Wow, now I’m bored.

I haven’t had time to rest for the past what… 3 months? Now I finally have the time to rest, I feel bored. It’s like, when I’m too busy to do personal stuff, I get all this crazy ideas to do things to procrastinate, but when I finally have the time, nothing comes to mind. I can’t even play The Sims 3 or Spore without getting bored after 5 minutes when I could play them for hours not long ago. All I’ve been doing is sleep since I didn’t get much sleep for quite a while.

I did finish watching Little Britain USA yesterday. It was hilarious. Oh, The Sims 3 World Adventures will be coming out soon, I’m excited! :D The first expansion for The Sims 3. I wish they do the same expansions as the sims 2 though.. I loved university life, and pets.. oh well.

I wanna go shopping. I want to get this hair cologne badly.. cuz they smell nice. And I also need new foundation and face powder.. night cream, and a fricken new chair from ikea.. because I can’t stand this chair no more. It hurts my ass, my thighs and my back. Not comfortable at all. Oh crap, not to mention Acer’s laptop charger too because the universal charger one sucks. I can’t even move the laptop or it’ll be loose and shuts down my lappy. :( My portable HDD died too :( Fuck. I didn’t backup some stuff. Argh.

Oh yeah, I have meeting tomorrow at college. :( They’re not letting us be free this holiday or go back to hometown because of the grad showcase. Blergh.

Well, I’m gonna go do pointless stuff now. Toodles.

Wow have you heard of a Slingbox? It sounds so cool, where you can watch your channels from your tv anywhere, if I understood correctly. I’m still a little bit confused on how it works, but from the description that you can watch your tv channels anywhere using like your laptop or even your phone. That sounds neat. I want one something like that. If only Malaysia has something like that, but then again, if it’s in Malaysia, it would cost a fortune. But the idea of portability of watching tv channels is cool.

If only I have all the money in the world to buy all these cool gadgets.

Insurance is important because you never know what’s gonna happen to you and when an unfortunate accident happens, and you have no insurance, then it’ll be tough. In the event where death occurs, the family suffers. I almost was an insurance agent before, but I quit halfway because I can’t commit. Beside, in Ipoh, who are you gonna get to sign up? Insurance does not only cover life but others such as your homes and cars and more. You can check out auto insurance quote to learn more.

Well.

I think I’m less emo now, even though I still feel like a complete failure but shit happens, what’s done is done. I have to move on.

So far, I’ve been doing nothing during this holiday. Maybe because it’s Ramadhan, there’s nothing much to do. Can’t go out and do stuff cuz then you’ll get tired and would wanna eat. Plus the weather nowadays, omg. You can’t even see properly during the daytime because the sun is too bright, it is as if it’s just above your head. I went to college for ‘meeting’ but I waited like 1 1/2 hours but the lecturer didn’t show up so I had to leave.

What’s good about Ramadhan month is the FOOD. 4 pm, you’ll see like huge markets that sells food and all stuff. I plan to diet this fasting month but with all the food you see selling, you need a very strong willpower to control yourself from buying everything you see. I already spent Rm50 in 2 days just on food, wtf. Oh speaking of food, last Friday I had a reunion for my japanese school classmate. I was there very late, because I had to do editing until 6 pm, go back home and change then send Jackie to LRT, then got stuck in traffic jam, and missed a road that I was supposed to turn to so I had to drive a very long way. But glad I didn’t miss anyone, cuz if I was late for around 10-15 minutes, I would’ve missed Farah cuz they had to leave. I didn’t eat anything at Delicious (I’ve been told the carbonara spaghetti is damn awesome) because I ate ayam penyet earlier, so I was really full. We wanted to go karaoke afterwards, so we went to times square, walked all the way up but it was too expensive. RM60++ for a person? No way. So we went back home. I have to edit the video soon.

I’m thinking of going to the dentist. My teeth hurts sometimes.. and of course, my wisdom teeth annoys the fuck out of me. But why does it gotta be so fricken expensive? I’m thinking of going to college’s dentist because maybe I can get some dental discounts while I’m still a student but I’m scared. I don’t know.. >.<

Well I’m going to watch Charmed that I bought ages ago that I couldn’t finish watching to do extreme hectic schedule and play with my DS .. this 2 weeks I’m going to fricken relax. Am not gonna give a damn about anything.

