Dean's List

That’s right bitchessss.. I’m in the dean’s list :D

To some it may not be a big deal, to some it may be the biggest deal in their life. Mine is the latter. It is a very big deal to me. Allow me to be vain for a minute to have a temporary enjoyment.

If you knew me since I was little, then you would know I have a bad history when in comes to academic life. I hated studying. I didn’t want to study because I lack the interest in subjects I took. I made the biggest mistake in transferring to technic school just so I could be in science stream. I loathe math or anything that has to do with numbers. I never cared about additional math, physics, chemistry let alone mechanical engineering stuff. That’s for guys and I’m also never gonna use it. I studied foundation in business.. I flunked accounting and business math.. I took executive secretaryship, I aced most of the subject but flunked in guess what subject..? BOOKEEPING (simpler version of accounting). I’m not cut out to be working in an industry which involves a lot of numbers. I can’t force myself. I liked to skip school. I was homeschooled which in Malaysia is equivalent to being a high school dropout.

However if I love doing something, I do it at full force. I’ll give my 150%.

When I entered my current college, many of my relatives would think ‘Oh no.. not again. She’d just quit halfway like in everything else she does‘. Well I proved everyone who thinks that wrong. Especially my mom. I finally finished my studies and guess what? Without failing any subjects and repeating them. My lowest grade that I’ve gotten in this college is C+ for two subjects due to production, technical and well, personal problems. And I was surprised when my friend told me that my name is in the dean’s list.

What a great way to end my almost 3 years of studying!

I’m not an overachiever. I just wanted to prove my mom that when I’m doing something I love, I’d do my best. Yes, my mom was against me taking arts course so my mom was against me taking video & animation course. She (and my uncles) was part of the reason I made the huge mistake in high school of switching from art stream to science engineering stream. She’s the typical conservative parent that thinks if you’re not a doctor, lawyer, architect or engineer, then you’re nothing. She also thought that when I entered this college, I’d flunk halfway. Guess not, huh mom?

I thought I would to. When I had a huge problem with my team mate and caused a commotion and had a lot of people against me, boycotting me, even by the staff and lecturers and was ‘blacklisted’. Yeah, I was a rebel, so sue me. Haha. I had to quit being a student leader and had to keep low profile for a while.. sorta just like disappear into the background instead of getting attention. Slowly I made new friends with my juniors, we all became very good friends and I got back up on my two feet again. It was a struggle during my 2nd year of studies. With all the problems I had in college & relationship, I thought I was gonna commit suicide from the depression.

So this is why I am proud of myself for overcoming my own depression (which I couldn’t in my other studies before, with the same problems of team mate problem, people boycotting etc) so being in the dean’s list is the greatest achievement I had in my college life. At least I’m part of ‘something‘ I never had the chance to be.

Coming up — photos from the dean’s list party!