I was told my recent blog posts have been boring… well I have a boring life so I don’t know how to make it exciting and epic. Well there is one thing — my love relationship both online and offline have been well… interesting… or epic. I was just talking to H yesterday after we finished celebrating Earth Hour, that if we ever got married, we’d have some hell of a story to tell to our grandkids .. an epic love story. I told him it’d be a cool movie I could direct, while I throw in some kung fu battle, some traditional malay silat (martial art) and throw in some zombies lol

Today, something else also happened online.. I feel really, really, really bad now but I had to do and say what I had to do and say to prevent even more heartache in the future. I’ve learned my mistakes before where I kept everything to myself until to the point where I couldn’t anymore and just end it, without any chance of fixing the situation. Unfortunately I can’t satisfy some people’s needs of juicy story by blogging about it because I still respect the other party so boo hoo :) So my blog will remain boring.

Sometimes I wonder, am I living in a fantasy world to hope for something ‘grand’ to happen to my love life? It’s already bad enough where I have to go through my everyday life without having someone to take me to places, to shower me with gifts, to be the crying shoulder and to be there to help when I’m in need..unlike all of my friends. Basically to have someone to drag around. It’s PATHETIC. Take Heidi Klum and her husband Seal for example… I always wonder… how could a hot supermodel like Heidi marry Seal? I mean have you taken a good look at Seal??? I was puzzled… UNTIL… I found out how Seal proposed to Heidi:

“[Seal] took me by helicopter,” the Project Runway host, 34, tells Marie Claire’s June issue about their December 2004 vacation to the Canadian Rockies. “He had an igloo built there, and they’d brought up everything: a bed with sheets inside the igloo, rose petals everywhere, candles. Very, very romantic!”

As she goes on to describe, “There was food and champagne, and then the helicopter left. It was a little scary, too, because you’re so cut off from the world. No trees, nothing – it was hardcore. But I was ecstatic.”

That’s when I realized, any guy, who would go to the extreme like that, is truly ‘one in a million’… that’s when I could understand why Heidi would marry Seal. He may not have the look, but he has the most romantic side any girl would want a guy to have. Sorry, I’m all for epic now. That, for me, is EPIC. It’s what most of us girls want, and most of us couldn’t get :(

You know what’s another ’slap to my face’? My classmate will be getting married this June. WHACK. A big fat smack to my face. When I got back to Ipoh, my relatives all was asking about my boyfriend and when I’m getting married. They didn’t believe me I don’t have one RL. It made me want to curl up and die rather than feel humiliated. I think no one in my family knows I’ve broken up with H. o___O

This reminds me that earlier today H and I talked about our fave 90s cartoons and shows that we used to watch as kid. Since we’re at the same age, we’re at the same era, turns out we have same fave cartoon, surprisingly. This makes me miss the 90s sooooooooo much. I miss being a kid, and I miss being carefree. Not having billions of problems and heartache to deal with. No depression. And best part — I was cute..! And thin…90s was the best decade.

It’s 12.30 am and I haven’t done a thing on my 3D animation. Gah I should stop procrastinating now. And I’m craving my butterscotch bread. And I still have pending blog on my uncle’s death. And gaaaaaaah! I HATE YOU DIGI! Why did you temporarily bar my phone line tonight?!?! At least if you barred it last night, I could’ve gone to the centre today…GAH! Hate you. H said once he starts getting his pay and stable job, he’d start paying for my phone bill every month. Awww. :) We’ll see lol. I so hope that’s true cuz that would so help lift my burden.

I also desperately NEED a 1TB external HD cuz I only have 1 GB of space left, and my work stuff so far takes up 40Gb, wtf. HURRY UP PC FAIR, and hurry up allowance day :(

I’ve been a fan of David Lehre for quite a while, ever since Myspace: the movie first came out. So few days ago Dave released a trailer of his upcoming movie and I can’t get over how cool the movie looks, how cool he edited the trailer to be and how extremely hot Dave is with the badass look. I’d do anything to *BEEP* Shamus (his character) based on his look in the trailer.

What I adore about Dave is that he’s an inspiration to me. He’s a self-made and self-thought filmmaker. He’s now living in LA, has won some contests (big money, big cars) and doing shows and in movies and talk shows. Many said he sold out, but then again, which filmmaker wannabe wouldn’t do that? It’s the only way to get noticed, and I respect Dave for wanting to be known and famous. I know how that feels like.

Anyways, here’s the trailer to TURBO the movie:

I celebrated EARTH HOUR last night.. it was fun being in the dark lol. I heard they’re having a party at Sunway and all. Wish I could join. So in the dark, I just played a dating game on my phone which I’m so addicted to, while sms’ing with H for an hour. You know, I noticed he has changed a lot, even after breaking up with his gf. It makes me happy that’s he’s not emo…for a reason.

