What is PTPTN? PTPTN is the student loan that I need to fund my studies.

My experience with PTPTN application has NOT been satisfying. Here’s my story. I was supposed to apply for the loan since I first enrolled which was July 2007 but then I was told my course does NOT have the code yet but we can wait for the online application. Ok. Fine. I waited and waited. They said they’d call when the code is ready.. I waited and waited. I asked them again but they said no, not ready until online application has been canceled and back to the form which we would have to buy RM5.

I remember going to the briefing, then I was yet once again told my course does NOT have the code. I remember asking my faculty lecturer about the form, she said the form is not likely to change and has not changed for years… so I should fill it up and keep it…. nope, she was wrong.

It changed.

That was RM5 gone down the drain.

So few months ago I asked the people in charge of PTPTN and said I’m from July intake, 2 semesters gone already.. they said if I apply at that moment they won’t fund the first semester so I was like WHAT. THE. FUCK. But they said they would try to help and I don’t have to worry.

Then last month I asked again, bought the new form ..fucking Rm5 and asked the new guy in charge whose name I won’t mention here. Fuck. He said the course code has been ready for ages. I’m wrong. I should admit I’m wrong for not asking earlier. The old person in charge was wrong. So i said FINE. I”M WRONG. I didn’t want to argue with him. My mistake for not bugging them a lot. So I proceed to fill in the form ON THAT DAY. That was 2 weeks ago.

ON THAT DAY, I quickly filled the SSPN form and rushed back home to fill in the form. Then rushed to the CIMB bank. Opened up account with much difficulties, and suddenly the PTPTN guy from college called and said HE FORGOT TO PHOTOCOPY MY IC. Wtf. So I’d have to redo the SSPN account again… turned out that CIMB bank branch could not accept the individual SSPN… so then I rushed to Bank Rakyat. Luckily they accepted it.. then rushed to find stamp but no luck. Photocopied other documents, sent mom home and rushed to the college in hope to submit the form before 3 pm. I was relieved I had it all done… mind you I was already an hour late for class.

GUESS WHAT?

He checked my document, and turned out I’d need commissioner for oaths letter. WHAT THE FUCKING HELL? All that troubles for nothing??? Why the fuck didn’t he tell me earlier? And no he DID NOT admit his mistake, he did NOT apologize. So I couldn’t submit on that day.. and I swear he told me the due date was the 28th but yesterday I checked, it was due yesterday. Fuck.

So while all other applicants crowding the counter, I filled in the rest of the form and tried to submit. Guess what? My IC is supposed to be photocopied in A4 size. 2 weeks ago, I asked him to check all the documents to see if I need to add or change… he said NO. Now the IC is wrong.. I told him he didn’t tell and he got all pissy and said “DON’T GIVE EXCUSE. ADMIT YOU’RE WRONG“. Arse. I’ve been told I don’t admit my mistakes, I accepted that and am trying to change but I WILL NOT admit things that I know for the fact that I am right! And that guy clearly did NOT tell me earlier when I asked him to check, and he said everything is ok, just the letter left, and I have to admit my mistake?? Is that my mistake?? FUCK THAT.

After all the bla bla bla problems … he asked me what year I am.. I said I dunno.. I’m from July intake.. he said UH OH…….. and I was like OH SHIT WHAT NOW?…….. then he remembered my name and was again almost pissy said “OH WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME WHO YOU ARE! GEEZ!!!”

O.o;;;

Uh……….. what. the. fuck??

Am I supposed to scream my name?

My fucking name is written on the form which he checked. He even photocopied my IC TWICE! How the fuck was I supposed to know he didn’t recognize my face when I thought he did??? He could have seen my name so many time yet he got all pissy at me???

Fuck that ok. PTPTN management was the worse in my college. Not only was he rude to me (the way he acted), he was not that efficient.

That was my PTPTN journey to hell. It has not been fun.

You know, as you get older, you get many chances of diseases. One of the common one is heart attack, right? I have seen or heard so many people who just suddenly die because a sudden heart attack. I’m not sure about you, but for me I barely know anything about heart disease or anything heart related problem.

