Boring Life

February 4, 2017 at 12:59 AM

Life has been boring. Really shitty and boring and the first month of 2017 is already over and I’m still back at square one. My life has been worse than the previous 2 months. Nothing, I repeat, NOTHING has been going right. My January 2017 has been filled with utter devastation when I lost 4 kittens and 1 went missing, thanks to my mom for letting them out without supervision.

I don’t want to talk about that.

And guess what? My Samsung S7 edge phone fell and the screen cracked. I have never cracked my phone’s screen in my entire life. I feel like hanging myself every time I see the crack when I use the phone. It will cost RM 1k – RM 1.5k to fix. FML.

The only thing that’s keeping me somewhat numb to emotions right now is my herbal medicine (St. John’s Wort) and my iMac that has been keeping me occupied with catching up on my blogging stuff. I did, however, receive a good news a few days ago when my short story was chosen for publication. It was totally unexpected considering I wrote it at the last minute (a day before the deadline). Two of my short stories were also published last year (finally) by the same publisher. All of them are sci-fi stories. Maybe I should take an interest in sci-fi.

I’ve been wondering what to do with my life. Last month, as I was walking at the mall with my friend, there was this music school demo at AEON mall Klebang. They were promoting their new music school/classes in Tambun, Ipoh.

I was really interested. I’ve always wanted to learn how to play the guitar or the drums. Not like I could join a band or anything like that because I’m too old for that now but it’s fun to have something to do and learning something new at the same time. I wanted to learn guitar too. There’s guitar center here that sell guitars, but I don’t think I’ve heard guitar lessons here, like official music school classes. Piano, yes.

Believe it or not, I kind of miss playing the piano. Years of learning it when I was young (since I was 8 years old until 12 years old) went to waste. If I wasn’t so traumatized by my bitch of a piano teacher who screamed at me then kicked me out of the room just because I couldn’t get the notes right, I would’ve continued mastering the piano. Excuse me for being a fucking tone deaf-kid.

I really regret that. I regret that she was the ONLY teacher in Ipoh at that time. I wanted to transfer somewhere else and she was there too. Wtf. I decided to quit. Thanks a lot bitch for ruining piano lessons for me.

Anyways. I wish I could join this school but I couldn’t afford the classes, unfortunately. The economy right now is depressing. The amount I’m earning every month is depressing. The debts I’m in is depressing times two.

I wish I could go back to when I was young and knock some senses into my head when I said I couldn’t wait to be an adult. The adult world sucks big time.

By the way, I forgot what song they played for the acoustic guitar demo, but for the piano he played ‘Frozen’ song and for the drums ’24 Karat’ song by Bruno Mars.

Numb.

December 21, 2016 at 3:17 AM

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I haven’t been having a good week last week. My rescued kitten died despite everything that I did to save him. I lost 3 kittens prior to that and I was too numb to be affected by it. But my rescued kitten, it affected me so much that it interfered with my daily life and emotion. Back in October, BamBam was missing for 15 hours from around 3 pm until 7 am the next morning when I found him. During that time, when I kept calling for BamBam, I kept hearing screaming kitten across the road, somewhere at one of the shop lots.

I ignored him because I thought it was just a lost kitten and probably his mom was around somewhere. But until 5 am, he kept screaming and screaming and it bothered me so much. When I was searching for BamBam, I found him alone and scared so I took him home to temporarily care for him. Then I found another kitten. Took both of them home. He got sick for a while but he survived. And he was a cheerful loving kitten and that is why I felt this empty void when he crossed the rainbow bridge even though I’ve only had him for a short time.

I had a good day on Friday because I got to eat good food and that’s always a good thing. That helped me to temporarily forget about the death of my kitten. But when I got home I found out TM Point cut my phone line which never happened before and it was sudden so I spent 40 mins being pissed off and yelling on the phone.

And unfortunately, I got into a minor accident on Saturday. I also had a scare in the morning where my iMac wouldn’t start again. I freaked out. I seriously don’t want to send my iMac back to the store to be repaired which might take another what, a month? 2 months? No. No way. I’m sick of that. But luckily I found a video on youtube with a trick to get it started again and it did. Phew.

It’s the 21st today. Only 10 days left of 2016. I wanna say I hope next year things will change and every year I said the same thing and it never did. In fact, things got worse. Worse than the previous year. But I keep hoping. So I don’t know anymore.

I don’t know anymore.

 

OMG 2016 Is Ending. LOLWUT.

December 5, 2016 at 4:01 AM

OMG.

kevin hart omg

LOLWUT?

