. they’re fast in handling orders…unlike some McD places *coughs* Oh our electricity has been cut yesterday … :( It was like until 6-ish pm that we had our power back. Mom had to go to the place by herself to pay for the bills. Fuck TNB. Good thing I have my laptop so I could keep myself busy for a while playing game until we get the power back lol. Then after that realized PHONE & NET HAS BEEN CUT! Fuck TM Net! It was just like 2 weeks ago that I paid for the phone and net. Grrrrr.

I was so dead, I went to bed at 9 pm -ish or 10 pm - ish yesterday, woke up at 4 am, fell asleep at 10 am and woke up at 3.30 pm O.o Oh I’ve updated the site a bit, added a lil stuff here and there and linked couple of people.. still haven’t finished lol

Last but not least….. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AARON!!!!!!!  mwah :D

YAWNS.

I’m back in KL again. Happy to be on this good comp again :D Not happy that I have to endure cold showers again :( Gonna get mom to buy water heater soon blah. I didn’t sleep at all the night before, so I was really sleepy and tired yesterday.. got friggin hyper when I was webcamming with Aaron lol…then like 7-ish or so, took a nap… woke up at 1am and Shark Tale was on tv… hehe it was funny. Usually I’m not that much into movies like that except Shrek but I thought that movie was funny despite all the bad reviews I read, lol. Then I stayed up to pack my things and at 4-ish AM started to drive. Reached KL at almost 7 am cuz I was driving slow :(

I’m so friggin sleepy now. After I eat my breakfast I’ll go to sleep XD Blah… early morning class tomorrow…sooooooo not happy about that.

PS: Oh I added a new tagboard :P Go leave me a message!

I’m supposed to be doing work right now but again I’m procrastinating. Blah. Thought I’d mention here that I’ve put a TOKIO HOTEL widget on the sidebar…so I can see new Tokio Hotel TV videos everyweek :) I just watched episode 4 on it (you can just click play to watch on the sidebar) where it shows behind the scene on the day of the MTV EMA… yay Bill speaking English :)) That makes me happy. His wild hair makes me happy. lol. Now I can go start doing work.

Oh twins are so hot.

I’ll put the English version of Schrei video in here so I could watch it when I go to my blog and get turned on. Yeah.