Finally semester is over, finally I’m free for 2 weeks… but I have absolutely no mood to be happy about it or to celebrate.

I am so fucking disappointed in myself after yesterday’s last presentation for video production 2. What a great end to a long stressful semester. I can’t even begin to describe how terrible everything went. First the lecturer was unhappy because everybody was late… I was told by my team mate it’ll start at 10 am because he already spoke to her.. but turns out she was there since 9 am.. wtf. We had technical problems with the projector and all so everything started after 11-ish.

My group went 2nd, and just before we start the head of faculty, whom we didn’t expect to show up, showed up. I was surprised as hell. I don’t know what my team mate was babbling about.. and I can’t even rely on my team mate to do a simple good proposal (he wrote in first person instead of the 3rd for topics he added which is a big no-no).  I had problem with editing, because my premiere pro keeps crashing so I had to make do with what I have and export that shit out rather than have nothing to present right? Our documentary turned out long and draggy, because I couldn’t even preview the fricken thing during offline editing so I can’t even guess what fits and what doesn’t. After that, the lecturer was like snickering and laughing, which is offensive in the first place because I can handle criticism but to have someone laughing at your work? Something you’ve been trying to work hard on, is really fucking disappointing and embarassing especially when head of faculty was there. I tried to explain how much difficulty I had because my computer can handle our usual few minutes of work but a 15 minutes documentary (3 documentaries nonstop for the whole week) was too much for my comp to handle but I don’t know if that is regarded as an excuse?

Not only the lecturer was unhappy with our work, but we got lectured by the head of faculty because of everyone’s attitude. She said our lecturer is fedup with our attitude.. well she’s excluding me and my team mate because we were the only ones who’s been attending class and contacting her about editing and the rest has been MIA but still.. and then after that, the lecturer gave her last word before she dismiss us, and said that she wish it was the first class, had she known we’d produce shitty work and know nothing on filmmaking.. okay she didn’t put it in that exact word but that was what she meant to say. She then said how The One Academy students would ask her for help, she’d go yamcha with them, help whenever they want her to even at 4 am… she said if we keep this attitude of just doing things on our own, we wasted money and time in this college.

What. The. Fuck.

If I wanted to be a bitch, i’d say that we’ve tried. WE’VE FRICKEN TRIED. The lecturer was gone for ONE FUCKING MONTH. She came back a week before final assessment. We TRIED to use the edit suite for editing, but because she couldn’t be there, we COULD NOT use the fucking edit suite. We couldn’t even borrow the camera AT ALL because something has gone missing it’s all like a fricken CSI scene now and off limit. She said we can’t blame the college, WHY CAN’T WE? We fucking PAY the college to use the facilities, so what is this fuckery? What is this stupidity? WHAT ARE WE PAYING FOR? To have a fricken part time lecturer go off for a month???? WITH NO REPLACEMENT CLASSES?!?! Had she not gone off for a month, she could have monitored our progress, she could have told us what she wants, what went wrong, what needs reshooting, and shit like that. If she could be there when we did the editing, she could have told us if it’s up to her standard or not but no, she could not be there. She didn’t even come except for a total of what — 3, 4 hours?

What else are we supposed to do?? We tried every fucking way to get our assignment done, and we did, but with such limited resources and equipment, the shitty work is what we’re capable of and I’M SO SORRY IT’S NOT UP TO YOUR STANDARD.

It pisses me off that I can do so much better, and to have someone who doesn’t know our strength, our problems, to judge the shitty work, it’s just fucking disappointing. I regret. I regret of going to that college. I should have gone to a real FILM SCHOOL like the Vancouver Film School or New York Film school where they have EVERYTHING from equipments to good editing facilities to other facilities such as green screen, studio, props, all complete. And my college? Everything is still BRAND NEW.. 2 years and it some has not even been used at all. The macs are so dusty because they have not been used. Fuck my life. I will, however get my degree in a real film school some day.. I’m never ever going to the Malaysian’s so called “film school” ever again. It’s full of shit.

I can go on more, but what’s the point? It’s not gonna change anything.

Fuck you.

How could you be insensitive and selfish? How could you be so retarded? How could you make me happy for a while and destroys them in an instance with your absolute stupidity? Sometimes you’re so full of crap it’s ridiculous. How could you ask me questions I don’t have an answer to?? How could ask me to predict the future? I am not a fortuneteller for fuck’s sake. I have no answers to your questions. Please stop pissing me off with your immaturity and fucking grow up.