There is this site called Heart Library where it has a video hosted by Dr. Charles that explains to you on heart diseases. I’ve only seen one video, which is the cardiac arrest and it’s very informative. It has more on the medical side with details on the heart and the disease but it’s very useful. If you have a family member with a heart disease, or at risk to have one, do check out the site to get yourself more information on heart diseases before it’s too late.

Fuck, another hot song by a hot band.
I saw this video on Channel V last night, and I fell in love with the song instantly. Now it’s stuck in my head. The video is absolutely hot because:

1. Hot singer
2. Hot emo guitarists
3. Hot emo drummer
4. GUITAR ACTION!!! <333333

I’m a sucker for guitarists, lol. I so wish I can play guitar.  I’ve never been an Avenged Sevenfold fan, and I’ve only seen the singer in Good Charlotte’s video and that’s how I know Avenged Sevenfold, but today I downloaded their album and it rocks. Their album rocks. I love Avenged Sevenfold now. So here’s the song Afterlife, my new obsession, and the lyrics (lyrics don’t match with videos though).

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AVENGED SEVENFOLD – AFTERLIFE

Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you’ve seen
so unsure but it seems, ’cause we’ve been waiting for you
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste
of your afterlife here so stay, you’ll be back here soon anyway

I see a distant light, but girl this can’t be right
Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be
Arrived too early

And when I think of all the places I just don’t belong
I’ve come to grips with life and realize this is going too far

I don’t belong here, we gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife

’Cause this time I’m right to move on and on, far away from here

A place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rain
Can leave this place but refrain, ’cause we’ve been waiting for you
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste
of your afterlife here so stay, you’ll be back here soon anyway

This peace on earth’s not right (with my back against the wall)
No pain or sign of time (I’m much too young to fall)
So out of place don’t wanna stay, I feel wrong and that’s my sign
I’ve made up my mind

Gave me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye
Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life

I don’t belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I’m right to move on and on, far away from here
Got nothing against you and surely I’ll miss you
This place full of peace and light, and I’d hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right

Loved ones back home all crying ’cause they’re already missing me
I pray by the grace of God that there’s somebody listening
Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be
(I am unbroken; I’m choking on this ecstasy)
Oh Lord I’ll try so hard but you gotta let go of me
(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)

I don’t belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I’m right to move on and on, far away from here
Got nothing against you and surely I’ll miss you
This place full of peace and light, and I’d hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right

Fuck, I love this song. Welcome back Linkin Park. This is my current obsession. I heard it on the radio few times before and it got stuck in my head. The reason I’ve been a huge fan of Linkin Park is because of their ‘hardcore’ songs… their songs in the early days totally rocked…but lately they released like a slow, not so heavy type of songs.. I mean from their album Minutes to Midnight,  “What I’ve Done” and “Shadow of the Day” and “Bleed it Out” are good songs..but come on man, they’re too slow and ’sad’. So not linkin park. So yeah, I absolutely love this song and it fits me perfectly and what I’ve been feeling.. especially this past few days. Oh the video totally rocked too! Love the grungy effects.

Of course, the main thing – Chester’s screaming! No one can ever beat his vocal ability. Hehe.

PS: I’ve been so depressed this past few months, would someone take me on a vacation? :( First, go to shermanstravel.com, look up Las Vegas travel and take me there, win me a million buck, then take me around the world… any volunteer? lol. Joking… but I seriously do need a vacation before I go insane. Put me out of my misery :(

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LINKIN PARK – GIVEN UP

Wake in a sweat again
Another day’s been laid to waste
In my disgrace

Stuck in my head again
Feels like I’ll never leave this place
There’s no escape

I’m my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I’ve given up
I’m sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I’m suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

I don’t know what to take
Thought I was focused but I’m scared
I’m not prepared

I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares

I’m my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I’ve given up
I’m sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I’m suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

[bridge]
Goddddddd!!!!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my fucking misery
[end bridge]

[chorus]
I’ve given up
I’m sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I’m suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

Ok, different entry, different kind of post. Time for a review!

