Archive for October, 2010
I went shopping yesterday and wanted to blog about it but I feel lazy to edit pictures so I’ll blog about something else first now. I’m also watching 3rd episode of ‘GLEE‘ and this is the first episode of Glee that I don’t like. It’s so sad and gloomy. The reason why I like Glee is because it’s funny and goofy… I hate gloomy stories. Plus it’s an episode about beliefs and God and religion. Please don’t do emotional episodes anymore Ryan Murphy.
It’s Halloween tonight! If I was in KL I would’ve gone somewhere for a costume party. I’d also have my movie night with candies that I’ll buy from Cold Storage. It’s my Halloween tradition. Same goes with Christmas. My hometown used to have Cold Storage but now no more so it sucks. I don’t have my Halloween candies this year.
So tonight, with all the lights off, I’ll be watching horror movies all night long. I have a few in my list. Most are movies I haven’t So here’s my list of movies for my horror movies night tonight:
1. Glee Episode 5: The Rocky Horror Glee Show
It’s Rocky Horror! With Glee cast Okay, I saved this for tonight in case my cousin is still awake. She better not keep talking and talking cuz I’d be seriously pissed off.
I still haven’t watched this so I thought this is the perfect time to watch.You can never go wrong with count Orlok to creep you out.
3. Drag Me To Hell
Sam Raimi’s movie ‘Nuff said.
4. A Nightmare on Elm Street (Remake)
I despise remakes but I didn’t bring the original movie DVD so I downloaded the remake.. also wanna see how bad this is.
5. Burnt Offerings
A random old movie I downloaded. Some reviews say good. Too bad my other movie ‘Don’t Be Afraid of the Dark’ couldn’t finish downloading in time for tonight.
6. Return of the Living Dead 1 & 2
My faves. My horror movie lineup isn’t complete without some zombie fun. I’d choose some other more brutal zombie movies but I feel like watching some fun zombie movies instead.
7. Bundy: A Legacy of Evil
Thought it’s perfect time to watch this
8. Trick r Treat or The Haunting Hour: Don’t Think About It
Might watch either one or both movies, depends. Halloween is not complete without horror movies relating to Halloween itself.
There are lots of other movies that are better choice for my horror movie marathon but I rather watch something that I haven’t watched for 1000 times. Just hope I don’t fall asleep too soon.
Well I’m gonna go out now to buy snacks for tonight. I shouldn’t be buying junk food because I have friggin gained my weight and fat, but I told myself, this is the only week I’m gonna let lose. I’ll go back to starving myself after Halloween. I wish I have more money to buy pills from my doc because they’re the only slimming pills that work.
I’m back to being so broke right now it’s not funny. I might want to find a part time job after this, I don’t know.
I went to Jusco today and so much for wanting to just window shop, I ended up buying a Maybelline’s BB cream and Maybelline’s powder foundation because they have 20% discount. Fuck this. If I keep spending like this, I’m gonna be left with zero cent in my account again… and I still haven’t paid my own phone bill, and the money I owe my uncle and friend. *sighs* It’s easier if I go back to KL and find freelance job but I don’t wanna go back there until I have money to rent a new house. I’ve also just paid $25 for hosting, and this domain will expire next month so need to pay for that too.. nyehhh…
Still having designer’s block so I can’t continue my websites yet. I gotta get my mood back sooooon. I wonder if I can somehow find the highest paying affiliate programs for this blog.. is there such thing? My cousin is staying at my place now for a while and it’s a huge distraction. Last night she ended up crying cuz she wanted to go home..and she’s fricken 18. At least today she’s calm. Hopefully she doesn’t end up crying again tonight. Plus instead of the room we give her, she wanted to sleep with us, in the living room, downstairs. So much for my own privacy. I don’t feel comfortable because I do my work all night long.
I downloaded 2 episodes from The Vampire Diaries & Glee last night. I missed 2 weeks of the episodes because of all the stress and depression. I just realized that this week’s episode of Glee has ROCKY HORROR theme!! Yay. I can’t wait to watch it later. Still waiting for them to do a tribute to MJ like they did with Madonna and Britney Spears. It’ll be so awesome to see they do a thriller dance or beat it dance. I miss The Rocky Horror Picture Show. The only person I know that loves RHPS as much as I do is Claudia. I still remember when we managed to get the whole ‘Film Appreciation‘ class to agree for a RHPS screening and they had the ‘WTF‘ face at the end hahaha, and I ended up wanting to do the time warp dance in class hehe. Going to watch the movie this Saturday during my Halloween Horror movie marathon.
