Yesterday I went to ANIMATION SEMINAR at UiTM (Universiti Teknologi Mara/Mara Technology University) in Shah Alam. If I didn’t go I had to attend class anyway so might as well go and gain extra knowledge. So I woke up early then got ready and rushed to school at 8.15 am and reached there at 8.30 am. The thing is.. Mr Eddie said we were supposed to meet up before 8.30 am and he was nowhere to be seen until almost 9 am lol. I guess he got stuck in traffic jam. So it was just me, Esther and Mr Eddie with Mr Eugene joining us in Klang. So we took the NKVE to Bukit Raja toll which seems endless lol. We saw Mr Eugene’s car and followed him to UiTM which is like 5 mins away. Our journey there took 30 minutes.UiTM campus is so fucking huge, it’s like a city or town of its own. Kind of isolated with lots of old buildings and hella confusing narrow zigzag roads. We got lost at first but then managed to find the building somehow.

The view of the building from the car park.

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For few days I’ve been obsessing about the accident. I have no idea why I got so interested. Anyways, let’s not talk about that anymore. The bodies have been safely buried in cemetery here so we the living should go on living our lives and be thankful for every minute that we’re still alive. I’m so frigging sleepy now so I’ll try to make this as quick as possible. It’s long though and picture heavy so be prepared.

Yesterday was my 3rd and sort of last trip to the dentist at iSmile Dental Center for now. I did my filling for my molar. Since a day before that I asked Esther about the fillings she did and if it hurt, and she grinned so I was kind of nervous. I was 10 minutes late for appointment so when I arrived I didn’t have to wait long before they called me in. I expected them to make my mouth numb but no, she straight away started drilling. This time I felt the drill and for one sec I felt the ’sting’ of the drill lol but it wasn’t bad at all. Not like I had expected. She said it was bigger than they expected lol. So did the filling and in around 30 minutes or less, DONE! No pain during and after it like I had expected so I asked mom to go to the Curve for a bit. YAY no more dentist.. well I have appointment with school dentist this Friday.. to see what they’re gonna say about my wisdom teeth. Now that my teeth is fixed, next is to diet and shape up my body lol… then I can wear hot lingerie and actually look good in it lol. Mm yeah.

We then sat at the Shihlin Snack stall and ate my favorite seafood tempura snack since my tooth didn’t hurt nor was my mouth numb so I could eat. After we ate, went to buy CDs. Unfortunately the game won’t install for me so yeah.. going to ask them about it. Then just walked a bit and saw CUPCAKE CHIC! Couldn’t resist so I bought one.. it was SO FRIGGIN YUMMY. The best cupcake I ever had… it was moist, and the icing was nice.. a little bit too sweet I think but still loved it. Probably next week or so I’m gonna buy the half dozen one for RM25.

After that it was raining heavily and we went back home. