Seventh Angel [NET]

Today is the last day of Ramadan, tomorrow is Hari Raya/Eid Mubarak already.. time sure flies. 5 more days I’m in Ipoh, then back to college and I haven’t done shit. Haven’t studied, haven’t done my 3d animation assignment, haven’t done my film analysis.. bah. So on tv, there’s a lot of Eid related movies, since the past few days but all of them are sad movies. Sometimes I think Malaysian drama directors they tend to overexaggerate movies to the point that it looks ridiculous. Like this one movie about about a naive girl who got pregnant then the father denies it and the mother bitches cuz they have no proof and they never will.. hello, have they never heard of DNA testing after the baby is born?

Anyways, yesterday I went to break fast with my friend. Then we went shopping. I’ll write a full detail story later. By the way, I asked 2 shops, one at Tesco and one at Jusco on the price of Nintendo DS Lite. I was right. The cheaper one (about RM500-ish) is only the console but the expensive one (about RM800, or USD$230) is inclusive of console (plus the pouch and screen protectors) AND R4. I so want the set with R4 now!

You see, a game would cost me around RM200 a piece, which is fucking insane. Now by having R4, I can just download ROMS on the net and put it in the microSD card and play it and since I usually get bored after a day, this would save me money. Well take it as trying a game demo, if it’s good enough to keep, I’ll buy the original… that way it’s not really piracy, just testing the game as in a demo. So by getting R4, I won’t have to buy the game. Plus of course you can play movies, music etc and add homebrew applications to your DS…so R4 is definitely a must.

If only I have enough money, I’d get it now But have to wait and save up. Plus I still have to survey the price.. some place they’d give better deal.

I want a Nintendo DS Lite!

Yesterday I’ve been searching stuff on Nintendo DS Lite… basically I don’t want it to play games cuz face it, games are fucking expensive. I have a Gameboy Advance and I only have like 2 games on it, lol. Now it’s just sitting collecting dust in my drawer for the past 2 years. Actually I rather have PSP cuz they have much nicer and cooler game… until I saw the kanji learning stuff for DS.

I’ve seen it before, and I don’t know why I’ve been ignoring it. DS is cheaper than an electronic dictionary. It would have been very useful when I was studying Japanese at the Japanese school. I downloaded a DS emulator yesterday and downloaded some studying kanji related titles and it’s fun and I want it. It’s better playing it with DS and its stylus pen cuz I have to learn to write the kanji, instead of using mouse on computer… If only DS titles aren’t so fricken expensive. Plus the console itself is fricken expensive. I want to get it for christmas but there’s like 2 months more, argh There goes my plan to get tv show dvds for christmas Oh well.

Get a pulse oximeter<-here! Well if you use it anyway.. lol

I’m on a week festive break now for the Eid celebration. I’m back in my hometown. You know those fuckers stole my lamps on the gate pillars? I have no ideas what else they could steal now. It’s depressing going home to see an old, empty, abandoned-like house… with stuff that has been stolen. My neighborhood scares me now. I keep thinking someone would break in at night while I sleep and kill me. I rather go to St. Barts villa rentals. They have pools I can dip in… not that I know how to swim. I swear when I start working, I’d have one luxurious vacation before my brain snaps from stress. Not that I’d be enjoying this holiday anyways, I have to clean my place and prepare it for Eid PLUS the overloaded work and assignments and stuff to study that I have to do

One more month. I can handle it.

Today I went to my dermatologist at DERMLAZE (if you don’t know where that is, it’s located in Uptown, I’ll give the address later). Actually, as I’ve mentioned before, my appointment was last week on Tuesday but me, being the dumbass that I am, I forgot and mistook it for yesterday. Lucikly I called a day before. But the girl has been nice about it though so yeah

So this is the second time I”m doing fraxel. Believe it or not, it feels like I’m addicted to it. The more I do it, the more I want it. I felt that way too with pixel laser before even though pixel hurts so much more. I went there at 2 pm-ish, and the procedure is as the usual. Cleanse my face, took painkillers that they gave me (no, I wasn’t fasting) then the girl proceed to put the numbing cream. While waiting I felt so hot that I was sweating, and it felt so long O.o; I was singing along to the soothing love music, and I kept wondering when they’re coming to do the treatment. Then the girl finally came in and said she had to put the cream for over 40 minutes so I’d feel even more numb than the last time. Ahh, no wonder it felt long. I thought they had forgotten about me, lol.

