Urgh. I have headaches now… it’s not the kind that’s throbbing but the kind that when you move (your head or your eyes) you feel so dizzy that you feel like vomiting. I hate that kind of headache. I used to have one where I couldn’t even get up or open my eyes or I’ll puke. o.O;

I need to work on my sites >.> I need to have my fanvids site up. I miss creating fanvideos. I used to be so obsessed in editing fan videos but now not so much anymore. Omg. I just remembered - my computer guy STILL has not called! It’s been more than a month now, wtf?? Ok tomorrow I need to remember to call them.. this is stupid! Getting a video card replaced takes more than a month? What? Geez. Good thing I didn’t have to pay for the traveling cost for them to come and pick up my cpu (would be hundreds) or I’d be pissed. I miss my computer :( Thank god for laptop or I’d be insane right now. This is so fucked up.

Ok I’m gonna go rest a bit, then probably work on stuff. Urgh I hate this headache.

Everyone needs a vacation right? Especially to get rid of stress, and to get away from the busy city life to just relax and enjoy yourself. So what kind of places do you like to go for a vacation? Me, I like different types of place.. first I like the beach. I found out staring into the big ocean, and listening to nothing but the sound of wave totally relaxes me and makes me forget all the problems that I have. I also like going to a place with nature.. totally pretty, green nature :) Last but not least, places with architecture. Like Rome, Britain, Romania etc with great gothic architecture and castles. Totally love them. Of course if I have LOADS of money, I’d go to places where I can spend them, lol. Like Paris, Milan, Tokyo, etc

You wanna know what else I’d like? A CRUISE! Damn I’d love a cruise in a 5 stars cruise ship.. would love it even more with someone I love hehe. Luxurious only, not just some dingy cheap and small cruise ship lol. Cuz when I’m on vacation, I want to get pampered. Nice rooms, nice service, nice facilities, nice spa, nice meal, all that.. you know high class service. Hey I can dream, can’t I?

If you’re a traveler, you can check travelstoreusa.com and cruiselocators.com. You can see pictures of cruise ships in that site like omg.. I so wanna go now. If you’re planning on a vacation, check those sites out, really useful. And it’s worldwide too, so you can go anywhere in the world. Maybe to Milan for shopping, Japan for culture and history vacation or Fiji honeymoon vacation, and take me with youuuuu! I’ll be good I promise. lol.

I am suddenly emo tonight. I don’t know… I tend to get during that time of the month I guess… you know the usual shit, feeling that I’m useless…and I’m not good enough for HIM …that kind of stuff.. don’t worry I’ll be ok. I have many things to do tomorrow particularly SL related stuff in the morning, and then websites. I still don’t know when to go back to Ipoh. Frankly, I can’t handle that emotional stress again of seeing my house.

I’m also emo about certain someone… I hate it when at the time a person wants you the most, you are always there…you endure all the depression, his sorrow, carry this huge burden of his that you shouldn’t be carrying but when you’re the one with problems, that person acts like you don’t exist. I’m beginning to hate ‘him’ more and more everyday… enough stress and tension from him. I hope he’s happy even after doing all this shit to me. That’s ok. I accept this fate. Hope he’s happy…and live fucking happily ever after. Even though only my baby Aaron knows ‘who’ I’m talking about, and what I’ve been going through with him…it’s okay. I’m used to having people judging me. I have no idea why I’m showing to people that I have ‘attitude’ or someone that I’m totally not..I don’t know what people see… unless of course they get to know the real me.

bus for sale - I want one, then make it like a trailer… a comfy one and just drive endlessly… with no place to go … just driving endlessly… alone… just to get away from this life that I have.

Okay, it seems like I so need sleep… get rid of this emo-ness and crankyness.

PS: I have upgraded wordpress. Yay.

Semester is OFFICIALLY over for this 2 weeks. Hallelujah.

I submitted my last assignment, so now all the stress are gone completely until the semester starts again. Then I’ll be all tensed again. But first couple of weeks shouldn’t be bad. I wish it didn’t turn out into all of this mess but I guess shit happens and probably something good came out of it, whatever it is. We all learned our lesson, no? Hehe.

Friday was the screening for some of the student works. I’m so happy me and Boy finished our animation and it was screened… I sat with Farah, Sherra and Dura and all…and they amused me. I miss hanging out with them like in semester 1 and 2. Now we’re distant because of the course separation. My group’s horror movie was well-received. Everybody was screaming! lol. Totally didn’t expect that. Esther did great job at editing, I must admit. Honestly. Not exactly what I visioned at first, but didn’t turn out so bad. At least ours look great cuz we took a lot of effort in props and makeup hehe. However, one group won (a surprise at the end)…Anak Warna I think? I’ve loved their movie and the effects since the beginning.. it rocks! Animation…Fendy’s group won.. ahem… I ‘heard’ mine was supposed to win :P But it’s not fair…it’s ok, I understand :) Just to know that people/lecturers liked it (I hope) is enough..felt like all night of stress on animating, starvation and sleep deprivation was paid off if people think it’s good and not some last minute crap, and not like we got it done for the sake of getting it done as I’ve always tried my very best at everything :)

After that, me, Sherra, Farah, Apex, Effendy, Dhya and Janna went to the movies to see Congkak! I’ll write a review after this post or soon. It was awesome. It was a malay horror movie so it cheered me up, plus, my friends were being hilarious and I couldn’t stop laughing. After the movie, Dhya and Janna went separate ways and the rest of us went to eat and relaxed until like almost 7 pm. So we were talking and stuff..it was fun. I felt so much better afterwards. That night went out with mom to take photos for photography assignment until like 1 am or so.