Speaking of horror movie marathon..! I wonder what movies to watch. I want zombie related, but haven’t found any good zombie movies lately. I’m so stupid that I didn’t bring my old horror movies to watch… oh well. Gonna download some old movies for my Halloween movie marathon. @_@ Gonna download ‘Return of the Living Dead I and II’ just because I love .. Blah, should have brought the DVD with me.
Oh yeah, there’s a PC Expo tomorrow yay. Gonna get a new mouse, this mouse is totally pissing me off. I wanted to get an external HDD but as usual, not enough moolah.
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Last Monday, everything was settled with Nikko. Well actually I went to the vet and gave the doc a cloth to wrap Nikko and asked them to help me bury him… well more like begged them to help me bury him. There’s no way that I can let them just throw away Nikko… and I unfortunately don’t have enough strength to handle it, emotionally and physically. It’s enough that for the whole week I had to endure everything without a single help or support from mom. But at last, the doc told me he’d somehow ask his staff to help me bury Nikko.. well I hope he did. I really hope he did. If he lied, then karma will do its job but I doubt he would lie… I think.
So my time and job with Nikko is over. I didn’t see him for the last time.. I want to preserve the memory of him being alive. I thought I could be strong that day but I broke down again. Total bill for him was RM450 which is waaaaaay expensive but that was the last thing I could do for him so it’s ok. I tried. I seriously did. Now back to being broke. Wish there’s such a thing called ‘payday advance‘ here, so I can get some money in advance. Speaking of money, I need to pay for the hosting… *sighs*
But I’m trying to move on now. There are regrets and such, questions I keep asking myself.. had I done this and this would Nikko still be alive now? But there’s no point in dwelling too much into it because nothing will bring him back. I keep wishing this was just a dream and I’d wake up anytime now…
Now I’m trying to get myself into Halloween mood. I’m also saving up to get a new persian kitten. I surveyed around Ipoh and I don’t like the environment here so will buy a kitten in KL. I don’t want to spend RM1.5k only to get a sick kitten and it dies shortly after. This couple of days I’ve only been playing with my DSi to keep myself busy. I also bought a few Japanese drama & movies which is the reason why I recovered from Nikko’s death quite fast than I had expected. I’ll write it in another blog. Gonna sleep now cuz my cat Jojo is sleeping on my arm and my bottom left jaw is in paiiiiiiiiin! Bitch. Wisdom teeth shouldn’t exist.
RIP Nikko 2005-2010
I feel so numb right now. I’ve ran out of tears to cry.
I can’t put his picture in this entry because I’d end up crying.
Got the call I’ve been fearing the whole week from the doc yesterday telling me that Nikko didn’t survive and passed away. After almost a week of struggling, he finally succumbed to his sickness. I’ve been preparing myself for this for the whole week since I saw certain signs that he might be leaving us. He was like a zombie. He still had problem drinking and eating even though the doc told me he has been eating and drinking. But even so, it’s still very hard to accept the fact that he’s no longer with us. He no longer would kiss me.
My mom was crying badly yesterday. Somehow at first she was blaming the doc but I told her, I’ve already been warned by him that this could happen. I seriously was hoping he’d get better especially since the doc told me his kidney is still functioning… but I don’t know… I’m not blaming anybody. God loves Nikko more and he doesn’t want Nikko to suffer anymore. I can’t stand seeing him suffer either. I’ve tried everything in my power to help him… I was willing to spend all of my loan refund money for his operation… So I’m trying to be positive that he’s much happier now on the other side and since he was an extremely bubbly happy jovial cat, I’m very sure he doesn’t want to see us looking sad either.
It feels so empty right now, in this house and in my life. Today I’m going to the clinic to claim his body and to bury him. Then I’m going on a search for a new kitty to mend my broken heart and to fill this emptyness. My mom is sad, my 2 kitties are sad, I’m an emotional wreck… this negative aura has got to go away or I’d go crazy.
The only thing I’m extremely upset about is that it was just about a week when I finally get rid of that ‘someone’ out of my life completely, it took Nikko away. I was hoping this isn’t true, but now it is. It was that ‘someone’ that brought Nikko in my life, and when that ‘someone’ is finally out of my life completely, so is Nikko… the fact that this two things are so connected at the very same time made this especially hard on me. Well that’s life, and it always bite me the big one. Also all the bad things happen while I’m in my hometown… I have to move on though. I’m sure behind all this misery, God has something good planned for me… oh I fucking sure hope so.
Goodbye Nikko. Thank you for being the joy in our life for 5 years. I hope we’ve made you happy and treated you well. I’m so sorry for yelling at you when you pee’d everywhere in the house every 5 minutes. I loved you so very much and I’m gonna miss you so very much.
I just wish I have someone to hug me and tell me everything will be ok. Now I gotta ice down my extremely swollen and puffy eyes before I have to go out later.