After I could turn lights back on, GRINDHOUSE: DEATH PROOF movie was on.. omg I’ve been trying to find that movie for SO LONG ever since I watched GRINDHOUSE: PLANET TERROR. I finally found Planet Terror but couldn’t find Death Proof.. so I was happy cable tv showed it :D At first I thought Death Proof would be boring, compared to Planet Terror, cuz hey, zombie movie wins everything.. but it turns out better than expected.. so I like it. Not a zombie movie, but still good to watch.

Alright gonna go do something now.

Tonight I suddenly feel like talking about my workplace, Imagika & Hez Comm.

I’ve never talked about my internship place so far… so since today I took LOADS of pics, I’m gonna be posting some pics. You see, for the past week since my supervisors went to Hong Kong, I’ve been at Hez Comm office, minus the two days I had to go back to Ipoh. So today, I was asked to go to Imagika, after a week of not going there and I saw the rest of my colleagues being busy preparing for some event in Johor. It was arts and crafts time lol. I helped them a bit. Since it was the first time for me for majority of the ‘crew’ to be together, I decided to snap some candids. So now you’ll see what my workplace is like! And it’s one of the last days I’ll be seeing some of them… their internship will be over at the end of this month :(

It was so messy, lol.You can see Muzammil and Yaya.

You can see Yaya (girl), Hamim and Mr Zai, my food buddy relaxing on the sofa.. no fair… I was helping them, he was relaxing! :P

Majority of Imagika people… plus Herne (boss’ sister) who was there cuz she’s helping them in Johor. Haha I love those hats they’re wearing, no idea WHY they’re wearing it though. In the picture – Herne, Yaya, Linda, Eina, Keon, Faris, Muzammil and Hamim’s head

My supervisor brought chocolates back from Hong Kong for us to share.. gah the boys grabbed lots and I only grabbed 2 pieces! lol. I’m so mad I didn’t realize truffle and milky way…. :( :( :( Everyone also got a T-Shirt from Hong Kong :D! More pictures will be uploaded in facebook when I’m not lazy. The boys was super nice today so they fried some chicken nuggets for us and keropok lekor (if you don’t know what this is, google it)..my god I’ve been eating so much at work

And here’s a shot of the other office, Hez Comm where I’d spend my time using fast net, watching vids or dvds or cable tv, seeing famous actors, and getting FAT OBESE with all the foods… need to get back on track with my diet supplements…

This was during casting session so I just took a quick snap …I’ll take more when I get the chance… but rough view, there’s the meeting table I always sit at when there’s no meeting.. you can see there’s always 2 jugs of tea and coffee, and I hope I won’t get diabetes from drinking countless cups of tea….. there’s the tv area..with plasma tv and dvd player and cable tv, and the work place… I lost the pics I took of the working area I think, so I’ll take new ones and post them later.

So there you go. Now you’ve seen the two offices I’m interning at. Well it’s 2:15 am now I better do some 3D animation and then get some sleep.

Oh btw, I’m supporting EARTH HOUR campaign tomorrow night so I’m turning lights off for an hour tomorrow night! Looking forward to sit in the dark :D

I’ve started twittering again: twitter.com/tokyotenshi

I haven’t updated in a while..so I’ll try to make this short. Last Sunday was last day of sale at IKEA so mom and I went there and spent RM800 on a 4 tiers drawer and a small bedside drawer for me and a new wardrobe for mom. They came at in like less than 2 hours which surprised me o.O So now my room is not messy anymore! YAY! I’ve been working on cleaning, rearranging furnitures for the past week. I love my room now. I also got a call from my cousin that my uncle-who-married-my-maid-and-turned-into-a-monster was sick and mom was panicking. We wanted to leave to Ipoh but then my other uncle said we don’t need to.

Monday there was nothing.. was quite boring at the office since 2 of my supervisors are gone for a week to oversea. I could barely remember what I did on Monday lol. Ohhhh yeah..now I remember. I took mom to pay for bills so now I have my cable tv (Astro) back! It was temporarily disconnected for 2 weeks.. oh the horror! My office also installed Astro on Monday, cool :D Mom and I also went to Giant mall and I think we spent around RM150? God we need to start budgeting… um yeah, like that’s gonna happen lol. I also bought butterscotch bread…

Because of SOMEONE’S blog post, I am now addicted to Gardenia’s Butterscotch Bread which is SOOOOOOOOO GODDAMN GOOD! Unfortunate it’s damn expensive: RM4. But I don’t care. It’s good.

Images borrowed from Skyler

It’s really GOOD.. only now I can agree with Gardenia’s slogan: “So good you can even eat it on its own”. It’s sweet and it makes you fucking addicted. I can finish a loaf in less than a day.

