Since I can’t fricken load my wordpress, I”m just gonna use my firefox blog addon to blog and just talk random. My connection was working fine for few minutes, then wham, back to being CRAP.

I’ve been so bored beyond words. H has started being busy since Christmas is almost here, my net is barely working so I can’t do jackshit.. so I’ve been very bored. When I’m bored, I get all emo. At times like this, I wish I’m away somewhere, for a vacation. Anywhere. At the beach, at a theme park, in Malaysia, out of Malaysia, be at a vacation home somewhere in the Outer Banks, anywhere dammit…

I’ve been trying to be serious in losing weight since H has been serious about it.. for god’s sake he’s gotten thinner and I’ve gotten fatter, wtf. I feel fatter than him even though I’m just 5’3/5’4 and he’s like 6 foot something tall.. and it’s not helping either that he’s been stuffing me with extremely fattening food.

So I’ve been watching youtube for some thinspiration. One thing I love about youtube is that fat people would make a diary/journal on their journey to weight loss but funny thing is that, sorry for being frank, but half of the fat people in youtube are willing to show their extremely fat body, with all those gross, disgusting flabs hanging while they’re wearing really tiny bikini.. so it’s really, really gross! I know I”m fat, so there’s no way in hell I”m showing my ‘flabs’ for people all around the world to see.. ewwww! And they don’t really lose that much weight.. at the end, they’re still fat and gross.

However, they are still some who had absolutely AMAZING result. Some got skinnier, sexier and some of those really obese people became thinner… and that’s just an inspiration.

Shit it’s 5.30 am..I should sleep.