The Biggest Misery of 2012

October 28, 2012 at 12:49 PM

I’m only writing this post because I have to but God knows how I’m feeling right now.

This week, I lost 4 beloved kittens. It pains me to even mention this, but yeah.. I lost my Junior Tam, Baby Tam, Gugurl Tia & Baby Tia. God knows how depressed and sad I’ve been this past week and it’s all because of a fever virus plague during this rainy season. It’s not just that, I’ve been sick for 2 weeks with fever, blocked nose, bad cough and seriously bad & heavy period due to my extreme coughing. So to sum it up I’ve been in misery for the past 2 weeks.s.

I don’t want to talk much about my cats’ death because it’s so painful. The house feels so lonely and empty now. Many don’t get my sadness but cats are part of my family – I’ve spent hours every day and night, like midnight until morning with them… so I’ve been very close.. so to lose them so suddenly, it was just too much for me, and while I was sick so it was like adding salt to an open wound. It’s also heartbreaking to see Tam, the mother to lose her only two babies and now she’s been hanging around me because she feels lonely.

All I can do now is hope none of my current cats, especially the kittens and cats do not get sick and also Chomot Chi who’s been sick since yesterday to fully recover. I don’t want to talk much more because I don’t want to start crying so I’ll end it here.

It sucks that this happens in October, my Hari Raya Aidiladha 2 days ago was ruined, and also upcoming Halloween will not be fun. 2 years ago I lost Nikko also a week before Halloween, in October. Sighs.