Then at 6 am I got a call from my uncle that the other sick uncle passed away. I’ll blog about my 2 days in Ipoh later in a new post cuz right now I need to rest a bit. I downloaded FINAL FANTASY CRYSTAL CHRONICLES: ECHOES OF TIME at work yesterday for my Nintendo DS and managed to get it working (it had anti piracy thing or so I’ve heard) and I’m usually not into RPG type of game, but this one is good. It has wifi multiplayer too. I visited someone’s town earlier but it’s kinda laggy. Still need to get used to it. I love GRAND THEFT AUTO: CHINATOWN WARS. It’s fun when you can steal a car, run over mass of people and get chased by the police and you run them over and kill them too, haha. Or at least make the cop car crash.

Now where’s my damn butterscotch bread…………………….

PS: Creepshow 1 is good, Creepshow 2 is okay…but WTF @ Creepshow 3???? I know they just stole the name cuz it has no relation to the 1st and 2nd part but what the fuck man? The director and writer of Creepshow 3 needs to be assassinated! Part 3 sucks major donkey ass and eats donkey shit.

Well, I can’t sleep. Went to bed at 9pm something and woke up at 12 am. It’s 2.30 am now, I was chatting on the phone with someone who surprised me with a call at 1 am until his credit ran out so now I’m bored. So now I’m gonna blog.

So what’s the news…hm… my ex is back to single *insert random emotion*. He also just bought a new laptop but since I have a laptop too, I’m not jealous.

Yesterday at work, there was a meeting the whole morning/afternoon. We have LOADS of new task, and I have to learn and sort of master basic 3D animation so I can do some logo within this week. Well, both of the bosses are gone to Hong Kong if I’m not mistaken so freedom in the office :P But everyone has shitloads to do so it’s not really enjoyable freedom. After eating lunch in the office (food was delicious today btw) some of us watched DVD since the other office has dvd player and plasma tv. They watched Chocolate again and after we watched Wallace & Gromit: Curse of the Were-Rabbit. It was fucking hilarious. We all couldn’t stop laughing.. After movie is done, I chatted a bit with the Indonesian helper, then went back at around 3 pm, picked up mom, and wanted to go to Ikea but all parking entrance has been blocked… I hate weekends. So we went to some furniture store instead… got my car washed and vacuumed then went to eat at a restaurant.

I also bought a new 4-in-1 DVD: Creepshow 1,2,3 and Pan’s Labyrinth. FINALLY I GOT CREEPSHOW DVD. Omg I’ve been wanting it for so long, been trying to download it for so long.. and finally I watched it on youtube last week but it was in low quality.. so I’m happy I got the DVD. Then I went to Digital Mall but couldn’t find tutorial DVD for 3Ds Max, so I bought a tutorial for Maya. Still have to go to Summit tomorrow, bleh.I saw 2 TB dual external hardisk… (1TB+1TB)… wtf, I’m still planning to buy the 1TB once I get my allowance, they’ve come out with 2TB now?? It’s RM899 though.. almost the same if I buy two 1TB hardisk. I wonder if they’re gonna make 1TB PORTABLE hardisk.. can’t wait for PC fair on 10th-12th April. I saw saw some people buying wii and Wii accessories… i want a Wii :(

Friday at work was very interesting. In the morning, I got a call from my supervisor asking me to burn the DVD of this marketing video I made so I went to the other office, burned a few DVD and suddenly my boss asked me if I’d like to join him to see a client.. OF COURSE. So I did. First time I was in my boss’ bmw o.O; Hate massive traffic jam.. we got stuck, so my boss thought, hey.. why not we just walk to the office…? So we did. With me in heels. And was in pain. Like majorly as we searched for the office… So we met a client, who is a German guy.. I was just observing XD And I get to know quite a lot about movie, the international market and things like that. Then we went to lunch together, joined by the German guy and Swedish guy. Thing with foreigners is that, they’re not intimidating. They’re more relaxed and laid back. So I rather pitch ideas or whatever to a foreigner rather than local..

After then went back to office.. joined for a meeting, then just relaxed there until 9 pm.. I just wanted the free dinner lol I love Mr Zai. He’s awesome. He’s serious looking when it comes to work but he’s actually a funny guy.. he’s like my food buddy.. whenever food arrives in the other office, he’d call me or give me a sign and we’d be the first to grab it without shame lol After dinner, I stayed for a bit until this very famous Malaysian actor came. I’m wondering, twice I wasn’t at the office, they ordered Canadian Pizza, and I missed it :( So now I”m craving it.. haven’t tasted Canadian 2 for1 Pizza yet (http://canadianpizza.com.my)

Anyways, it’s 3 am now.. so I’m gonna watch the rest of Creepshow while playing my Nintendo DS… I miss my DS! Been too busy to play it. So now since Grand Theft Auto: Chinatown Wars is out, I’m back to playing it :D Also playing Cookie Shop and Burger Island lol.

