A Very Gloomy December

December 7, 2013 at 5:19 PM

This December did not start well. Definitely won’t be a good end of the year, as it hadn’t been a good start of the year.

Bitstrip Comic: Woe is Me

Where do I start?

First of all, last month, my Apple keyboard officially died. And I am currently not in the best of financial situation to get a replacement of the very expensive keyboard. So now, I have to rely on my laptop with the keys barely working as well.

On the first of December, what news did I first hear?

1. THE DEATH OF PAUL WALKER.

Paul Walker & Roger Rodas Fiery Car Crash

The first news I heard waking up on December 1st – “Paul Walker dead“.
I wanted to make a whole post dedicated to Paul Walker, because it was so shocking, so sudden and so devastating. The whole Sunday my facebook feed was flooded with news of Paul Walker and of course news sites, TV and everywhere. RIP Paul Walker and Roger Rodas who died in the fiery car crash. For those who are a huge fan of the Fast & Furious series, this news must be hard to accept, especially since Paul was still filming part 7, and I heard about the funeral scene clip that was released a short while ago.

The severity of the accident, and looking at the car wreck creeps the crap out of me.  Paul Walker was one of the reasons (apart from Vin Diesel) that I loved F&F before. His death affected us all because he was one of the good actors with no controversies and looking at interview clips, he seemed to be a very down to earth kind of guy. There was something about him that makes you feel very.. calm and relaxed. He was also very active with his charity, Reach Out Worldwide and was helping out the victims of Typhoon Haiyan in Philippines.

What will become of the franchise and part 7 now? Feels only yesterday that we heard about the unexpected death of Cory Monteith, now this.

Paul Walker & Roger Rodas Fiery Car Crash

2. CATASTROPHIC DISASTERS

Not only we are still saddened by the disaster of typhoon Haiyan that landed in Philippines, some part of Malaysia also are suffering when the city was flooded with nonstop rain and citizens had to be evacuated to the rescue centers. Even though my neighborhood was flooded a few time last time, I’m thankful that it did not get bad.

3. DEATH OF NELSON MANDELA

The name Nelson Mandela was heard daily when I was young. Of course I was too young to understand who he was and what the issues were at that time. He passed away 2 days ago at the age of 95. Again my facebook feeds was flooded with news and condolences.

4. THE DEATH OF MY KITTEN

On that very same day of the passing of Nelson Mandela, my beloved kitten died too. I don’t know why the night before he suddenly had problems breathing/shortness of breath. I have been so depressed, so down about it. Their mother, my cat Tia, went missing a couple of months ago so I have been worried about them and have been taking care of them. It’s sad to see that I failed at taking care of my kittens. It sucks so bad to not be able to do anything because no vet opens at night. RIP kitty 🙁

5. MASSIVE PAIN ON MY LEFT FOOT

For the past 2 1/2 weeks, I’ve had this massive pain on my left foot. Every time I tried to walk, or put pressure on the heel, it would hurt like a motherhumper. And a few days ago, in the effort to lose weight I was walking around my house with flipflops on, and somehow the skin between my toes was scraped and peeled open and only God knows how much it stung and how painful it was. It has been days and been leaving the wound to dry up, and it has, so the pain is gone if I don’t walk.

6. SERIOUS FINANCIAL PROBLEMS

My financial problems has been an ongoing problem but never has it reached to this point where I am now. It’s not like I’ve been spending on useless things, in fact, apart from food, I haven’t been spending on anything.It’s all the damn bills. Ever since BN won the GE13, they’ve started increasing this and that, cutting down the subsidy of this and that, so the expense has increased, prices have increased including petrol, and somehow I’ve been bombarded with many old bills that they’re forcing me to pay now. I mean, it has been idle for years.. now they’re all chasing me at once when I have so many other bills and loans to pay and I am not making enough. The amount I have to pay each month only suits for jobs like manager or something.. of at least RM10k a month. I’ve been trying to find a job but there has been NONE. None that I can apply because I don’t meet their requirement.

So in conclusion, I’ve been having extremely rough time this past few months. The toughest moment in my life. It seems that so far, I’ve been surrounded with depressing things like pain, misery and news of death. I don’t know why I keep telling myself that I will turn this around one day, I just have to be patience.. but my patience is almost non-existent right now.

However, on a slightly lighter note.. I was deleting some old posts from years ago that I don’t find relevant to be published in my blog anymore and I realized that no matter what back then, I would try to blog something about anything and everything. It is my personal blog anyway. My passion for blogging in this domain is slowly diminishing and I want to get it back. Hopefully I can. The thing is, blogging for personal site used to be like writing in a (public) diary. Now you won’t get listed in search engine if you don’t follow the SEO rules and nobody cares about about personal blog anymore.

That’s the end of this blog. Hopefully things will change for the better soon.