Boring Life

February 4, 2017 at 12:59 AM

Life has been boring. Really shitty and boring and the first month of 2017 is already over and I’m still back at square one. My life has been worse than the previous 2 months. Nothing, I repeat, NOTHING has been going right. My January 2017 has been filled with utter devastation when I lost 4 kittens and 1 went missing, thanks to my mom for letting them out without supervision.

I don’t want to talk about that.

And guess what? My Samsung S7 edge phone fell and the screen cracked. I have never cracked my phone’s screen in my entire life. I feel like hanging myself every time I see the crack when I use the phone. It will cost RM 1k – RM 1.5k to fix. FML.

The only thing that’s keeping me somewhat numb to emotions right now is my herbal medicine (St. John’s Wort) and my iMac that has been keeping me occupied with catching up on my blogging stuff. I did, however, receive a good news a few days ago when my short story was chosen for publication. It was totally unexpected considering I wrote it at the last minute (a day before the deadline). Two of my short stories were also published last year (finally) by the same publisher. All of them are sci-fi stories. Maybe I should take an interest in sci-fi.

I’ve been wondering what to do with my life. Last month, as I was walking at the mall with my friend, there was this music school demo at AEON mall Klebang. They were promoting their new music school/classes in Tambun, Ipoh.

I was really interested. I’ve always wanted to learn how to play the guitar or the drums. Not like I could join a band or anything like that because I’m too old for that now but it’s fun to have something to do and learning something new at the same time. I wanted to learn guitar too. There’s guitar center here that sell guitars, but I don’t think I’ve heard guitar lessons here, like official music school classes. Piano, yes.

Believe it or not, I kind of miss playing the piano. Years of learning it when I was young (since I was 8 years old until 12 years old) went to waste. If I wasn’t so traumatized by my bitch of a piano teacher who screamed at me then kicked me out of the room just because I couldn’t get the notes right, I would’ve continued mastering the piano. Excuse me for being a fucking tone deaf-kid.

I really regret that. I regret that she was the ONLY teacher in Ipoh at that time. I wanted to transfer somewhere else and she was there too. Wtf. I decided to quit. Thanks a lot bitch for ruining piano lessons for me.

Anyways. I wish I could join this school but I couldn’t afford the classes, unfortunately. The economy right now is depressing. The amount I’m earning every month is depressing. The debts I’m in is depressing times two.

I wish I could go back to when I was young and knock some senses into my head when I said I couldn’t wait to be an adult. The adult world sucks big time.

By the way, I forgot what song they played for the acoustic guitar demo, but for the piano he played ‘Frozen’ song and for the drums ’24 Karat’ song by Bruno Mars.