So much to do, so little time.

Blah, it’s Monday already. I haven’t been enjoying my holiday, or relaxing as I planned to do. I’m even stressful now o.O; Here’s a to-do for college stuff list for this one week holiday, according to classes;

PRESENTATION SKILLS
- Prepare a presentation with Dura. I haven’t seen her online so I”m quite eh…

BLACK&WHITE PHOTOGRAPHY
- Buy a film camera or at least try to get the old one fixed
- Take black & white photos

VIDEO PRODUCTION 1
- Think of ideas for the Levi’s TV commercial

SCRIPTWRITING
- Think of ideas, plot/storyline, characters for my movie screenplay
- Write a treatment for it … HANDWRITTEN

ANIMATION 1
- Buy clay
- Design an original character’s head in 4 angles and write a description of it
- Sculpt the character’s head using clay

Oh and I also have to remember to buy 3Ds Max software.
Yesterday morning I sent mom to some meeting thing, then we went to the mall. We were early there and I was so hungry so we decided to eat the early lunch. OMG. Never eat at Greentown Mall’s foodcourt! THERE WERE LITTLE COCKROACHES EVERYWHERE! I so lost my appetite.. it was like crawling on the chairs and stuff… SO FUCKING UNHYGENIC! I was so fucking pissed. I even saw one crawling near the drink machine. WTF? And the tables were NOT cleaned.. I complaint to the cleaner but she was dumb. And everyone else is looking ok with it. WTF? I do not think it’s ok.. it means that the place is dirty and unhygenic… I’m complaining!

Anyways. Nothing much happened after that. Just bought stuff and went back. Mom bought me skincare products. One of them is AG2000. It’s a skin revitalising serum, plus sunscreen + makeup base with SPF30. Cost me like $200++ . Then I bought Nichy’s thermal wasser spray…and another make up base. Then new body shower gel and new shampoo.

I think I’m going to buy my stuff today. And I’m hungry. Hmm.

I’m back in my hometown in Ipoh.

Yesterday I went to college at 12 but nobody was there except for Jackie and he didn’t wanna go look for Mr Eddie yet, and all the idea list is with Nesh so I ended up going back after half and hour. Then I went to 2 spa to ask for the price near my college, then went to 1Utama.

Nothing much interesting happened though. I stayed up all night and finally left KL at 6-ish am after we spent like 20  mins or so searching for cats cuz I had food for it but it disappeared :( Then after quite a long delay at the gas station etc and got lost lol we left KL at 8-ish am.

OMG. I wanted McDonald’s breakfast before we go but mom wouldn’t let me at first…but after a while she let me but I was being a stubborn brat lol So we stopped at the rest area in Tapah highway and OH MY GOD. It was fucking crowded! No place to sit either… so we had to stand there like idiots trying to wait for a seat and actually fight for it. There was this nice lady who gave us seat cuz she was about to be done. I talked to her for a bit and she said the reason why is so fucking crowded is because of new university intake.. all the families is sending their son or daughter to the university today. No wonder. Took a long time to order food but when we finally got one, there was this HUGE (like 10 of them) indian muslim family that suddenly put all of their drinks and food on our table. Then crowded around our table, talking in indian… omg I was SOOOO FUCKING PISSED! I don’t mind sharing but HEY at least let me know if you want to share! Not just suddenly invading our table like we were invisible, that was SO FUCKING RUDE! I kept glaring at mom and with a mad/pissy face. I was so tempted to bitch! OMG. You have no idea.

But there was another lady who sat there but she told us that she’s sitting there because of the lack of table so I smiled and said ok. She sat at the indian dude’s place so HA HA HA. Try to act all snotty, now somebody else stole his seat. Anyways.