I felt SO MUCH better after that day. Maybe because things started to get better, I had good times with my old friends that day, watched horror movie (never failed to cheer me up) and school is temporarily done. Oh, on Sunday I went to Sunway Pyramid with mom and I wanted this:

I’ve been wanting to try Wendy’s for ages since I knew the existence of it in Sunway Pyramid but nooooo….it had to be full of people with uber long queue :( Mom and I didn’t want to wait so long, in a very packed place so we ate somewhere else.

Okay, now that my holiday is officially starting, I want to get all things done that I couldn’t before…

I’m updating wordpress after this…

It’s 3:15 am… couple of hours ago I went out alone to take photographs for my photography assignment. Luckily I didn’t get raped and/or murdered, I guess. I still am not sure what to capture so I just captured whatever I feel nice. I’m stupid and didn’t charge the cam so the battery ran out quick. Tomorrow is the screening day for all projects and stuff, then last class on Saturday then stress, tension free for a bit…wait I’m never tension, stress, depression free. Oh well.

You know those small screen at places like restaurants that gives you info, or menu, or streaming stuff ..or at the mall that gives you info on maps, shops, etc… or at the airport with luggage, flight info etc.. and more? I found out it’s called digital signage and if you have a business that needs those kind of stuff, you can check out blackbox.com. They sell those.

Early payday today. Not much at all, but at least something.

The biggest issue I had has been cleared, no more talking about this depressing thing. Let’s start fresh.
Issues with people in my class, unfortunately can’t be solved, so I’ll just deal with this consequences from my stupidity.

From now on, all college related post will be kept hidden in my upcoming new private livejournal. I don’t think anyone would want access, but if you do, email me for the new livejournal address (it will be friends only post and access will be given to people I know and trust).

I also will move all college related posts to my new private livejournal so please bear with me while I’m in the process of clearing and moving old posts.

Thank you for understanding.
And truly sorry I’ve been such an emotional wreck lately or caused troubles to anyone.

I’m in class right now waiting for my final assessment. Seriously have no idea about the movie, nor do anyone care to update me with anything. Plus I had to cough out RM100 (dolly money + props and stuff)… never knew this group project would make me so broke.

I just went emotional again thinking about my stuff that has been stolen.. I really can’t get over it. This week is the last week of semester and usually, by the weekend me and mom would get so excited about going back home and now it’s like….. blah. Nothing to look forward to. The only thing is that we want to go home to clean shit up, then I want to pack all of my stuff…it hurts, it really hurts to see all of our possession trashed everywhere. Huh.. I guess this is reality and I just snapped back into it…never thought when I hear about other’s misfortune, I would soon receive the same fate.

I’ve been telling mom to hire movers and move our things such as tvs, and home theater system and other stuff and move to kl altogether but mom said no..plus she still wants to go back to that house. Lots of sentimental memories there. Yes I know, but if leave house unattended like that? People will break in again. My PC system stolen is enough heartbreak for me..and old stuff that belonged to my grandma and stuff. Fuckers. I hope for karma..if not I would personally search them and break their bones.

If you’re having probs just like me, and want to move but don’t know who to call, I suggest you some of these sites:

At Relocation.com, they’re like a professional movers. So if you’re completely newbie to this stuff, this site has all the guide you need to know about moving, from real estate guide (before buying your place) to planning your moving and your place… now, at carmovers.com, they provide you car transport service and provide you the quotes and info on transportation. For moving internationally, internationalmovers.com will provide you with quotes and info on moving internationally. There, useful sites for you so hope it helps in providing you info and stuff if you’re thinking of moving.. I wish Malaysians would use internet more and have websites about their moving company so it’s easy for me to look up. Blah.

FUUUCK! I’m stressed like hell. I have to finish cutting and finishing my cut-out animation by today! Cuz they moved it from Thursday to tomorrow! I hate when plans get changed the last minute.

COLUMBINE 04/20.
NEVER FORGET.

Yesterday was the ‘anniversary’ for the Columbine massacre. If you haven’t guessed, I’ve been obsessed about Columbine since urghh I can’t remember when. 2001? 2002? So earlier I’ve been checking some Columbine related LJ community and suddenly was obsessed with it. Read on Pekka-Eric, who opened fire at Jokela HIgh School… then on Asa Coon.. whose bloodied death picture leaked on the internet (not as gruesome as Eric’s and Dylan’s though) and found this hilarious site called Encylopedia Dramatica (similar to Uncyclopedia) and read about Mitchell Henderson, a kid reportedly committed suicide because he lost his Ipod. lol.

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Ok this bed is seriously killing my back. I use my laptop on my bed, so my position i’m in would always end up giving me a backache. It’ll be awesome if I could have something like the adjustable beds but they’re friggin expensive. They’re good for solving problems though like lower back pain, insomnia etc You can adjust the thing according to what makes you comfy so it’ll be good for me to use laptop while my back leans against the adjusted bed. Besides, my mattress sucks now.. it’s causing me major backpain. Blah. No money to buy a new one. Donations anyone? *shakes empty can*

Was meant to do this blog last week on the day I went to PC Fair. Yay, finally, PC Fair! I withdrew every single cent from my savings accounts so I could buy stuff that I needed plus I borrowed mom extra RM300 lol. Blog about it coming soon. I’ve been extremely busy for the past few weeks with projects and stuff. I hate this. I’m stressed to the max, I’m completely drained… I’m going nuts. Anyways.. now I feel like blogging about my college’s open day which was held on March 22nd and 23rd. WARNING: PICTURE HEAVY!! I was working on that 2 days, plus lots of other students too. I was stationed at the front registration counter.

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