I am suddenly emo tonight. I don’t know… I tend to get during that time of the month I guess… you know the usual shit, feeling that I’m useless…and I’m not good enough for HIM …that kind of stuff.. don’t worry I’ll be ok. I have many things to do tomorrow particularly SL related stuff in the morning, and then websites. I still don’t know when to go back to Ipoh. Frankly, I can’t handle that emotional stress again of seeing my house.

I’m also emo about certain someone… I hate it when at the time a person wants you the most, you are always there…you endure all the depression, his sorrow, carry this huge burden of his that you shouldn’t be carrying but when you’re the one with problems, that person acts like you don’t exist. I’m beginning to hate ‘him’ more and more everyday… enough stress and tension from him. I hope he’s happy even after doing all this shit to me. That’s ok. I accept this fate. Hope he’s happy…and live fucking happily ever after. Even though only my baby Aaron knows ‘who’ I’m talking about, and what I’ve been going through with him…it’s okay. I’m used to having people judging me. I have no idea why I’m showing to people that I have ‘attitude’ or someone that I’m totally not..I don’t know what people see… unless of course they get to know the real me.

bus for sale – I want one, then make it like a trailer… a comfy one and just drive endlessly… with no place to go … just driving endlessly… alone… just to get away from this life that I have.

Okay, it seems like I so need sleep… get rid of this emo-ness and crankyness.

PS: I have upgraded wordpress. Yay.