Finally reached Ipoh at 10-ish am. So far so good, nothing bad happened. Net is working ok. Zorror (Mika’s daughter) is alive and well and apparently pregnant. My house is not empty (means no 2nd break in or anything). So yeah, so far it’s ok. And I found my old nes cartridge! I though the robber took it because they stole my old nes console but luckily it was in drawer because I soooooooo wanted to play the game that I used to play but couldn’t remember the name! FINALLY, I found the name is HI NO TORI – HOUOU HEN – GAOU NO BOUKEN. Yay!!! My life is complete now. Finally I found out the name. It was killing me! So I’ve downloaded it off the net.

This blog is getting too long, but I want to write more. I’ll write later. I have SO MANY things to do here. And I’ve discussed with mom that we’re going to find a way for me to lose weight. I want to be skinny back lol So I’ll do a research on weight loss treatment or program. Going to see my dermatologist doc while I’m here so going to ask if I could get my diet pills that I used to take. And maybe do some treatment for my face or something…cuz my face looks like a zombie due to lack of sleep and dehydration and stress and lack of nutrients. lol.

I had a very long day.

Yesterday, I went to bed at 6 am because I couldn’t sleep..and woke up at 9-ish am..got ready, went to college to have group discussion with Nesh, Ito, and Jackie. The rest? MIA (missing in action). Then until lunch time we were joined by Sherra, Farah, Ren and Ghan and at some point Ren’s bf if I’m not mistaken. We just hung out until it was 2 pm, and so Ito and I went to our Animation 1 class.

I fell asleep o.O; Like fell asleep with opened eyes thing, lol. Seriously. I was soooo sleepy and Mr Terry was just explaining about 3Ds Max program.. I’ve always wanted to know more about the program but god damnit, should have gotten some sleep! But anyways, after that, we started learning and using the program, FINALLY!! We-Are-Learning-3D! YAY!! Me likes, me likes.

I remember they told us we might be learning Lightwave but I’m so glad they decided on 3Ds Max instead XD And I made my first chair! LOL. I’m proud of it, cuz it’s like my very first thing that I made. Haha. Anyways, it’s similar to Second Life, and I have the basic building skill in Second Life so it’s not THAT complicated to me so far. Here’s the picture of my first chair and first chair set :D

So it started out with this chair XD  Don’t ask me why I picked green color cuz I don’t even know it myself..I don’t even like green that much o.O;

And here’s my first set :D Mr Terry showed us some extra tips on how to make the shadow and coloring background thing. :)

I’m on a break! Well technically it starts next week but since I don’t have class anymore so my break starts now..however I do have group discussion later today. Then Saturday I’m going back to my hometown. Not really looking forward to it cuz it brings back painful memories but I wanna go back and get some stuff done. I miss my cat Mika :( Like so damn much :( I went back a day too late.. or else she might have been alive still.. And I went back because of her so imagine the pain of seeing her laying down in front of my gate DEAD… like a final farewell thing… :( Somebody hug me now :((( I’m very sad.

Anyways.

I’m going to play some games now..hopefully I can fall back asleep. HOPEFULLY my hometown will have net :(

I managed to finish the proposal for my group. I stayed up until 4 am because I didn’t know what everyone’s part is about so I had to do research and then look for infos because they didn’t give me their infos except for Nesh and Jackie.

I woke up late yesterday so I went to class very late >.< Luckily it’s just Black & White photography and I already did my assignment last week. But guess what? You know how I always complaint about our college’s parking spots? Guess what… yesterday when I went there… it was FULL again! And this time OUTSIDE too! Luckily there was like 2 spots left at the hostel area … but omg. See? Inside is usually full in morning and after lunch hour. Now outside too… we have to park at the other side of college (near cafe area)..but..what if that’s full too in the future? Where are we going to park our cars???? Seriously, I worry about that because one side is the Sri KDU school, the other side is the hospital, opposite is the construction works for high class condo… so where else to park when it’s full??