Then the doctor came and did the fraxel. Ouch, even after 40 minutes of putting anesthetic cream on, it still hurt like hell. Mainly because the doc was focusing on my scar on my cheeks, and not the sides. The sides actually have darkened since last time. Then ice pack on my face… the 2nd time hurt even more.. then more ice on my face, ahh the 3rd time didn’t hurt so much… it was more of a prickly feel and kinda ticklish. My face was throbbing though. And that was just it. Went straight home then. I forgot to ask if they have any diet pills. I need some. Badly.

If anyone of you interested in the skin clinic, here’s the address and number to call:

Dermlaze Skin Laser Clinic
75G, Jln SS21/60,
Damansara Utama,
47400 Petaling Jaya,
Selangor.
Tel: +6 03 7710 2295

Okay now I”m gonna go play NFS, then do my 3d model. Have to submit tomorrow, argh.

Wow, I received a comment in a post that was made a year ago, let me quote it:

Hello. I’m sorry but after reading your blog entry u sound like a rather pretentious person. kinda like a kampung girl trying to not to be so kampung-ish.., trying to be the melodramatic urban girl. Maybe you shouldn’t have to try so hard.

That comment made me laugh my ass off. It did offend me to the extreme. I don’t even know who the fuck that person is, and here he/she come to ‘judge’ me by just reading one post. It pisses me of because to me, there’s no worse insult than calling me a ‘kampung’ girl, as in people in those rural area. To Xanaya, for your information, I’m more urban than you are, I’m nicer than you could ever be, I’m more bitchier than you could ever be, I’m crazier than you are, I’m more psychotic than you are. If I see that person in real life, he/she better have some health insurance cuz I’d fucking kill him/her. I despise judgmental person. To me, they’re the worse and the lowest kind that walks the earth and not even worthy of living. Who are they to judge people without even knowing the person? These are the kind that needs to get their ass shoved with dicks and head blown off by a shotgun.

So far, I haven’t been “trying” so hard. I have been ME, MYSELF AND I. Maybe sometimes I tend to over exaggerate my posts when I’m happy, and I can get very verbal when I’m pissed, and that’s just my god given personality. In real life, I’m very down to earth girl, and people see me as the sweetest and friendliest girl ever or so I’ve been told, yet provoke me you’ll see the bitchiest and most evil girl ever. So I better not see this Xanaya person because god knows what I”ll do.

Okay. Thanks. Bye.
Xanaya, get fucked, you need it, thanks

Last Friday, we watched BATTLESHIP POTEMKIN in class… as usual, almost everyone hated the silent film, lol. Early that morning, I watched the movie and did a research for it so I’d be prepared for class and at first, I didn’t think I’d like the movie cuz it’s realated to battles, politics etc but turns out I liked it. It’s quite disturbing though, the part of Odessa Steps.. I don’t know, there’s something about it that disturbs me. Hated the ending though. I was like EH? Plus the choppy editing and Eisenstein’s belief in non-continuity makes the movie a bit confusing but I do like movie that is open for interpretation. So today in class we discussed Soviet Montage and felt like history class cuz we have to know about Tsar and the Tsarist regime and all. Same with before when we learn about German expressionism. My movie analysis score was 8/10 .. blah, a point lower than the first one for Dr. Caligari but Ms Shana did say I have the best interpretation of an image, lol. No comment.

I finally finished downloading LADRI DI BICICLETTE (The bicycle thief/thieves) which is supposed to be shown this friday in class.. wow… very touching and depressing movie I loved it though. You can see a very strong bond of father and son in it… and I love watching movies with realism, as in I could really see what Rome was like in the 1940′s and the environment of the post-war era. Heh, never thought I could be watching movements type movies and actually liking it. But next week is holiday (i hope for monday class too) so we’d be studying about Italian Neo-realism after Eid celebration. I’ve been wikipedia’ing about neo-realism and it’s much more interesting than soviet montage. Not sure how much I have to read up about WWII in Italy and the post-war story for exam… I hate studying, memorizing and written exams.. argh

NOTE TO SELF:

Bourgeoisie - the rich
Proletariat - the poor

Okay, I think I’m gonna play Need for Speed now.. I finally finished downloading Need for Speed: Most Wanted after months of downloading, lol. I loooooove NFS series ever since I was like 14 or 15. Then I have to do my 3d model, then go to see my dermatologist later today.. my appointment was last week but I forgot and thought it’s tomorrow.. argh. My brain don’t work no more.

I got my result!!

Okay.. I’m happy with it yet also disappointed, lol. Happy that I don’t have any ugly C’s..but unhappy that I didn’t get all A’s. Oh well, you can’t be too perfect But I did bounce back from my horrible near-fail experience in semester 3 Here’s my result:

Presentation Skills : B+
Black & White Photography : B-
Animation 1 : A
Video Production 1 : A-
Script Writing : A-

GPA: 3.48

OMG totally unexpected!

Presentation Skills – Okay, I was hoping for an A for this but I got B+ and Ms Jenny was giving me the result today and I was whining, asking her why she gave me only a B+ and she was like, I should be glad cuz she failed a lot of people..ack. At first she was scaring me when I reached the room, lol.. I thought I did bad and Ms Jenny reminded me that in semester 3 after all the troubles I had, I did promise them I’d bounce back and get at least a 3.50 GPA for the next semester so I was very disappointed I’m only 0.02 points away from getting that. :( Only 0.02 points away!! ARRRRGH

Black & White Photography – Hmm Mr Kelvin is extremely nice yet he’s the toughest to please lol Even for last semester, he gave most of us a B.. and he did it again this semester for me.  Oh well. Haha It was fun though doing all those developing black and white photos. I didn’t do well in printing the pics cuz I keep getting bugged by the guys haha.. plus I was rushing cuz I wanted to finish it before 8 PM.. I hate being at college after 6 pm cuz it’s spooky..

Animation 1 – So Mr Terry was right when he told me and Jackie we got A.. I was kinda expecting the A anyway cuz I worked so hard to research and do the final project which was the 3D commercial logo animation.. and my hard work has been paid off with that A What a relief!

Video Production 1 – UNEXPECTED! My group did not do well in the creative stage, hell, we didn’t have much to produce during the presentation unlike the other group. I still remember when Eddie said something like we pretty much fucked the presentation/creative stage and on the verge of failing AGAIN.. and our only chance to save us from failing is that we’d do extremely well during production and post-production.. from that point I pretty much said we’re fucked. I thought even if we do good in the final thing, we’d prolly get just B’s or C’s.. but I still worked my ass off just to save me from failing, so that was unexpected.. thanks Eddie I saw Andrea’s (she’s in the other group) result, and she got A- too for their redbull ad.

Script Writing – Even more UNEXPECTED! Okay, I did the best I could for this class. I never failed to produce anything Eddie asked us to show.. whether it’s the pitching, the treatment, the draft etc and I was doing well until the final submission day, lol. It’s because the night before I was doing developing photo you see until 8 pm, and I only reached home at 10 pm. Then the next day I had to cut those photos and mounting board and frame them. So I didn’t have time to do the script. So I asked Eddie if I could submit the next day.. he even asked what went wrong cuz I was doing fine before this lol So he gave me until midnight to email him the script or I’d lose marks.. but I procrastinated and stayed in college for my junior’s fundamental of direction final assessment cuz I wanted to see their film.. and I only started writing my script after midnight, after hours of fighting writer’s block lol My brain only works during the night. I finally finished it at 5 am, emailed it to him and later that day went with Jackie and Ito to bind the script and submitted it at 4 pm. Hehe. So the A- was unexpected.. plus I didn’t think I did good anyway, rushing the story and all…plus doing it after midnight and I was sleepy as hell lol. I thought I prolly wrote crap.

Sorry for the long story lol. After I got the result, Ka Mun and Yee Sing came to pick up their result and I ended up staying there and hanging out with them for a while whining and being annoying with our result lol. Ka Mun has so much pressure on her. She got 3.75 GPA and I was like extremely jealous at her but I found out she needs to maintain at least 3.70 GPA every semester or she’ll lose her scholarship. Wow. I could never handle that extreme pressure. Even my PTPTN loan needs just at least 2.0 GPA minimum every semester hehe.

Well overall, I”m still quite happy with my result. I did work extremely hard so yeah. Fuuhh. Just this semester and then I’m free for a 1 1/2 months.. yay.. I so need a vacation during that time. I’ll probably go to somewhere in Malaysia. AirAsia flight is cheap to go to places but airplane is scary. You’d need travel insurance if you travel a lot. Ok, I’m done blogging. lol. I’ll write another blog later about yesterday. I so need to rant.

I was browsing friendster yesterday for random people’s profile.. and I saw quite a number of girls around my age are married and have baby…  now, if you’re a girl, and you’re about to hit 25 and you’re not planning to get married and have a family, then something’s wrong with you lol. Malays in the 50′s or 60′s get married at very young age so like me, I have a huge pressure from my family. I want to have a stable career first then I’d start thinking about having family but everyone around me are expecting me to at least be in a serious relationship and start planning already..oh well.

I feel like an old hag.

