Today I was supposed to help my friend with something but plan changed so I went out at 9.30 am and went to the gym instead. It was my first time going to the gym and actually doing something since I registered. Last time I was just have an hour session with my trainer because I have 3 free session with trainer so it was just getting to know me and my body & strength. It was a Sunday so since I went early, there weren’t so many people until it gets near in the afternoon. Well, not bad for first time. Even though I only managed to burn 300+ calories, I did bike for almost 20 km and walked 5 km or so on the treadmill. Unfortunately because I was too focused on my legs and not yet my upper body, I’m currently having the worst cramps ever on both of my knees area haha.

Anyways. I finally got half of my starter pack.

I was supposed to get the bag and face towel along with water bottle and headphone but they still don’t have any stock on the headphone and water bottle.. since before Chinese New Year. So the girl advised me to take the bag and face towel first before it runs out so I did. I actually need the bad because I have no bag to put my stuff in when I go to the gym.

By the way, today my face is peeling so badly at areas that wasn’t burned with the laser and I have no idea why. The burned skin has peeled off so not so much of embarrassment of having burnt skin but the peeling skin.. urgh! It was so bad. I wonder if it was a reaction towards any medication? Or my cetaphil? Couldn’t be.. cetaphil is soft on skin, even though it stings a few times when I first washed my face with it. Hm. Looking at this exposed skin care, there’s a product called Pronexin. It sounds extremely interesting, and sounds like a good acne medication but obviously it’s not available here.. but the question is, is it really as good as it says?

My leg cramps are annoying me to the extreme. So I’m going to do something else now to get my mind of it.

Since my last post of Dermlaze and my treatment there, I’ve gotten quite a lot of questions from my visitors about the place.

My July 2008 Blog Post on Dermlaze
My August 2008 Blog Post on My First Fraxel Treatment

It’s been more than a year since I last went for treatment at Dermlaze. My final year was hectic, and I had absolutely no time to go for treatment. Plus I was too busy with assignments that required me to shoot outdoor all the time so doing laser treatment is not a good idea. However, after my graduation showcase, due to extreme stress we had to endure with our final semester, when it’s done, I slowly had a breakout. Small at first, but then it became huge and bad. After 2 months, now I’m left with bad spots/scarring so I need help immediately while I still have to complete one elective subject.

My biggest mistake was not getting any treatment before it became bad. I’ve had 2 dermatologists before, and seriously, neither seemed as friendly as Dr. Jeswender. I didn’t have good treatment either. Of course my 2nd one (a dermatologist from Gleneagles Intan) left me with very, very, bad scarring. Not only that, he wasn’t friendly at all. So anyways, I went there on Tuesday to ask him what I should do. Back to fraxel laser. So I made an appointment for Wednesday morning.

The next morning, my stupid elevator was scaring me with some sound. Mind you, the day before 2 elevators were stuck on 4th floor.. one of them with people stuck in them. That was so scary. I ended up walking up the stairs to 13th floor. :( So I was quite late for appointment. Well, there’s a new assistant there. So as usual I was given painkillers, then I was put on some topical medication on my face, and some numbing cream. I miss the smell of numbing cream at Gleneagles hospital though. It got me high haha. So I rested for I think about 30 minutes or so? Until the numbing cream sets in and my face is numb. So I watched some youtube on my phone lol. I was getting really comfortable.

THE FRACTIONAL (FRAXEL) LASER

It’s always interesting to go for treatment. Maybe I have a secret addiction or hidden liking to getting laser treatment lol So I was brought to a different room to do my treatment. However it wasn’t Dr. Jes, but the assistant who’s doing the treatment. One thing about fraxel is that it doesn’t hurt as much as pixel, doesn’t look as bad as pixel, and skin isn’t burnt badly as pixel would. It just feels like hundreds of tiny pin pricks, poking your skin at the same time. It’s not bad. But then for some deep scars, the used different setting and yowza! It was just a split second for each deep scar but it felt like someone was pulling the elastic band/rubber band at your face real hard.. so each time was really painful, for a short while only though. After that they put some huge ice pack on my face.. ahhh. Cool down time before 2nd round.. then it’s the same process again. Then put some cream then I’m done.