Me, Kathy and Ka Mun left the class early. Then I took back my color & form sketch book, and my eggs basket that I did in semester 1 and my still life painting with pastel colors! Then we went to fill examination form, then I went to bursary to fill up my PTPTN loan offer letter, yay. Then It was still 11 am so I decided to go to cafe to eat lunch alone but on the way I met with Alin so we ate lunch together.

At 12 pm I messaged everyone to have a meet up.. Nesh was not at college yet, Jackie was out with his friends for lunch.. Dura, Lili are sick so they’re not coming, Ito didn’t do so I didn’t want to stay at college long so I went back home.

Class was fun tho, even though we’re missing half of our group members. Mr Eddie knows my group is a bit problematic.. lol it’s ok, I’m sacrificing myself. He’s right, I have to gain back my reputation after my fuck-up last sem. We did mindmapping yesterday. It was hilarious because we came out with really stupid stuff..and dirty.. haha esp. Jackie who came out with things like hentai, rape, and gangbang.. other group is no difference too…they wrote gangbus.com, LOL. Busted.

Today I was supposed to work but I got too tired, I couldn’t get up. I’m hating myself though because I need money. I’m interested in doing those things like e-commerce thing that everyone’s talking about that turned people into millionaires but I don’t know what to sell lol. I just found out about authorize.net for credit card payment thing to put in your business site, but I lack time to set up anything. I do need more money however. Working while studying is not good for me…have to find some other way.

I just configured this blog thing in Microsoft Word so I’m just testing this post. If this shows up, YAY it worked.

What did I tell you, huh? That my Video Production 1 group is problematic. Very problematic at this stage. And mind you, this is the only first stage.. which is pre-production. There’s production and post-production. Lord, help me.

Nobody has done their part for the proposal. So I’m like eh? Our producer just had something suddenly came up…now it’s up to me to do EVERYTHING. Yes, for everyone’s parts. Oh well. What can I say. Bitching will only make things worse. All the stress, tension, depression won’t be worth it. I’ll be academically screwed which is SO NOT WORTH IT too. I rather keep quiet now, do everything, don’t complaint and finish the work and try my best because no, this shit ain’t worth it. My grade is more important. As usual, if everybody else don’t care about their grades, feel free to fail but not me. I’ve experienced the terror of being on the brink of failing last semester, it nearly killed me so no more of that. Grades too important. Yes, sir.

I’m skipping class today and the PTPTN briefing because not only I don’t feel well, but my whole body is aching… you have no idea how sore my feet is. I can barely walk. It’s from a total of 15 hours of non-stop standing and walking in the weekend. Oh well, what can I do… I need extra money to spend. I’ve already spent RM$300 of my saving this past 2 weeks.. RM$500+ if including mom’s money, lol.

Anyways, this is to cheer me up. I’m posting another video and lyrics. This is by SLIPKNOT! I remember when my furcadia bf/online bf from the game furcadia back in 2001 introduced me to this band. He introduced me to the song “Wait and Bleed” and it instantly made me fall in love with this band. So far I’ve watched only that Wait & Bleed video, but not others… thanks to youtube, yesterday I finally saw the video to my favorite song, SPIT IT OUT.

They mocked THE SHINING! Haha. That’s hilarious. Especially when they put Joey Jordison in the tricyle cuz he’s the smallest and shortest in the band… Believe it or not, I’ve memorized the lyrics to this song lol years ago. It’s a tricky song cuz Corey sings it fast and like non-stop… it’s a good tongue-twister for me. Anyways, here’s my favorite song by Slipknot, SPIT IT OUT!

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SPIT IT OUT BY SLIPKNOT

Did you never gave a damn in the first place,
Maybe it’s time you had the tables turned
‘Cause in the interest of all involved I got the problem solved
And the verdict is guilty…

…MAN NEARLY KILLED ME
Steppin’ where you fear to tread
Stop, drop and roll
You were dead from the git-go!
Big motherfucker, stupid cocksucker
If you’re scared of me now? Then you’re dumber than I thought
Always is, and never was
Foundation made of piss and vinegar
Step up to me, I’ll smear ya
Think I fear ya? Bullshit!
Just another dumb punk chompin’ at this tit
Is there any way to break through the noise?
Was it something that I said that got you bent?
It’s gotta be that way if you want it
Sanity, literal profanity hit me!

