I’ve been emo again. I don’t know. It seems as if my life is going down the drain yet again. I’ve been trying to be strong but I just don’t know how long will I last before I snap. I may be paranoid but I don’t know.. it seems like I don’t have friends anymore in college. I feel so distant. Urgh I have 2 more years to survive there.

I have dentist appointment today at 12 to do 2 fillings for my front teeth. I’ve never did fillings before and when Esther did it at school, she was complaining that it hurts so yeah I’m quite nervous. I have a meeting at 3 pm. They better not cancel it and not tell me about it because if I go there and see an empty room, they’re gonna get a serious bitching from me …once my teeth is ok that is lol. I’ve been looking at food blogs yesterday because I couldn’t have any sweet, sugary stuff to cure my depression so I just looked at pictures. I’m so craving cupcakes from Cupcake Chic! I think that’s where Sherra got the cupcakes to sell on Valentine’s Day. The yummiest thing ever. The menu changes everyday and today they have the yummy cupcakes on sale but since I’m going to the dentist I don’t know how I’m going to enjoy the cupcakes :( They’re expensive though. RM4.50 per cupcake and RM25-ish for half a dozen but the yummyness of them, I don’t care.

I’m going broke. After I’m gonna spend RM160 today, I’ll be really broke. No more buying stuff at the PC fair. No more buying a vacuum cleaner that I desperately need. No carpet for my room and no 29″ tv. No stuff from the furniture catalog for my empty apartment. NO YUMMY FOOD lol. I”m dying to buy the fondue set at midvalley megamall. Plus fruits to eat them with… Haagen Dazs ice creams…. *drools* Ok I better stop before I torture myself even more.

WARNING: Long and picture heavy blog

I think I’m done drawing cartoon heads for today. Really tired now because I haven’t been getting much rest lately. Still have presentation slides to do and the ad video.. well at least these stuff are better than having to study stuff, especially like when I was in business school. Don’t have to get headache from trying to understand wtf is economics, bpm, business maths, accounting.. omg. lol. Oh shit that reminds me I still need to resit for the bmath and accounting exam.. argh.

My Valentine’s Cupcake (for Aaron actually lol)

Well in this blog I”m gonna talk about my Valentine’s Day :) It was good, it was ok, it was so-so, it was bad, lol. It was all of those. The night before, me and Aaron had a HUGE argument… well on that day, as mentioned, I came back from Ipoh at 3 am.. I didn’t sleep at all and went straight to class at 9 am. After that, they told me there was a meeting so I waited until 1 pm.. checked out some booths at school with Ren then turns out they all have to go shopping for their stuff to sell or do on Valentine’s Day.. I had to drive Esther to get our stuff which is the fondue… I was so friggin sleepy and tired but I couldn’t get out of it.. oh well. So me, Esther and her friend Nizam went to 1Utama.. we reached there but they told us they don’t sell choc fondue.. Shit.. so they suggested to go to Sunway Pyramid o.O;;; That’s like…. 30-60 mins drive depending on traffic O.o;;; I really had nooooo energy so I told her if she wanna go, she’d have to drive and pay for petrol, lol.. Surprisingly she agreed.  O.o; Well for Ipoh bitches before, they’d disagree o.O; So Esther drove my car all the way to Sunway Pyramid.. goddamn it.. that mall is FRIGGIN HUGE I swear I could get lost. It’s far from my place (Sunway City) …too bad cuz I love the mall because is has all the egyptian design. Anyways…

We walked and walked because Nizam said they sell fondue there but NOOOOOOO…we walked and walked and walked and turns out they’re not selling it there anymore, argh! So Esther called up her friend and they said it’s confirmed that Midvalley Megamall has it.. OH MY GOD. I was gonna die. But yeah, Esther drove back all the way to KL city (30-60 mins drive) to Midvalley. We reached there, walked some more and yay, found chocolate fondue! FUCKING FINALLY! But then we had to find other stuff too…so walked to Carrefour… then Esther wanted to rest at McDonald and meet her friends.. THEN we left..but unfortunately Nizam has stuff to pick up at Subang Jaya so oh my god, they drove there.. I was falling asleep at the back seat. And everyone knows Subang Jaya roads are like traffic jam hell, urgh.. we reached there at The Summit… and for the first time I saw Segi College Subang Jaya branch… :D It’s like next to The Summit.. lucky! Huge mall beside college lol.