Please fucking grow up.
Sometimes you give me really stupid answers and reasons that I feel I rather kill myself than hear it.
And don’t even think you can buy my affection. YOU don’t qualify yet. YOU can’t tell me what to do. YOU can’t force me to be someone I’m not. YOU can’t ask me questions which I don’t have the answers to. YOU can’t force me to predict the future.

Stop making me suffer… AGAIN. Stop hurting me.

I can’t believe week 13 is ending and fuck, week 14 next… last week for this semester. I still feel like we just started this semester. I have never been this busy ever. And I can’t believe I still have 3 projects to edit when we’re supposed to be finalizing it by now AND also still has one scene to shoot, due to delays. Can’t believe some problems happening now, like at the last minute when next week is the final assessment week.

Anyways today was final presentation day for research methodology class and I was the first. I was nervous as hell but since the emo lecturer wasn’t there, I was less nervous thank god. I stuttered a lot, wtf. Oh well I don’t care anymore. As long as it’s over, and I pass it, I’m fine even though I really want an A, but oh well whatever.

Oh yeah, my internet has been good lately, so I took the opportunity to download movies. And in the course of 5 days I downloaded like .. 15 movies O_O Can’t believe that. Usually it would take me at least a day to download a movie, not like 3 or 4 movies a day because they block torrent so the speed is usually less no matter how many seeders you are connected to. So far I downloaded:

- Little Britain USA
- Amityville Horror (1979)
- Amityville II: The Possession
- Fight Club
- Bundy: A Legacy of Evil
- Charlie & The Chocolate Factory
- Heavyweights
- Major Payne
- The Haunting in Connecticut
- Race to Witch Mountain
- Trilogy of Terror II
- The Unborn
- Newsies
- Lesbian Vampire Killers
- I Love You Man

I forgot to mention that when I was sick couple of weeks ago, I also bought this DVD that has like almost all of the Michael Jackson’s stuff that they’re re-releasing now like his video collections DVD, then his Moonwalker movie, live concert in Bucharest etc I think like 8 DVD in one.. couldn’t pass up the chance. Quality is not bad, so RM20 was worth it instead of RM8 for each dvd.

Can’t wait for this week to be over.. I have a lot to watch to kill time :D

Well I better be working on the assignments and projects now. Toodles.

I have a new TV!

I bought it last Tuesday and it was delivered Wednesday night. It’s a non famous brand one though, but at least it’s 29 in so no more microscopic tv that requires squinting everytime I need to read the subtitles lol. It cost like Rm30 over my budget at RM630 but it’s black.. better than the cheap one I wanted which is all silver-ish color.

Unfortunately, on Thursday, my laptop died.. thing is I was able to use it on battery but not using the charger so I was guessing it was the plug’s fault. Plus that night my friend who has the same model laptop as mine told me she experienced it before so the next day I took it to Ikano, and thank god it’s just the charger. I was really scared it was the hardware because I so don’t want to go to acer service center. Too far, and takes ages to queue up. However I bought the universal charger and it will damage the battery if I charge it a lot so thank god H gave me some money to buy original Acer charger. Might cost over Rm200. >.> But thanks to H for giving me extra money, so technically I did not spend money for the tv lol

My uncle came on Friday so that on Saturday we could go to Malacca. Jackie wants to shoot our documentary there and since my uncle has been wanting to go to Malacca badly since last month, so I thought is a great chance. We left on Saturday afternoon and reached Malacca around 3-pm ish. God, the roads are like WAY NARROW. Plus it was a Saturday so imagine the MASSIVE traffic jam. Plus it was so friggin burning hot. After like going round and round the city in car, we decided to find hotel room. ALL, I repeat, ALL hotel rooms were FULLY BOOKED. We went to more than 10 hotels, budget ones and expensive ones and even the resort hotel at like prolly 20 km+ away from Malacca, ALL FULLY BOOKED!. We searched until like 7 pm, didn’t even eat… and I was tired as hell, so we decided to drive back home since we can’t find room. Never ever go to Malacca on weekends. Tourist hell. I didn’t even get to meet with Jackie.. blah.