Spit it out
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out (x2)

Maybe it’s the way you gotta spread a lotta rumor fodder
Keepin’ all your little spies and leaving when you realize
Step up, fairy
I guess it’s time to bury your ass with the chrome
Straight to the dome
You heard me right, bitch, I didn’t stutter
And if you know what’s good, just shut up and beg, brother
Backstab – don’t you know who you’re dissin’?
Side swipe,we know the Ass that your kissin’
Bigity-biggidy bitch boy, halfway hauser
Don’t hear shit cuz I keep gettin’ louder
Come on, and get a face full ‘o tatic
Lipping off hard, going home in a basket
You got no pull, no power, no nothin
Now you start shit?
Well, ain’t that something?
Payoffs don’t protect, and you can hide if you want
But I’ll find you, comin’ up behind you!

Spit it out
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out (x2)

‘Bout time I set this record straight
Cuz all the needlenose punchin’ is making me irate
Sick o’ my bitchin’ fallin’ on deaf ears
Where you gonna be in the next five years?
The crew and all the fools, and all the politix
Get your lips ready, gonna gag, gonna make you sick
You got dick when they passed out the good stuff
BAM!
Are you sick of me?
Good enough, had enough!

Fuck me! I’m all out of enemies! (x8)

Spit it out
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out (x2)

Spit! (x4)
Spit… it out!

OMG I’m like so friggin exhausted from working. Full detailed blog coming as soon as I’m not so dead anymore and not so busy. I feel dead-er than the rotten corpse buried in someone’s yard somewhere.

Anyways, thought I’d post a lyric. I heard this song a couple of days ago, now I can’t get it out of my head. It’s an extremely HAWT song, so it’s my new turn on song.. that turns me on BADLY lol. So what’s the song about? If it’s not obvious to you already, it’s about suicide. And the lyrics is like about suicide + devil = hell. Do the math. The video is extremely hot… suicide + blood x hawt song = TANY GO CRAZY! David Draiman is so hawt..that evil look he did..omg…his voice is so hawt… and his chuckling at the beginning..omg.. major meltdown! *Tany melts into goo* Should I even mention the guitar solo? Oh. My. Gawd. Ok enough talking, time for video and lyrics…ENJOY! Going to download the album.

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INSIDE THE FIRE

by Disturbed

Ah ah ah ah ah!!

Ooh, Devon
Won’t go to heaven
She’s just another lost soul, about to be mine again
Leave her
we will receive her
It is beyond your control
will you ever meet again

Devon
one of eleven
Who had been rendered unwhole
As a little child,
she was taken
and then forsaken
you will remember it all
Let it fill your mind again

Devon lies beyond this portal
take the word of one immortal

Give your soul to me
For eternity
release your life
to begin another time with her
End your grief with me
there’s another way
release your life
take your place inside the fire with her

Sever, Now and forever
you’re just another lost soul
about to be mine again
see her? you’ll never free her
you must surrender it all
If you’d like to meet again

Fire, for your desire
As she begins to turn cold
for the final time
you will shiver, till you deliver
you will remember it all
Let it fill your mind again

Devon lies beyond this portal
take the word of one immortal

[Chours]

[solo] “Take me away, yeah”

[Chours]

Ooh, Devon
one of eleven
Who had been rendered unwhole.
As a little child
she was taken,
and then forsaken
you will remember it all
Let it fill your mind again

Burn…

Hmmmm….
I sense that semester 3 incident is about to repeat.
My group for my Video Production class is problematic. I’m not repeating my mistakes like last semester by naming and bitching about people behind their back openly in my blog to protect their privacy. I might blog about it in my livejournal privately if I feel like it.

