I was browsing friendster yesterday for random people’s profile.. and I saw quite a number of girls around my age are married and have baby…  now, if you’re a girl, and you’re about to hit 25 and you’re not planning to get married and have a family, then something’s wrong with you lol. Malays in the 50′s or 60′s get married at very young age so like me, I have a huge pressure from my family. I want to have a stable career first then I’d start thinking about having family but everyone around me are expecting me to at least be in a serious relationship and start planning already..oh well.

I feel like an old hag.

And you know, I get jealous at babies and kids nowadays XD They are so little and they have really nice and cozy nursery… big comfy crib… really cute cozy baby bedding… when I was little, I didn’t have all of those.. heck, I don’t even have a cozy house or bedroom now.. O.o; I didn’t have cool toys either.. until I was like about 7 when I started to become a very spoiled brat and created the motto “I get what I want no matter what“..haha :P Of course there was no PS2/PS3, XBox, Wii.. those Nintendo DS, PSP etc..and I only bought my first computer when I was 12 after months of begging, bitching etc Oh speaking of Nintendo DS, I keep seeing people playing it at college..now I want it :( Maybe I’ll get it for myself as Christmas present.. I’m pathetic I know..I buy my own present, lol. That’s cuz nobody would want to give me present :( Before my ex and I would exchange Christmas gift..now.. no one .. in real life I mean.. oh well.

Did I tell you when I was 7 and went to Egypt with my family and relatives, I saw this clown keychain that when you press it, it laughs like a scary clown and I wanted it and mom said no? Then in friggin Mecca I ran away from the mosque where the tour group is praying and got lost? Thank god the tour guide found me… then I threatened mom and she agreed to buy me the keychain and when we went there again, the keychain is sold out??? Haha, I made a big fuss on holy land and god punished me :( But imagine if I got lost, no one found me.. O.O I could be in Mecca right now with some arabic family or worse, I’d be one of those kids on the street begging people for money.. O.o;

Oh mom bought new dining table today! Ahh a furniture…! We planned to buy something below RM200 but I suddenly saw this table that’s exactly what I’ve always wanted, and it’s nicer and it’s love at first sight, and I don’t want my stupid snobby relatives to see cheap dining table and as mentioned, with my motto “I get what I want no matter what“… mom bought that instead! Cost her RM600 o.o; Oh who cares if I have to starve for the next month, lol. I got what I wanted without having to bitch, persuade, argue, force and threaten my mom XD I just made myself sound bad lol. I’m not.. I think :X

Next furniture.. sofa. Whenever that is .. XD