I’m sure you’ve heard of buy.com, right? If you haven’t, where have you been? buy.com is one of the most popular online shopping place. It is like amazon and all related sites with good deals. I did a review on them ages ago, and made a video…actually it was for a contest, but I did not win :( Pfft. Anyways, if you’re into deals.. you should check out hottie Ryan Seacrest’s deal of the week.. and also good offers on their weakly deals. I actually want that external harddrive which is like $100… I want a bigger external drive to backup all of my date because I carry my currently portable hd everywhere in my lappy bag.. now just in case I dropped it and ruin it, or it gets stolen… my goodness, I’d kill myself if I lose my datas. Also there’s a good deal on a laptop… I want a laptop with blue-ray disc rom :(

Anyways, if you want good deals, the weekly deal is worth checking. Also check out the rest of the sites for even more deals or gifts etc. You know, one can always find a best buy at buy.com!

It’s been very hot lately in Malaysia. I think it rained JUST A LITTLE bit few days ago but that’s it… then it’s been extremely hot weather every single day… so very sunny outside. I hate hot weather because I can’t stand heat. I get pimple breakouts, my skin darkens easily (as if I’m not dark-skin already), my face gets oily and my body and skin gets dehydrated…oh my hair gets itchy too. Thank god for aircond.

Also lately, my house has been insanely infested by little cockroaches… now it’s infesting my room and it’s driving me mad because I hate cockroaches… They’re everywhere. I so want my own house. Don’t want to live in this garbage dump already. I want my own house with nice clean kitchen and no cockroaches.. nice furnitures… nice lamps and chandeliers and decorations… and nice place for me and my kitties. :( When oh when will that day comes?

I just installed this plugin called Deepest Sender so I can blog from my browser without actually having to go to my site, log in, go to wordpress interface, typing and submitting the blog. This would make quick blogging to my site easier.

So I’m just testing it. If this appears, cool it worked!

EDIT//

Yes it worked, cool. When I’m currently depressed.. blah. So I don’t feel like blogging much. I also need to get some acne solutions fast because I hate getting breakouts from all the stress, and depression and especially from the lack of sleep since I feel restless nowadays. Blah. Monday is public holiday so this week I had 5 days off, great. Well I’m gonna go lay down and well…do something. Hopefully I’ll feel better when I wake up. I have to sleep on the floor tonight cuz my cat peed on the bed…great.

*yawns*

I’m so tired and so sleepy right now. I don’t know why but lately I feel like I don’t have any energy in me. Maybe I need some energy boosters or vitamins lol. I’m not much of a vitamin person. I’d get excited to eat vitamins but I’ll stop in few days. Maybe it’s because I’m not the type to eat breakfast. I do eat breakfast when I can, but it’s like ‘optional’. Actually, breakfast is the most important meal of the day to get your day started. I”m craving for McDonald’s pancakes right now, not sure why lol. I need to find vitamins soon.

I’m so sleepy now, my vision is half blurry, I can barely see what I”m typing, I might need magnifiers to magnifies the words lol. Make them bigger cuz I am using my laptop so the font is a little bit small. Speaking of computer, my computer is back now, finally! Did I mention that already? I can’t remember. But yeah… I miss it. I need to start backing up stuff in it… and in laptop too. I’ve been having the graphic card problem for ages, so now I’m a little paranoid that any minute, my screen would start flickering and system crashes lol. Everytime I play SL, I’m expecting the usual flickering. I’m still annoyed the bottom of the pc is fucked. Fucking computer technicians screwing up my pc. I shouldn’t have let them take the whole system away. SHould have just let them take the graphic card only. I’ve been making bad decisions lately. I’m stupid.

Well enough random rambling for today. I’ll blog more tomorrow. I need to get some shut eye. Goodnight.

When it comes to webhosting, I’ve had quite a few problems with them. I used to be hosted at this webhosting called ENDORE but they went bankrupt and took my website with them without telling us in advance so I lost everything. I had some backups but it was useless.

Now I’m hosted at Dreamhost. I’ve been hosted there for ages…I’ve never had problems before but starting this year, they’ve been fucking up too much. First they did a mistake and billed everyone when they are not supposed to…some went up to $10,000…then the server crashes and stuff like that…been happening a lot this year. So if you’re looking for a webhost, you need to find those review or rating site. My mistake is that I didn’t do it at first, or else I would know which host is the best in the market currently.