RIP NATASHA RICHARDSON

I was shocked when I heard this news a few minutes ago… just couldn’t believe it. I’m not a big fan of her, but I did like her in THE PARENT TRAP, which was the first movie Lindsay Lohan starred in and I was obsessed with back then.. and Natasha played the mother, and she was awesome.. and the 2nd movie I saw her was in WILD CHILD, which is my current fave movie that I saw in December/January, which is her last movie. She played the headmistress.

She was a good actress and a beautiful one.. all I know is that she died from head injury after a skiing accident. Such a tragic loss. May you rest in peace.

PS: I’ll blog tomorrow

Tuesday and Wednesday was very interesting.
You see, on Tuesday morning I was given a new task to edit a video for this new proposal they’re doing. The problem is, I need to finish it in 24 hours. O.o By 4 pm I went to the other office, watched a movie called Chocolate if I’m not mistaken (ending was awesome) …By 6.30 pm, I had to go to Taman Tun to see Chris again and Jay, for the voice over narration again. They were like an hour late x.x Good thing Jay is a funny guy lol He amused me… Chris is Canadian and Jay is American btw.

8.30 pm I rushed back to office…to do my editing and turns out director Aziz M Osman was there with his son…omg that lil boy is so cute! Then by 12 am, Aziz suddenly stood behind me asking me what I was doing…scared the crap out of me, lol. Hey, it’s not everyday I get to have a famous actor/director standing behind me asking about my work okayyy? I thought he left. So I was in the office the whole night doing editing… I missed again their pizza :( So my boss treated everybody with burger.. and later some snacks and coffee for me. I’m surprised I could stay up that late doing editing nonstop.

By 5 am, everybody’s gone except me and my boss…he was taking a nap on the couch, with the movie Australia turned on lol. I just kept doing my work until 7-am where one by one started coming to work. By 9-ish am, everybody from the other office was there for some reason, but they were watching that CHOCOLATE movie lol. i finally finished my video at 12 pm…relaxed a bit, then 1 pm I went back home, then straight away passed out until 10 pm.

Then last night I talked to that someone who’s been making me feel all emo the past couple of days… we talked, I confessed what’s been bothering me and now I’m no longer upset or emo about it as we’ve solved it. Feeling much better now. Unfortunately i can’t mention it in my blog, and only certain people can know.. it’s quite personal.

So today I took half day leave…:D And my boss told me they nailed the proposal, YAY. So working on the video 24 hours straight without sleep, plus migraine and all was worth it. :D Phew!

Ooooo Patek Philippe watch…

Ok…

I have a project that I need to finish in 12 hours but until I get my footage and voice over, I can do nothing. So I’m gonna blog for a bit. I’ve been depressed or emo lately, and when I was just about to get better, it got worst last night. I won’t say why or how. I don’t know if I should be happy or jealous or upset/depressed or what.

But I am upset… and angry. Really angry. And really depressed. Just wanna take my luggage and leave..

Anyways, work related.. been doing ok. Starting to get stressed again but at least I have work to do. I learned a lot too, and yesterday I talked to this guy who is my colleague and he inspired me to one day be a freelancer and hopefully, own a company of my own.

Other than that, nothing else is interesting. I feel so lonely now. I used to have a few important people that makes me happy but now I don’t have anyone anymore. At least before I could hang out with people at college… now I have no one to talk to about my probs or frustration because I’m busy at work. It’s starting to really frustrates me to the point of bad depression.

I think the people at my work is watching BOLT movie.. the guys are so relaxed here O.o Unlike in the other office (where I’m mostly at). Alright gonna go down to 7-11 and buy a chocolate and get fat and feel sorry at my pathetic self for being alive and failing at it.

My domain is expiring in a few days… if I don’t fork out another $50 bucks this domain will be gone. So bye bye.

*if you can’t tell I’m in major depression now*

EDIT// I have opted for monthly payment, because turns out the $50 setup fee is waived  for me for being over 97 days. So now I have to pay $10.95 every month instead of $9.95 when paid annually. Such a hassle. But on the positive side, if in case I need to switch host, cancel hosting, or whatever, I can do so now without worrying that I’ve already paid for a year.

I’ve been thinking of switching host anyway… any recommendation that’s cheap, and RELIABLE in terms of uptime and support. Plus with 1-click install of any scripts or application with 1-click update… I don’t want to use FTP to update everytime.

Anyways, proper blog coming soon. Blah I have much updating to do. I just finished a project yesterday and today I was just given a new one which has to be researched, compiled, edited and rendered within 24 hours. Fun. I broke a part of my laptop at the part where the heat comes out…. now I have an ugly hole at the bottom back of this laptop. Poor laptop. :(

I want pearl necklaces…

I am fucking depressed and feeling down (and quite sick) and I have no one to talk to.

I fail at life.