But our group…blah… last presentation sucked donkey’s arse. Seriously. Everyone wasn’t serious about it and when Ms Jenny suddenly turned up during the presentation, boy, did that surprise us all. Plus, we misunderstood the assignment which made things worse. We wasn’t fully prepared either. That presentation made me upset for one night. It’s been hard trying to get everyone together. So far I’m the one doing the messaging to everyone asking this and that. Plus, almost everyone has been sick or still am sick. Blah. Hope the production stage won’t have too much problems. I seriously hope last semester’s incident won’t happen again :( It caused me too much emotional pain and academically screwed.

But Wednesday I had a good long talk with Halili… 3 hours we sat in the car park talking about stuff. lol. Making me miss Sharina, my bitching buddy hehe.

Animation 1 class yesterday was a bit boring but interesting. We’re doing clay modeling for our assignment.. that should be fun! I don’t know where to get cheap clay though here.. I know there are some stationery and bookstores that I always go to, but they have only art stuff, or books/magazines or office supplies. I’ll get it when I go back to Ipoh. But next week we’re learning 3Ds Max, YAY.

We had group discussion meeting today. It was short and just blah lol. But I got my cheque for my work during college’s open day last month, YAY. And today’s also my payday for my blog stuff… so far I already have enough to buy a monitor but I want the good and expensive one so have to save up a little bit more. Why expensive one? I’ve always told (my ex) that when it comes to gadgets and electronics stuff, I always go for the good one. Either have a good, expensive one or none at all, that’s my motto. Because If I buy a cheap monitor, it’s half the price of the one I want, but it’s not good.. I need it for doing graphics, editing and animation. So when i do have the money and want to buy a good one, what am I gonna do with the cheap one? Throw it away? That’s a waste of money, right? So that’s why I say, just buy a good one so you don’t waste money. Oh and second hand/used stuff is a definite NO-NO for me. Don’t even suggest that to me lol.

I’m working tomorrow for college for education fair at midvalley megamall… YAY. Money. :D I have to sleep early today. Blah. I was just thinking about sleeping in this weekend. lol. Looks like I have to wait another because the week after next, ONE WEEK BREAK! HALLELUJAH!

PS: I’m working on new photoblog (portfolio). Coming soon!

Almost 5 am, screw this I’m going to bed. My brain hurts too much to read more on the murder lol.
YAY I finally finished download THE ODYSSEY tv series off youtube… the complete 3 seasons.. I’ve been waiting for ages to watch it again since my vhs tapes are barely usable. Me happy :D Going to watch them tomorrow. Right now I need some sleep.

My brain is overloaded with infos right which I probably will forget when I wake. I hope I don’t. I’m getting stressed again. Want a vacation badly.. out of Malaysia. Just to relax and get away from things. Outer Banks rentals has nice properties for rentals.. I’d own one as my vacation house… someday. Yes, someday I believe. Someday when money is not going to be a problem for me.

I feel a migraine is coming.

*cracks back*

Taking a break again from doing research so I thought I’d blog. I have decided that for presentation I’m not presenting on topic about ghost, but the DeFeo murder. I’ve suddenly gotten re-obsessed about the case again. I don’t know why but every time I read about the murder, I get sudden chills. Mind you, I don’t get scared easily so that’s saying something. I don’t know what about the murder that gives me the chill… is it because how a family is murdered in one night? Or is it because of the (apparently fake) supernatural experiences of the Lutzes family? Whatever it is, it managed to creep me out. Even  Charles Manson murder don’t creep me out that much.

I think it’s the house. That creepy 112 Ocean Avenue house.

Ronald Defeo Jr is seriously one fucked up motherfucker. lol.
My brain hurts. At least I’m not reading about maths to become a businesswoman or studying science to be working in clinical laboratory service. That would seriously hurt my brain cuz I’m not that smart lol.

Ok, now back to work for a bit. When i’m about to go to sleep I’ll do one last blog.