However, it was very cool to see the city. It’s very unique. We even went to the beach. Next time we’re going again on weekdays. I so need a vacation, but no way I’m going to places like this. I wanna go to places like… Gatlinburg.. yeah Gatlinburg vacations would be nice. Be up on the smoky mountain, just me and mother nature. Okay, this depresses me.

WTF.

My friend said there’s at least 30 students infected with h1n1 at college so why is the college not closed yet and we are not quarantined? Do they want all of us to get infected and die? But since my college is the shittiest college ever, I bet even 1000 students get h1n1, they’re still running class as usual, only with us wearing protective suit and masks. Or maybe it’s part of their plan to wipe out some population. Nothing can fuck with the college class timetable, but they can fuck with our holiday if they want to.

I’m finally done with my freelance editing work, and so now I got just enough money for a new TV! The problem is, I don’t know when I can buy it. I’m busy whole day tomorrow with shooting, and Wednesday.. and Thursday I’m probably busy with editing work… so .. Friday? No busy on Friday too.. weekend I have to go Malacca for shooting.. ARGH. No tv until next week?

CRAZY, DUDE.

You know when you go to banks, you do your own usual banking stuff, like depositing, withdrawing .. but I have not heard of private placement memorandum? What is that? or maybe i’ve heard of it but it’s something in malay so I can’t tell.

PS: I’m completely busy now, and stressed, why can’t someone stop bothering me with his problem. It’s like the same problem again, forcing me to care or I’ll get the shit, just when I thought it’s over, then it’s back again. Same fucking thing everyday, everytime..  Fuck, I have no time to care for your shit, I have my own. It’s not like I get paid to listen to your problems or else I’d be a millionaire by now.

I FINALLY have my 1 TB external HDD. YAY! I got a Seagate at RM319 and i was contemplating whether to get Buffalo instead at RM320, but I didn’t care anymore. I was getting a headache from all the search. There weren’t THAT many people as it usually is on Friday, maybe because people are scared about the h1n1. I saw lots of people wearing face masks too. So other than an external HDD, I got myself a new mouse for Rm30, and a new microSDHC card for my nintendo ds. I wanted laptop cooler and a new laptop bag, but i got sick of searching, and I didn’t have that much money left either so I figured I’ll get the laptop cooler at later time..

I have SO MUCH things left to do.. I still have 2 documentaries to shoot, 3 documentaries to edit, 2 final assignment proposal/reports to do, and we have less than 3 weeks left for this semester and we’re already having our final assessment next week for research class. I’m scared. I have no idea what to expect or do.

On Friday I downloaded “The Haunting in Connecticut” and “Race to Witch Mountain“… Haunting was okay.. but typical haunting movie, nothing special. Not that scary either. Horror movies are just the same nowadays.. don’t like them. I’m watching Race to Witch mountain now and hmmm.. I don’t know.. don’t feel any connection to the old witch mountain series. Again, too much on special effect. I prefer the original classic. This new one don’t feel much of family movie.. or fun movie like the orignal was. Oh well. Remakes are always bad anyway. But ‘race’ is not a remake actually.. it’s completely a new story. No connection between the kids.. they’re not fun.. cuz they’re serious and looks like they have sticks up their arse..

Oh! I also watched “The Amityville Horror II: The Possession” this morning. OMG, when I watched The Amityville Horror 2005 remake, I keep thinking I saw a movie where a guy actually shot his whole family.. and since Amityville Horror is actually about the Lutzes instead of the original DeFeo case, it’s been bothering me for YEARS trying to think what movie I saw that resembles DeFeo murder case.. I just keep remembering a guy with a shotgun, in the amityville house with windows that won’t break… FINALLY after 4 years I got my answer.. what I saw what part II, where the kid got possessed and shot his whole family. God. I rented too many horror movies back when I was a kid that I can’t remember what movies I saw. I don’t remember I rented part II at all… most probably because back then, I didn’t know anything about the amityville case and the DeFeo murder case.. I do remember I watched Amityville: Dollhouse though.. and probably one more out of 6 or 7 parts series? I don’t know.

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Okay I have work to do.. I want a new tv. The silence of no tv is killing me. And I have a very bad stomach cramp since yesterday’s morning. :( I have a freelance work to do and finish by tonight, and hopefully I get paid enough to afford a new cheap tv.