Again, I really love fraxel because it doesn’t hurt that much compared to pixel that I’ve done before, and it doesn’t burn the skin badly. Usually before I’d have really black skin, sometimes bloody after the pixel laser treatment and God knows how much it hurts, throbs and burns after… it was torture. But with fraxel, it shows nothing except a bit of redness, some large opened pores (haha) and that’s it. I got my medicine, plus some extra medicine.. Neostrata product! I love neostrata product. And thank God they sell it, because I’ve been searching it everywhere.. it’s only sold at skin clinic. I’ve yet to get my Neostrata toner that I’ve been searching for ages though.. not enough money. Plus I want to get some slimming pills.. it’s hard for me to follow diets that work so I need some help. I also bought an expensive sun block lol..

Anyways. That’s my treatment story after 1 year break. It’s been 3 days and goooooosh my face is so itchy right now.. my eyes and my nose are peeling, and stinging and I have no idea why. lol. I’m healing okay. Can’t see much improvement now since it’s my “first” treatment. Need a lot more to see the result. Anyways, if you want to check out the place, here’s the address:

Dermlaze Skin Laser Clinic
75G, Jln SS21/60,
Damansara Utama,
47400 Petaling Jaya,
Selangor.
Tel: +6 03 7710 2295

Of course, don’t forget to tell Dr. Jeswender this blog sent you! :P

Owww my eyesssss…!

Not only my face is peeling but I don’t know why around my eyes, as in upper eyelids and the bottom of the eyes are like itchy and tingling and stinging.. like when I put my cream it stings like a bitch. So because of that, and constant scratching, I have black eyes. I want to put my night eye cream but I’m scared that it stings a lot more and make it worst.

Well, I will write about my treatment a bit later.. today I’m gonna write quite a few blogs because I have nothing better to do and I’m fricken bored and that I haven’t been blogging much so I’m gonna blog today before I get busy or lazy again. So after this I’ll write about my day at the dermatologist after I download some pictures from my phone.

Owww my eyes.

I read this slimquick reviews and this is an example of a product that doesn’t work. Unfortunately reading the ingredients confuses me because it has all the name jargon of either the drugs or herbs or whatever. However Clinicallix is rated 1st with 99% satisfaction? Is this believable? Does it really work? Obviously it won’t be available in Malaysia.. but I read this kind of reviews a lot of times and the top list changes each time. Is it safe?

I’m probably going to go to my dermatologist today, and then going to the gym later today..I’m still in search of Neostrata so I really hope my dermatologist has it, because if not, I’d have to hunt down another skin clinic that do sell Neostrata. I don’t want to go to my old hospital which is like in Ampang.. and that’s like an hour away just for bottle of skin toner. There has got to be one sold nearby.

I’m also going to ask for a good diet pills. I used to take this pill where it suppress your appetite. That’s how I could survive a whole day of Japanese school from 8.50 am till 5.30 pm.. without eating a thing. I only eat a little bit in the morning before school and then dinner at 7.30 pm. I was .. well not skinny, but I was thin enough. I maintained my weight until I stopped taking the pills, and stop exercising, and just become a lazy couch potato.

Looking at diet pill reviews does not help at all. It’s confusing. There’s way too many pills listed that I’m not even sure is safe or not. Same with pharmacy or stores.. so many slimming products, very expensive yet you don’t know if they work or not.

As with previous blog, I thought I’d share another website. This is useful for those with joint problem. It’s called msm supplements. My mom could use this too but it’s probably not available in Malaysia. My mom has knee problems now, and it sucks because she can hardly walk up the stairs now or walk far at the malls so shopping with her would be a pain in the ass. It’s funny how she always complaint that I’m not taking her anywhere. It’s not that I don’t want to, but she’d walk for a few meters then have a 10 minutes rest everytime.

