Archive for September, 2008

Appreciating Films

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Last Friday, we watched BATTLESHIP POTEMKIN in class… as usual, almost everyone hated the silent film, lol. Early that morning, I watched the movie and did a research for it so I’d be prepared for class and at first, I didn’t think I’d like the movie cuz it’s realated to battles, politics etc but turns out I liked it. It’s quite disturbing though, the part of Odessa Steps.. I don’t know, there’s something about it that disturbs me. Hated the ending though. I was like EH? Plus the choppy editing and Eisenstein’s belief in non-continuity makes the movie a bit confusing but I do like movie that is open for interpretation. So today in class we discussed Soviet Montage and felt like history class cuz we have to know about Tsar and the Tsarist regime and all. Same with before when we learn about German expressionism. My movie analysis score was 8/10 .. blah, a point lower than the first one for Dr. Caligari but Ms Shana did say I have the best interpretation of an image, lol. No comment.

I finally finished downloading LADRI DI BICICLETTE (The bicycle thief/thieves) which is supposed to be shown this friday in class.. wow… very touching and depressing movie :( I loved it though. You can see a very strong bond of father and son in it… and I love watching movies with realism, as in I could really see what Rome was like in the 1940′s and the environment of the post-war era. Heh, never thought I could be watching movements type movies and actually liking it. But next week is holiday (i hope for monday class too) so we’d be studying about Italian Neo-realism after Eid celebration. I’ve been wikipedia’ing about neo-realism and it’s much more interesting than soviet montage. Not sure how much I have to read up about WWII in Italy and the post-war story for exam… I hate studying, memorizing and written exams.. argh :(

NOTE TO SELF:

Bourgeoisie - the rich
Proletariat - the poor

Okay, I think I’m gonna play Need for Speed now.. I finally finished downloading Need for Speed: Most Wanted after months of downloading, lol. I loooooove NFS series ever since I was like 14 or 15. Then I have to do my 3d model, then go to see my dermatologist later today.. my appointment was last week but I forgot and thought it’s tomorrow.. argh. My brain don’t work no more.

Semester 4 Result!

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I got my result!!

Okay.. I’m happy with it yet also disappointed, lol. Happy that I don’t have any ugly C’s..but unhappy that I didn’t get all A’s. Oh well, you can’t be too perfect XD But I did bounce back from my horrible near-fail experience in semester 3 :D Here’s my result:

Presentation Skills : B+
Black & White Photography : B-
Animation 1 : A
Video Production 1 : A-
Script Writing : A-

GPA: 3.48

OMG totally unexpected!

Presentation Skills – Okay, I was hoping for an A for this but I got B+ and Ms Jenny was giving me the result today and I was whining, asking her why she gave me only a B+ and she was like, I should be glad cuz she failed a lot of people..ack. At first she was scaring me when I reached the room, lol.. I thought I did bad and Ms Jenny reminded me that in semester 3 after all the troubles I had, I did promise them I’d bounce back and get at least a 3.50 GPA for the next semester so I was very disappointed I’m only 0.02 points away from getting that. :( :( Only 0.02 points away!! ARRRRGH

Black & White Photography – Hmm Mr Kelvin is extremely nice yet he’s the toughest to please lol Even for last semester, he gave most of us a B.. and he did it again this semester for me.  Oh well. Haha It was fun though doing all those developing black and white photos. I didn’t do well in printing the pics cuz I keep getting bugged by the guys haha.. plus I was rushing cuz I wanted to finish it before 8 PM.. I hate being at college after 6 pm cuz it’s spooky..

Animation 1 – So Mr Terry was right when he told me and Jackie we got A.. :D I was kinda expecting the A anyway cuz I worked so hard to research and do the final project which was the 3D commercial logo animation.. and my hard work has been paid off with that A :D What a relief!

