The Trial Of Life

March 22, 2011 at 1:29 AM

Life. Life just bit me in my fucking ass and yes, it hurts.

No matter what I do, I’m still an epic failure. Failure in everything. I thought I had it good. I thought my life in Ipoh is finally changing, but shit son, who am I kidding? It’s still the same ol’ story. Same ol’ shit happening.

I’m still trying to figure out whether I should go back to my Japanese school or not. I’m no longer happy in Ipoh. I feel I lack something. I seriously fucking miss KL. I could have done so much more in KL. I had a job waiting for me in KL… Hundreds of jobs I could apply to.. why the fuck did I decide to stay in Ipoh? Nothing but a chain of epic failures. I guess I feel Ipoh is my comfort zone, therefore I tend to step into my comfort zone again whereas in KL i learn to be the best, beat the rest.

I. Hate. Ipoh.

There are certain things holding me back. A very tough decision to make if I want to go back to KL and sacrifice everything in Ipoh – my comfy home and my cats. No matter what I do in Ipoh, I’m still all alone in the end. I’m tired of this shit. I’m tired of drama. I’m tired of people treating me like shit.

It’s okay, I’ll move on. I’m used to all the shit that I always get.