I’ve been emo again. I don’t know. It seems as if my life is going down the drain yet again. I’ve been trying to be strong but I just don’t know how long will I last before I snap. I may be paranoid but I don’t know.. it seems like I don’t have friends anymore in college. I feel so distant. Urgh I have 2 more years to survive there.

I have dentist appointment today at 12 to do 2 fillings for my front teeth. I’ve never did fillings before and when Esther did it at school, she was complaining that it hurts so yeah I’m quite nervous. I have a meeting at 3 pm. They better not cancel it and not tell me about it because if I go there and see an empty room, they’re gonna get a serious bitching from me …once my teeth is ok that is lol. I’ve been looking at food blogs yesterday because I couldn’t have any sweet, sugary stuff to cure my depression so I just looked at pictures. I’m so craving cupcakes from Cupcake Chic! I think that’s where Sherra got the cupcakes to sell on Valentine’s Day. The yummiest thing ever. The menu changes everyday and today they have the yummy cupcakes on sale but since I’m going to the dentist I don’t know how I’m going to enjoy the cupcakes :( They’re expensive though. RM4.50 per cupcake and RM25-ish for half a dozen but the yummyness of them, I don’t care.

I’m going broke. After I’m gonna spend RM160 today, I’ll be really broke. No more buying stuff at the PC fair. No more buying a vacuum cleaner that I desperately need. No carpet for my room and no 29″ tv. No stuff from the furniture catalog for my empty apartment. NO YUMMY FOOD lol. I”m dying to buy the fondue set at midvalley megamall. Plus fruits to eat them with… Haagen Dazs ice creams…. *drools* Ok I better stop before I torture myself even more.