Video Production 1UNEXPECTED! My group did not do well in the creative stage, hell, we didn’t have much to produce during the presentation unlike the other group. I still remember when Eddie said something like we pretty much fucked the presentation/creative stage and on the verge of failing AGAIN.. and our only chance to save us from failing is that we’d do extremely well during production and post-production.. from that point I pretty much said we’re fucked. I thought even if we do good in the final thing, we’d prolly get just B’s or C’s.. but I still worked my ass off just to save me from failing, so that was unexpected.. thanks Eddie XD I saw Andrea’s (she’s in the other group) result, and she got A- too for their redbull ad.

Script Writing – Even more UNEXPECTED! Okay, I did the best I could for this class. I never failed to produce anything Eddie asked us to show.. whether it’s the pitching, the treatment, the draft etc and I was doing well until the final submission day, lol. It’s because the night before I was doing developing photo you see until 8 pm, and I only reached home at 10 pm. Then the next day I had to cut those photos and mounting board and frame them. So I didn’t have time to do the script. So I asked Eddie if I could submit the next day.. he even asked what went wrong cuz I was doing fine before this lol So he gave me until midnight to email him the script or I’d lose marks.. but I procrastinated and stayed in college for my junior’s fundamental of direction final assessment cuz I wanted to see their film.. and I only started writing my script after midnight, after hours of fighting writer’s block lol My brain only works during the night. I finally finished it at 5 am, emailed it to him and later that day went with Jackie and Ito to bind the script and submitted it at 4 pm. Hehe. So the A- was unexpected.. plus I didn’t think I did good anyway, rushing the story and all…plus doing it after midnight and I was sleepy as hell lol. I thought I prolly wrote crap.

Sorry for the long story lol. After I got the result, Ka Mun and Yee Sing came to pick up their result and I ended up staying there and hanging out with them for a while whining and being annoying with our result lol. Ka Mun has so much pressure on her. She got 3.75 GPA and I was like extremely jealous at her but I found out she needs to maintain at least 3.70 GPA every semester or she’ll lose her scholarship. Wow. I could never handle that extreme pressure. Even my PTPTN loan needs just at least 2.0 GPA minimum every semester hehe.

Well overall, I”m still quite happy with my result. I did work extremely hard so yeah. Fuuhh. Just this semester and then I’m free for a 1 1/2 months.. yay.. I so need a vacation during that time. I’ll probably go to somewhere in Malaysia. AirAsia flight is cheap to go to places but airplane is scary. You’d need travel insurance if you travel a lot. Ok, I’m done blogging. lol. I’ll write another blog later about yesterday. I so need to rant.

Having Family

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I was browsing friendster yesterday for random people’s profile.. and I saw quite a number of girls around my age are married and have baby…  now, if you’re a girl, and you’re about to hit 25 and you’re not planning to get married and have a family, then something’s wrong with you lol. Malays in the 50′s or 60′s get married at very young age so like me, I have a huge pressure from my family. I want to have a stable career first then I’d start thinking about having family but everyone around me are expecting me to at least be in a serious relationship and start planning already..oh well.

I feel like an old hag.

And you know, I get jealous at babies and kids nowadays XD They are so little and they have really nice and cozy nursery… big comfy crib… really cute cozy baby bedding… when I was little, I didn’t have all of those.. heck, I don’t even have a cozy house or bedroom now.. O.o; I didn’t have cool toys either.. until I was like about 7 when I started to become a very spoiled brat and created the motto “I get what I want no matter what“..haha :P Of course there was no PS2/PS3, XBox, Wii.. those Nintendo DS, PSP etc..and I only bought my first computer when I was 12 after months of begging, bitching etc Oh speaking of Nintendo DS, I keep seeing people playing it at college..now I want it :( Maybe I’ll get it for myself as Christmas present.. I’m pathetic I know..I buy my own present, lol. That’s cuz nobody would want to give me present :( Before my ex and I would exchange Christmas gift..now.. no one .. in real life I mean.. oh well.