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Woot another blog. I think I have insomnia or something, I can’t sleep at night anymore. My sleeping patter is completely fucked. I should be sleeping cuz I have class in the morning at 9 am. Videography… ahhh… you know, I thought we wouldn’t have to make video again this sem.. it was so stressful last semester… but I think this sem, we’d be doing it in group so I think should be okay. I hope. Or prolly more stress. I was watching my old video that I made for sem 1.. Ms Jenny commented that the subtitle was too big. I can’t help it if the program is like that :( Any smaller font, you won’t be able to read. Maybe I should have gotten a professional subtitle service….that should make my job a lot easier, lol. Or have them translate my video into 30 different language… haha. That should be interesting… to see my future movie in different languages…woot

I AM CRAVING FOR MCDONALD’S PROSPERITY BURGER AGAIN!
It is the best thing McD ever invented……………….. *mouth waters*

…..and it is only available once a year… :( during chinese new year season :( .. this year they changed the drink to green tea..WHY??? Why not the usual orange mcfizz (sprite+orange juice)???? And desert…red bean? Argh.. I forgot what it was last year but red bean Mcflurry and sundae? Argh… Might taste good though.. o.O Shit, I think tomorrow I’ll buy prosperity burger… ahhh the goodness of beef meat dipped in rich, creamy black pepper sauce…with onions… YUM…and twister fries… mmm… gotta eat before they poof again until next year :( I don’t really like the chicken though.. beef is better.

I . want. prosperity. burger.

Oh I still have food review to do…of pizza hut that I went with Sharina during my last holiday ^^

Yesterday I was so upset and depressed it’s not even funny. I haven’t been that upset about school since I entered it. But first I want to say big big thanks to Aaron for putting up with my depression, my venting, my frustration…. everything… :) I desperately needed someone to talk to since no one else rl cared so thank you, it meant a lot to me. :)

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I thought I’d blog in here for a little while before I do my work. Omg this week is stressful as hell. I lack time to do anything and it’s all due at the same time. I NEVER miss a due date but I did for 2&3 Dimensional Design class this semester. Gah. I can’t forgive myself for it. The only good thing that happened last week was that I got elected to be a student representative for my course, Video & Animation along with Jackie :) At least I’m gonna have something in the testimonial.

I’ve been spending most of my time trying to get work done last week. God knows how many times I’ve passed out on the bed from the exhaustion…lack of sleep. Oh I went to Tesco last week and ate at this place called “Jom Bali” or something.. The food’s not that bad :D Mom hated it though. Well she’s got no sense of taste anyway.

That’s ‘soto‘. I haven’t had soto in a while and it’s my all time fave food so I asked mom to eat there. It was good. Different though from my mom’s version. The soup is thicker. And that’s my ice blended mango+longan. Loved it.

Sorry ate a little bit before I took this pic, lol. That’s the …oh I forgot what it’s called but it’s a garlic toast, with chicken ham on it, and egg sunny side up. It was good, I loved it!

Anyways back to to today. I only had like 1 hour -ish sleep last night. Been doing sketches. I haven’t finished a building structure drawing so was rushing to finish it this morning at 5 am. I didn’t manage to finish that and it turned out VERY SHITTY. While getting ready for school, there was MTV EUROPE MUSIC AWARD on Mtv so I turned it on… for one category I forgot what, Tokio Hotel was nominated and they were up against the big international groups such as MCR (omg My Chemical Romance is having a concert here in KL next month, omg x.x) …30 Secs from Mars etc etc..guess what… THEY WON! Omg. O.o; And I heard in the background I think it was ‘schrei‘ song and it was in english…ohhh they’ve released the english version…and Bill could speak English, aww! It was so cute! Even though Bill looked and sounded extremely girlish lol. After that MCR performed… omg Gerard’s hairstyle -> TOTALLY HOT. I love his look in there. He’s totally hot.

