Goddamnit.

I want to save whatever shreds of dignity I have left. I feel like a beggar on the street. Why can’t we just graduate normally? Why do we have to do showcase? Why do we have to ask for sponsors? I feel so low right now, and I think I’ve hit rock bottom. I feel like I’m begging on the street asking money from people because if I don’t, everything is coming out of our own pocket. Excuse me, but unlike others I am not rich. I do not know rich people either. I’ve tried so hard trying to find sponsors but I get rejected because no, they do not sponsor students… unless you know inside people that could help seal the deal.

And it’s even more stupid that each of us has to get at least minimum Rm800. Why can’t the huge damn college sponsor us, at least half of our budget since they like to rip people off?