The year 2016 is ending. My previous post is dated January of 2016. I haven’t posted anything on this blog for almost a year. That has got to be some kind of record. I miss the early days when I would post here regularly. Just random shit that happens in my daily life. It’s not like anybody reads this anyway. It’s my personal diary or some sort where I would read again years later and reminisce about the good old time.  That was when I was in college. I had no worries, I wasn’t too busy with life. I was only busy with college and getting assignments done. Now I have 1001 things to do and think about. It’s really stressing me out. By the end of the day, I have no energy to do anything anymore.

A lot of things happened this year. Well, more than last year. I will do a new blog post soon to reminisce the year. I can blog now because I have my iMac again.

My iMac has been dead for 2 years. Because my laptop is dying now, and I can’t afford a new comp even after hoping and waiting for a few months (complicated story), I decided to try to get my iMac repaired. I recently found a place that could fix Apple products cheaper than authorized Apple repair center. I sent my iMac in October and after 2 weeks, it was finally ready. It was alive again… but not for a long time.

After a couple of days, it died again. It would randomly shut down at first. Then the crash was frequent up to a point where my iMac died again and would not start. I only had it for about 3 days before it died. So I sent it back. It took them a month to fix it this time. I have been so frustrated from all the waiting. I couldn’t do anything. My laptop is so shit now I can’t get anything done on it. All I could do with it now is to watch Netflix and Youtube. Sometimes Facebook. That’s all. Good thing my phone is new (Samsung S7 Edge) that I got early May this year  so I could do stuff on it otherwise I’d be locked up in a mental institution right now. Can’t describe how shit my old Samsung Note II is now. It’s too slow and the battery only lasts for about an hour or two now.

Finally last Friday I could pick it up. So far it has been 2 days and there has been no random shut down. The LAN port is still not working so I hope it’ll get fixed soon but other than that, I really hope no more problems. I need to work. I’m so broke it’s not funny. I have piles of blog posts that I need to write.

I’ve also just recovered from a fever and weird stomach pain. Still having some stomach discomfort. Then all my cats are sick. Urgh.

Okay, I’m gonna end here. It feels good to be able to blog again. It’s 3.45am now so I should go to bed. Night!

Hello 2016

January 31, 2016 at 2:36 PM

Iasd have not written a blog in such a long time. It’s 2016 already! My last post was September last year. A LOT, and I mean A LOT happened within that few months, good and mostly bad. When I talk about bad, it’ll mean involving my cats. I’ve lost so many kittens (I think about 8-10? I lost count) and a few cats are missing now (mine and strays). Right now all my remaining cats (about 10 of them, indoor and outdoor) are sick with flu/runny nose/sneezing/eye infection. In another word, upper respiratory infection? Urgh. But I don’t want to talk about that because it’ll make me even more depressed than I already am.

I was asked to talk about gibson guitar but nothing’s showing up on the page for me to talk about so I’m just gonna do a quick update.

Right now I’m working on a new blog, and also working on this non-profit org thing involving literary world. I’ve been busy trying to rush here and there, and multitasking. Hence why this blog has been neglected for a while. It’s really hard when you’re trying to improve your life but problems keep coming to distract you. Plus, I only have a couple of friends in Ipoh but none of them are ‘friending’ me so yeah, I’ve been alone. It’s okay. I’m used to it. I’ve learned in life, you cant rely on anybody but yourself. Friends will come and go. Not even your relatives will give a shit about you in times of need. I’m okay with friends not giving a shit but your own relatives? That’s fucked up, man.

Anyway, I don’t want to write too much. I have so many other things to do so I’ll end here. Hopefully I’ll have time to update soon.

Toodles!

 

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2015!

July 20, 2015 at 10:02 PM

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SELAMAT HARI RAYA 2015

It’s been a while since I wrote in this blog, huh? I’ve been very busy, preoccupying myself with things and then spent most of the days sleeping. This Raya has got to be the most boring Raya ever for me where I spent 3 Raya days sleeping instead and not inviting anyone to my place. Plus, I also have a very badly decayed and broken wisdom tooth that I need to deal with this week but I don’t have enough money. Haih.

Here’s the one and only Raya selfie that I took yesterday when I went to my relative’s house!

raya selfie

It was hard trying to take a proper selfie with food when the app didn’t have a timer. So I had to use my phone cam with a timer to take but the color is all shit. 🙂

Since I don’t have TV this year, so let’s put on a Raya song from youtube to get that Raya mood.

I need to write about Native Instruments but the page shows me nothing so I’m not sure what can I write about it. Now my laptop is also lagging badly, which is normal, so I have to reboot it. I miss my iMac, really. This bites.