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NOTE TO SELF: Download Tokio Hotel’s new english released album
EDIT// Okay downloaded Tokio Hotel’s “Scream” and “Through the Monsoon“… I LOVE Scream.. the music a bit different from original schrei, but I love Bill’s matured voice.. so fucking sexy… however I love ‘dursch den monsun‘ more than ‘through the monsoon‘.. sounds like there’s no change in Bill’s voice than original O.o;

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Then I rushed to college… and they were dividing into groups according to majors. Argh. I didn’t know Ms Fiona’s checking the work.. we were being graded.. but I thought it was just mock interview?? And last time it was just Ms Fiona, Jenny and Mr Nicsson…this time even Mr Rasfan’s included. We were told to wait outside and go in group by group for evaluation. I joined my group in the next class and finished up my drawing while waiting…lol the guys were funny and cracked me up. I laughed the entire time. Then Kathy and I waited outside for our turn….

Half of the class waited outside like some beggars lol. Some lingered around college. Then after one group went in and came out, I asked them how it was and guess what? Myra and Dura told me they had to redo THE WHOLE ASSIGNMENTS. Meaning from A-Z… from the beginning of the semester until now if they don’t want to fail. Nesh said they told her they didn’t like her drawing of a leave from the animal sketch and told her to redo. W.T.F???? Omg. After that I was so nervous and scared I had to redo everything. There won’t be enough time. While waiting I took some pics with Kathy, lol.

I look HORRENDOUS!! Fucking ugly. And I look tired too from having only 1-hour sleep. And not to mention having face full of stress zit scars, like omg. And chubby. And blah. Kill me. I’m too ugly to live.

We were never called in for the face-to-face evaluation. And the assessors weren’t looking too happy. Finally at almost 1 pm, we were called in. They expressed their dissatisfaction and like 40% failed and need to redo. THANK GOD my name was not called, omg. Jackie and I were so relieved lol. Then we got scolded by the head of management for vandalism. Blah blah. Got lectured by the rest of lecturers, lol. We were dismissed at almost 2 pm and I was supposed to be at a club meeting at 1 pm.

I went down to search for the class, and found Shah… talked to him a bit, then went for meeting. The highlight of the day, happy to see Anthony! lol. Haven’t seen him since that modern dance few weeks ago. I don’t know why I love that guy. He’s cute and very shy and very ………innocent O.o…. so he amuse me. It’s cute. After that we we all went outside and they had this DIGI promotion for student above 21 for their postpaid plan…I signed up for new phone number XD (DIGI only has EDGE, not 3G, so I prefer MAXIS more even though they’re a bit more expensive.)

After that while waiting for Jackie (can you spot him in the picture? hehe) to deal with some contest thing Antony and I were joking around, played with the presents under the christmas tree, lol. And then after all’s done, he carried my heavy bag to my car in the parking lot cuz I asked him to….awwwwwwwww. Didn’t think he’d agree, lol.

After that I went to Ikea/Ikano to buy my thingy for tomorrow and went back home. There. Long day. Tomorrow’s another long day. Wednesday, final presentation. Thursday meeting. Next Monday final assessment. Next Friday student representative interview. Fuck me.

I so need a vacation.

Right now I feel like making a short blog entry. Yesterday I was so damn tired that I slept so early like starting from 9-ish till almost 10 am this morning. lol. I’m losing energy these days. I need vitamins. Plus my back is still fucked I think. But not as bad as couple of days ago….I think.

On Wednesday, it was our history of art group project assignment due day. Well some didn’t even pass it up. Blah. For my group, we got it done. Hehe. I’ve posted some pictures of the thing that we made in the previous blog so here’s the outcome..

TADAAAAA…. here’s our mask. Ren did all the ribbon sewing and the mask itself so she did a good job. Hehe I’m proud of our group project, not some crappy thing…at least it shows like we put effort into it and thoughts.

Here are some of the other group projects.