Just thought I’d share this. If you have somebody with disability and facing the problem mentioned below, they might be able to help. It doesn’t apply to, for example, Malaysians though because we don’t have the social security thingy. I think this only applies in the United States?

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Because of my stupid acne that came back due to graduation showcase stress couple of months ago, I am now left with scars. Stupid scars. No, nothing works. Not even over the counter medicine that I used to use, which is Differin.. I finally bought Cetaphil though 2 days ago, now I just need to hunt for Neostrata. However I’m fedup with all the expensive medications that don’t work. Do acne home remedy work?

I’m soooooo tempted to go back on accutane, or at least a similar one that works the same. So fucking tempted. But then again, when I think about it, I hate having the dry, chapped lips and fucked up menstrual cycle in order to have a zit-free face. I’m already worried that it has done some damage to me. Of course if you take it if you’re pregnant, your baby will be er.. deformed? Urgh.What if it can also do damage to stomach and at the time when you’re having a baby even if at that time you’re not taking it? And I think I’ve been having serious depression problem because of that medicine.

Urgh. Why. Why oh why do some people have to suffer with acne and acne scarring when some people can have flawless skin without even doing much? I hate them.

I wanted to write a blog for a contest but I missed the dateline because I was too busy so oh well. I’ve been missing a lot of topic that I want to write for a blog. Hmm. Okay. I wanna talk about gym.

Couple of weeks ago, I got a call from Fitness First gym nearby that they’re having a promotion. You see, I love FF because they give a starter pack which consist of a bag, towel, water bottle and headphone to be used in the gym.. they also give complimentary beverage so you can drink after a work out or if you just wanna chill and have a drink. They also give out DVD rental. But the thing is, the curve branch has turned platinum.. which means, it’s now an exclusive club and without platinum membership, you can’t get in.

Now, platinum membership. It’s expensive. It will burn my pocket hole. Only perk is that I can have access to all club, including the Curve branch. I like the Curve because it’s easier to park car compares to the one in Uptown which is closer. Uptown is like 5 minutes away, Curve is like 10 minutes. I’d have to pay almost RM700 for joining and RM215  monthly.

But then I got a call saying I can have the student price. I only have to pay RM285-ish and RM189 monthly or something. I guess I can’t pass this up because platinum membership at price of normal membership, that’s a good deal. However my friend has joined Celebrity Fitness recently because they had a Chinese New Year offer. RM400-ish. That’s the same amount I got  as student price before lol. Still a bit too expensive. However I can also get RM179 price monthly (student price) BUT I don’t have access to any other clubs other than the one in 1Utama. Urgh. The only reason I want there is because of the classes.  They have zumba, and they have a lot of interesting classes, including pole dancing.

Well I guess I’m happy with FF more.. now I just need to have motivation to go there. Well if only they have hot guys in bulky muscles.. full on testosterone boosters.. sweaty body.. lol. Anyways..! Moving on!

Have you heard of colon cleansing products? It’s good to cleanse your colon because that’s where majority of problems come from. I’ve blogged about colon cleansing before but have never tried it until last month where I bought one colon cleanse product. It’s like a local herb company with a famous doctor called Dr Azimuth who created the products. It’s a pain in the ass to drink that thing. This is how my daily routine used to be last month:

1. Drink 1 or 2 glasses of plain water and wait for 10 minutes
2. Drink a glass of ‘colonkleen’ and wait another 10 minutes
3. Drink a glass of ‘bioyouth’ and wait 10 minutes
4. Take a spoonful of ‘Gamatmaxx’ and wait 10 minutes (optional)

Only then I can take my breakfast. By the time I can eat, I’ve already wasted an hour trying to drink the yucky medicine and I’d be already way too bloated to eat anything. Urgh, why can’t all medicines be in one small pill and it’s like a miracle pill where it can cure every single sickness? Because my routine doesn’t end there. After breakfast I had to take 3 pills more – for my asthma, evening primrose, and vitamin E pill. FML.