Did I tell you when I was 7 and went to Egypt with my family and relatives, I saw this clown keychain that when you press it, it laughs like a scary clown and I wanted it and mom said no? Then in friggin Mecca I ran away from the mosque where the tour group is praying and got lost? Thank god the tour guide found me… then I threatened mom and she agreed to buy me the keychain and when we went there again, the keychain is sold out??? Haha, I made a big fuss on holy land and god punished me :( But imagine if I got lost, no one found me.. O.O I could be in Mecca right now with some arabic family or worse, I’d be one of those kids on the street begging people for money.. O.o;

Oh mom bought new dining table today! Ahh a furniture…! We planned to buy something below RM200 but I suddenly saw this table that’s exactly what I’ve always wanted, and it’s nicer and it’s love at first sight, and I don’t want my stupid snobby relatives to see cheap dining table and as mentioned, with my motto “I get what I want no matter what“… mom bought that instead! Cost her RM600 o.o; Oh who cares if I have to starve for the next month, lol. I got what I wanted without having to bitch, persuade, argue, force and threaten my mom XD I just made myself sound bad lol. I’m not.. I think :X

Next furniture.. sofa. Whenever that is .. XD

Random Things

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Hmmm….

Monday’s class was looooong… it’s because I haven’t been getting enough sleep but class was quite interesting. We discussed about THE CABINET OF DR. CALIGARI and the German expressionism. I find it all to be very interesting. And apparently Effendy thought I suggested that ‘boring’ movie too, lol. Oh we got back the result of our analysis on the movie and grrrrrrr! I got 9/10. Just one point less from the full mark! Ka Mun got 10/10 and I was sooooooo jealous. I’m hoping today I’d do ok. According to the study guide, today we’ll be watching “The Battleship Potemkin“, another silent movie.

3D is getting more complicated. I spent a whole night last night doing a head model and finally it’s almost completed. This weekend I’ll do the body, and on Monday I”ll show to Mr Terry and see what needs fixing and by next Thursday I have to submit it. I’m soooo glad I don’t have lots of assignment for FILM APPRECIATION class except study about films so I can at least concentrate on 3D. If not I’d be soooo stressed with trying to rush with everything in just 7 weeks.

I planned to do something productive on Tuesday and Wednesday but nope, lol. I ended up doing nothing at home. You know, I can’t wait to work. Ever since I’ve been working part time for college, I’ve changed my mind. I rather be working than studying. It was the opposite before. I’ve been lazy because I had mom and my ex supporting me financially but now I like the freedom of having my own money and spending it because no one can tell me how I should be spending it. But hey, I still LOVE it if somebody would spoil me *winks* I wonder how lots of Malaysians claim they can be millionaire by doing small business on the internet? Mom told me to grab any small business opportunity available on the net (oh trust me, there’s ALOT, it’s ridiculous!) but I don’t trust it :\ I don’t know.. are those people really millionaires and want to “help” other people be millionaires too or just claiming it becuase they have something up their sleeves?

I woke up at 2 am now I can’t go back to sleep. I’m going to watching Battleship Potemkin that I downloaded. lol. I”ll blog about what happened yesterday later today. I”m too tired now.

I’m seriously hoping last semester’s result comes out today.

Adult Diapers

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I’d like to talk about disposable adult diapers. Hey don’t laugh, you might need it when you’re old, lol. I remember when my grandma was sick in 96, I was 12 at that time.. and for sometime my grandma had to wear diaper cuz she had a stroke and couldn’t move  her body at all. And I just remembered when I went back to my hometown couple of weeks ago, I was looking underneath a bed in one of the rooms, and I saw a whole pack of diapers, unused. I wonder why mom haven’t thrown them out yet. I miss my grandma :( She was the best cuz whenever I had a fight with mom, she’d defend me, and then give me money whenever I need them…and lots of it, when mom was being a bitch lol. No wonder I’m such a spoilt brat. Speaking of hometown, I’m going back next week for Eid! Not sure if I should be happy or not – I don’t want people breaking into my house and kill me. Well, if I had stopped updating this blog, you can guess what happened :( Plus this domain expires in November anyway  (OH SHIT, I need to save money to renew) so if it expires and not renewed, I’m pretty much gone already. Oh heaven forbid.

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