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Yesterday I accompanied Sherra to the dentist to get some info. I need to see a dentist but blergh. I have a phobia of dentist. So at like almost 11 am -ish I went out and met with Sherra at Taman Tun (which is like 5 mins from my place). Then walked and went to 7-11 and the workers there were like overly nice lol cuz I was asking about 2 debit cards. Bought topup card then went to a nearby dentist..blah even hidden, small place like that is expensive, I can’t imagine Dentalpro. Must be expensive as fuck. Hehe. After that we went to Bangsar, because Ren was waiting there then followed us to Sherra’s home to do our group project. Kathy went back to her hometown and Farah is at her home (quite far) so it was only just the 3 of us.

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We are doing a mask thing that Ren made from newspaper pulp or something. Our job yesterday was to glue music notes sheet on the paper for deco.

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Argh. This is gonna be a long blog since I have days of stuff to write about. So I’m gonna separate two entries. I will make a new entry for my college stuff.

So last Friday! Hmmm let me try to remember lol. Ok so that day I went durian hunting with H. He picked me up at like 2:45 pm-ish and we went straight to Kg Simee to search for durians. In the car he was like asking me to go to debate thing but I couldn’t and he kept asking which was annoying :( Then when we arrived at Kg. Simee argh there was no durian stalls! Well there was one but eh… the durians didn’t look too appealing to me. Then we searched for other place… on our way out we found two durian stalls!

DURIANS! Hehe. We didn’t go to the one above tho but we went to the other one. That guy, whom I think is a chinese was like calling to us. As soon as he saw H, he assumed he’s a foreigner LOL so he was speaking english and all and was being too nice. He let us taste the durians! LOL omg. He was like “Free tasting! Come on! Taste! Taste! Very nice and delicious! Eat all you want!” I was like softly giggling LOL. Then when he walked away a bit choosing durians for us, H asked me if he should keep pretending to be a complete foreigner and I said yes, LOL. So we let that guy choose 4 durians for us. Then a bit later on, H came back to my house and we opened one durian yada yada yada. When mom tasted it, she said it was the best durian ever because she usually bought crappy durians and we bought super yummy durians. Haha. So if you’re a foreigner in Malaysia, you’re lucky :P You get special treatments from us, haha.. pfffft. :P

Then later on as usual SL event time.. after the event I was voice chatting with hehe you know who ;) He got me all hot again! *gasps* It was another intense one because it was like night time and we were concentrating on it… and it was so goddamn hot and all… like….god daaaamnnnnn. And I mean GOD DAMN! *laughs* 4 times, in a week… goddayyyymn. It was the last night we could do something like that so we were trying to make it as intensely good as possible lol. Then we went to bed with the mic on of course… hehe… I heard him calling my name in the middle of the night LOL… then in the morning. Then back to bed, lol. We woke up at like what? 9-10 am-ish? Hehe it was so nice like that just relaxing with someone with mic on, on a Saturday morning… I’ve never done that before, nor have I ever thought of doing it…..ever. LOL.

I got on SL a bit later… still connected with the mic, and chatted and all and decided that later, before he pick up his friend, we’d have a quickie, lmao. 5 times in a week, holy shit. That’s a record! Lmao. So we keep talking until he had to go… our connected time?

20 HOURS 38 MINUTES

Holy fuck. 20 hours connected on the mic, whooooa. We could have gone for 24 hours but he had to go, LOL. But when he got back, we continued, and went on for a couple more hours so total time was like 22 hours-ish. GODDAYMNN. I was so dead later on though, I crashed and went to bed early, lol.

Nothing much happened on Sunday.. was just SL, more voice chat, and getting RM15 from my uncle and RM50 from H :D Yeah, he came to my house that night to say bye before I leave to KL. He got me McDonalds too which was so nice of him. That’s all I should say.

Ahhhh end of blog. Now I’m gonna make a blog on my college’s orientation day…. I’ll post this first, write another blog, then get ready and go and do stuff.. argh. I feel so dead and body aching. OHHHHH!! Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix premieres today, YAYYYYY! OMG I ALWAYS go on the premiere day… like the first morning show… for 4 straight years and I broke my own tradition today :( I have so many things to do today I’m not sure if I’d have time to watch it… Argh. We’ll see.

PART 3 of 3

Yay last part of my vacation blog :D Like the previous 2 blogs, click READ MORE below to continue reading. I’ll do my POTC blog later today.. argh already written 3 blogs today.. must be a record for me :P

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