A Very Gloomy December

December 7, 2013 at 5:19 PM

This December did not start well. Definitely won’t be a good end of the year, as it hadn’t been a good start of the year.

Bitstrip Comic: Woe is Me

Where do I start?

First of all, last month, my Apple keyboard officially died. And I am currently not in the best of financial situation to get a replacement of the very expensive keyboard. So now, I have to rely on my laptop with the keys barely working as well.

On the first of December, what news did I first hear?

1. THE DEATH OF PAUL WALKER.

Paul Walker & Roger Rodas Fiery Car Crash

The first news I heard waking up on December 1st – “Paul Walker dead“.
I wanted to make a whole post dedicated to Paul Walker, because it was so shocking, so sudden and so devastating. The whole Sunday my facebook feed was flooded with news of Paul Walker and of course news sites, TV and everywhere. RIP Paul Walker and Roger Rodas who died in the fiery car crash. For those who are a huge fan of the Fast & Furious series, this news must be hard to accept, especially since Paul was still filming part 7, and I heard about the funeral scene clip that was released a short while ago.

The severity of the accident, and looking at the car wreck creeps the crap out of me.  Paul Walker was one of the reasons (apart from Vin Diesel) that I loved F&F before. His death affected us all because he was one of the good actors with no controversies and looking at interview clips, he seemed to be a very down to earth kind of guy. There was something about him that makes you feel very.. calm and relaxed. He was also very active with his charity, Reach Out Worldwide and was helping out the victims of Typhoon Haiyan in Philippines.

What will become of the franchise and part 7 now? Feels only yesterday that we heard about the unexpected death of Cory Monteith, now this.

Paul Walker & Roger Rodas Fiery Car Crash

2. CATASTROPHIC DISASTERS

Not only we are still saddened by the disaster of typhoon Haiyan that landed in Philippines, some part of Malaysia also are suffering when the city was flooded with nonstop rain and citizens had to be evacuated to the rescue centers. Even though my neighborhood was flooded a few time last time, I’m thankful that it did not get bad.

3. DEATH OF NELSON MANDELA

The name Nelson Mandela was heard daily when I was young. Of course I was too young to understand who he was and what the issues were at that time. He passed away 2 days ago at the age of 95. Again my facebook feeds was flooded with news and condolences.

4. THE DEATH OF MY KITTEN

On that very same day of the passing of Nelson Mandela, my beloved kitten died too. I don’t know why the night before he suddenly had problems breathing/shortness of breath. I have been so depressed, so down about it. Their mother, my cat Tia, went missing a couple of months ago so I have been worried about them and have been taking care of them. It’s sad to see that I failed at taking care of my kittens. It sucks so bad to not be able to do anything because no vet opens at night. RIP kitty 🙁

5. MASSIVE PAIN ON MY LEFT FOOT

For the past 2 1/2 weeks, I’ve had this massive pain on my left foot. Every time I tried to walk, or put pressure on the heel, it would hurt like a motherhumper. And a few days ago, in the effort to lose weight I was walking around my house with flipflops on, and somehow the skin between my toes was scraped and peeled open and only God knows how much it stung and how painful it was. It has been days and been leaving the wound to dry up, and it has, so the pain is gone if I don’t walk.

6. SERIOUS FINANCIAL PROBLEMS

My financial problems has been an ongoing problem but never has it reached to this point where I am now. It’s not like I’ve been spending on useless things, in fact, apart from food, I haven’t been spending on anything.It’s all the damn bills. Ever since BN won the GE13, they’ve started increasing this and that, cutting down the subsidy of this and that, so the expense has increased, prices have increased including petrol, and somehow I’ve been bombarded with many old bills that they’re forcing me to pay now. I mean, it has been idle for years.. now they’re all chasing me at once when I have so many other bills and loans to pay and I am not making enough. The amount I have to pay each month only suits for jobs like manager or something.. of at least RM10k a month. I’ve been trying to find a job but there has been NONE. None that I can apply because I don’t meet their requirement.

So in conclusion, I’ve been having extremely rough time this past few months. The toughest moment in my life. It seems that so far, I’ve been surrounded with depressing things like pain, misery and news of death. I don’t know why I keep telling myself that I will turn this around one day, I just have to be patience.. but my patience is almost non-existent right now.

However, on a slightly lighter note.. I was deleting some old posts from years ago that I don’t find relevant to be published in my blog anymore and I realized that no matter what back then, I would try to blog something about anything and everything. It is my personal blog anyway. My passion for blogging in this domain is slowly diminishing and I want to get it back. Hopefully I can. The thing is, blogging for personal site used to be like writing in a (public) diary. Now you won’t get listed in search engine if you don’t follow the SEO rules and nobody cares about about personal blog anymore.

That’s the end of this blog. Hopefully things will change for the better soon.

Sighs.

November 21, 2012 at 8:06 AM

I can only sigh.

I thought my problems and misery and sorrow with my sickness and death of cats last month was over and I could work on pulling myself back together but then my cat Chomot Chi had the same symptoms. It was a panicky 3 days of monitoring him so that he don’t end up like my previous cats. Alhamdulillah he survived and have now fully recovered.