There’s a new useful web hosting rating site that tells you which host is the best. But what’s really best about this site is the article section. If you’re totally newbie in webhosting related stuff, if you’re getting your first domain and you don’t know what you’re looking for, this site is extremely useful. They have articles explaining what to look for when finding host.. tips for finding a good host and most. They also have articles on control panels, cpanel tutorials, dedicated servers, shared hosting, and many more. If you go to the main page, they listed that bluehost is the best hosting provider. Actually all of the web hosting review sites listed bluehost as their top choice. I think next year I’m changing to bluehost. I’ve had enough of dreamhost crap. They’re getting more and more unreliable by the minute.

So yeah, in conclusion, if you need information and tutorials on web hosting provider, do check out that site. It’s very useful. It’s best to read reviews and articles first before buying the hosting plan if you’re completely a newbie and clueless hehe. It really helps.

Meant to blog about this few days ago but I got busy. So last weekend, I sacrificed my weekend and my last 2 days of holiday to work and become student helper during the open day. I came back from Ipoh on Friday morning. So as usual at 9 am I came to college. I was stationed at the lucky draw counter so yeahhh. There weren’t many people.. and Rashman and Farah who were supposed to be at the lucky draw didn’t show up. So I was all alone :( I brought my laptop but there was no power point so the battery would run out in 2 hours anyway.

I was bored the whole time UNTIL Helmi came. He said he wasn’t coming.. he hung out at my table and got all interested in the lucky draw lol. He was supposed to be tour guide. Haha, to my left said was the UMobile (new cellphone line) table and my right side was the Glitz & Glam accessories.. and the guy was super funny! They were all funny actually.. everyone would come to my table to try the lucky draw lol. So I wasn’t completely bored cuz I had people keep coming to my place to disturb hehehehe. And I had free lunch (beef steak) so it was good. So first day was quite amusing, boring but amusing because of the people that keep disturbing me lol.

Second day was even slower.. Helmi changed to my statioin so I had someone for a bit. Again, all the people were amusing me.. I nearly got in trouble because there was this Indian kid, who keep coming to do the lucky draw, wtf. Then he came with his family.. then with his brother.. I nearly wanted to punch that kid. They won like 4 vono mug bags… then the last draw, they won the handphone! But I was too suspicious so I called Mr kenny, and turns out they were cheating .. >.< I was supposed to be aware.. I was :( I was too scared to say something though.. I never thought anybody would actually cheat. Last time, when I was stationed at the registration counter, I only gave one passport to the ‘potential student’, and they have to fill in the details and then get the stamp from me… how was I supposed to know it’s different now??? How was I supposed to know the kid could get the passport on the table?? Then what were the registration counter people doing? O.o

But haha, they had to re-draw the ball again and got the cleaning cloth instead. Oh I would so hate myself if they could win the phone .. they won the good stuff, WTF.

it was so much fun when it was like 3 pm, LOL. All of the guys gathered at my table wanting the free stuff, haha. and by everyone I mean even the sponsors.. haha.. they wanted the free stuff.. and it was only like 3 something pm. LOL. They were choosing which stuff is theirs.. plus Draniece came and said they could take whatever they want so it was chaotic for a while.. at 5 pm, everyone packed up, got all the stuff they wanted, and signed out and went back home.

So I got myself notebook, 2 bags of vono soup mugs with free mushroom soups (one is broken though >.< ), some coupons.. and accessory coupon.. which is a gold plated bracelet … gold chain would be better but oh well :P Have to find the place and claim it soon. That guy is super nice and funny.. :) I also got free balloons lol.. cuz I asked for them from the Umobile guys .. hmm what else.. didn’t want the shoes cuz they were weird (transparent shoes o.O) …oh hair and body shampoo.. and like 5 cleaning clothes for cleaning lappy screen, etc.. costing at $19.90 each O.O;;; So that’s like almost $100 lol

Even though it was super tiring and boring, I liked it.. cuz I get experience. I get some money too for just 2 days of boredom and some amusement lol. I get to meet new people, and talk to new people.. and prolly gained a little bit of extra knowledge apart from the free stuff :P