And you know, I get jealous at babies and kids nowadays They are so little and they have really nice and cozy nursery… big comfy crib… really cute cozy baby bedding… when I was little, I didn’t have all of those.. heck, I don’t even have a cozy house or bedroom now.. O.o; I didn’t have cool toys either.. until I was like about 7 when I started to become a very spoiled brat and created the motto “I get what I want no matter what“..haha :P Of course there was no PS2/PS3, XBox, Wii.. those Nintendo DS, PSP etc..and I only bought my first computer when I was 12 after months of begging, bitching etc Oh speaking of Nintendo DS, I keep seeing people playing it at college..now I want it Maybe I’ll get it for myself as Christmas present.. I’m pathetic I know..I buy my own present, lol. That’s cuz nobody would want to give me present Before my ex and I would exchange Christmas gift..now.. no one .. in real life I mean.. oh well.

Did I tell you when I was 7 and went to Egypt with my family and relatives, I saw this clown keychain that when you press it, it laughs like a scary clown and I wanted it and mom said no? Then in friggin Mecca I ran away from the mosque where the tour group is praying and got lost? Thank god the tour guide found me… then I threatened mom and she agreed to buy me the keychain and when we went there again, the keychain is sold out??? Haha, I made a big fuss on holy land and god punished me But imagine if I got lost, no one found me.. O.O I could be in Mecca right now with some arabic family or worse, I’d be one of those kids on the street begging people for money.. O.o;

Oh mom bought new dining table today! Ahh a furniture…! We planned to buy something below RM200 but I suddenly saw this table that’s exactly what I’ve always wanted, and it’s nicer and it’s love at first sight, and I don’t want my stupid snobby relatives to see cheap dining table and as mentioned, with my motto “I get what I want no matter what“… mom bought that instead! Cost her RM600 o.o; Oh who cares if I have to starve for the next month, lol. I got what I wanted without having to bitch, persuade, argue, force and threaten my mom I just made myself sound bad lol. I’m not.. I think :X

Next furniture.. sofa. Whenever that is ..

Hmmm….

Monday’s class was looooong… it’s because I haven’t been getting enough sleep but class was quite interesting. We discussed about THE CABINET OF DR. CALIGARI and the German expressionism. I find it all to be very interesting. And apparently Effendy thought I suggested that ‘boring’ movie too, lol. Oh we got back the result of our analysis on the movie and grrrrrrr! I got 9/10. Just one point less from the full mark! Ka Mun got 10/10 and I was sooooooo jealous. I’m hoping today I’d do ok. According to the study guide, today we’ll be watching “The Battleship Potemkin“, another silent movie.

3D is getting more complicated. I spent a whole night last night doing a head model and finally it’s almost completed. This weekend I’ll do the body, and on Monday I”ll show to Mr Terry and see what needs fixing and by next Thursday I have to submit it. I’m soooo glad I don’t have lots of assignment for FILM APPRECIATION class except study about films so I can at least concentrate on 3D. If not I’d be soooo stressed with trying to rush with everything in just 7 weeks.

I planned to do something productive on Tuesday and Wednesday but nope, lol. I ended up doing nothing at home. You know, I can’t wait to work. Ever since I’ve been working part time for college, I’ve changed my mind. I rather be working than studying. It was the opposite before. I’ve been lazy because I had mom and my ex supporting me financially but now I like the freedom of having my own money and spending it because no one can tell me how I should be spending it. But hey, I still LOVE it if somebody would spoil me *winks* I wonder how lots of Malaysians claim they can be millionaire by doing small business on the internet? Mom told me to grab any small business opportunity available on the net (oh trust me, there’s ALOT, it’s ridiculous!) but I don’t trust it :\ I don’t know.. are those people really millionaires and want to “help” other people be millionaires too or just claiming it becuase they have something up their sleeves?

I woke up at 2 am now I can’t go back to sleep. I’m going to watching Battleship Potemkin that I downloaded. lol. I”ll blog about what happened yesterday later today. I”m too tired now.

I’m seriously hoping last semester’s result comes out today.

I’d like to talk about disposable adult diapers. Hey don’t laugh, you might need it when you’re old, lol. I remember when my grandma was sick in 96, I was 12 at that time.. and for sometime my grandma had to wear diaper cuz she had a stroke and couldn’t move  her body at all. And I just remembered when I went back to my hometown couple of weeks ago, I was looking underneath a bed in one of the rooms, and I saw a whole pack of diapers, unused. I wonder why mom haven’t thrown them out yet. I miss my grandma She was the best cuz whenever I had a fight with mom, she’d defend me, and then give me money whenever I need them…and lots of it, when mom was being a bitch lol. No wonder I’m such a spoilt brat. Speaking of hometown, I’m going back next week for Eid! Not sure if I should be happy or not – I don’t want people breaking into my house and kill me. Well, if I had stopped updating this blog, you can guess what happened Plus this domain expires in November anyway  (OH SHIT, I need to save money to renew) so if it expires and not renewed, I’m pretty much gone already. Oh heaven forbid.