Then few days ago, my 2 kittens had the symptoms. Took to the vet. Not really good news but alhamdulillah, they too, are currently showing positive signs. They have yet to fully recover and I found my cat Bobo now having trouble urinating since yesterday and so I’m suspecting FLUTD. I’m taking him to the vet this morning and hoping and praying that he will recover. My cat Jimena is also not doing well, acting strange and not eating.

This bites. I can’t take this anymore. This is really too much for me. While I’m thankful and extremely happy that some are recovering, and showing positive signs but more sick cats are really making me depressed. I’m neglecting my work, myself, my life, my blogs etc because my attention can’t be given towards all these things.

Wish me luck.

What A Stressful Week!

September 13, 2012 at 3:50 PM

GRRRRRRRRRRR.

What a stressful week!

Started with Monday evening, when my body started to feel funny.. suspected I ate some bad food and I was right. The next day I had to go to the toilets 30-40 times within an hour till I felt like I should just bring a mattress and sleep in the toilet. Honestly. Everytime I ‘burped’ I could feel the acid from my stomach. I was so weak and in so much pain. I hate food poisoning! Only good thing was that I didn’t vomit, because I rather have continuous diarrhea than vomitting.

So I spent my Wednesday just resting.

And today, Thursday, boy has it been stressful. Had some mix-ups that was fucked but thank God I managed to solve it shortly. Not only that, at the same time after I posted my previous blog post, this site decided to fuck with me as well when it decided to give the ‘Internal Server Error’ message, then ‘Can’t connect to database’. Scared the crap out of me. I thought a wordpress plugin update fucked up because it usually does, and I was just updating some plugins prior to the error. I’m starting to get phobia of updating plugins.

To add some more stress, I haven’t slept yet so my brain has somewhat shut down, and I’m sleepy as hell hence the crankyness. But it’s all good. Maybe God want to see how I’m handling this stressful moment. It’s all solved, I can relax a bit now. Phew.

I have so many pending blogs to post. 🙁

Quickie Updates – Nuffnang, Kitty & Stupid Neighbor

June 20, 2012 at 5:32 AM

A lot has been happening this past week.

First thing. Nuffnang.

nuffnang

I had an issue with Nuffnang for the past 2 months. You see, I was ‘demoted’ from my glitterati status and I hate not being a glitterati. Mostly it’s because Iose all of glitterati advantages and I can’t use Innit. I contacted them, albeit the slow reply, they couldn’t figure it out. They keep giving me stuff to check and change, and mostly involves my wordpress plugins. The problematic site is this blog as they said, but I use the same plugin in all of my other blogs under nuffnang so shouldn’t they be affected too?

After 2 months and a lot of frustration, and a totally unacceptable suggestion of deleting this blog from nuffnang, I said that I can allow them to have access to my site’s backend and check for the problems. This is my main blog, so if I delete this blog from nuffnang, what’s the point of having nuffnang anymore? Even this blog is barely making a single cent from Nuffnang, but at least it has the most traffic. I don’t know how the heck people make so much money with Nuffnang when I’ve been with them for years and I STILL haven’t reached the minimum amount for withdrawal. Wtf.

Anyways, my problem took two months when all of a sudden, as I’ve finished setting up a special account for them to check my problem, was just about to let them know then BAM! I logged on and I am friggin back to GLITTERATI! What the heck? 2 months, with no solutions, then all of a suddenly my Glitterati status is back and I don’t even know what caused it to disappeared for 2 months.

Oh well. At least it’s back and that’s all that matters.

2. Kitty

I still haven’t recovered from the death of my 4 kittens last month and my beloved kitten, a white male, very pretty and very loving to me, suddenly went missing few days ago. I don’t even know what happened. He could be lost, kidnapped or … Well don’t wanna talk much about it, don’t wanna start crying again.

3. My Stupid Neighbor

I have this rage against my neighbor right now. They’re building a new covered kitchen and a new wall that replaced the fence.. but you know why? It’s because they hate my cats. They purpose built a HUGE, TALL wall just so my kittens and cats won’t be able to go to their house. The thing is, who the fuck do they think they are? We are NEIGHBORS.. I have my share of that fence as well! But no. They think they own it and can build it so high, make me feel like I’m trapped in pudu jail surrounded by tall brick wall without even asking if we’re okay with it.

I don’t care if they wanna build whatever, metal buildings or kitchen made out of gold, but we SHARE the fence so it’s common courtesy that they ask if we’re okay with having a new tall brick wall that even if you’re 7 feet tall, you can’t see over the wall to the other side. And NO, we’re NOT okay. I’m super pissed.

FemaleRage

I’m seriously having an extremely rough time right now.

Missing Kitten

June 17, 2012 at 2:45 AM

My kitten is missing. I seriously don’t know what kind of curse I have now because in less than a month I’ve lost 5 kittens. It’s seriously tearing me apart. I’m trying to be strong so I could go on with my life, but one after another, even superman won’t be able to handle this. I always say there’s a reason behind everything that happens, and so far my life has been pure shithole and it’s taking shit after shit everyday.

I’m trying my best to find some money and be able to move back to KL. I hate this place and I hate the surrounding. I hate not being able to find a job because there’s none here that’s in my field. I hate the snobbish neighbors. I have no friends here. I have no life. Why the fuck did I move back to Ipoh?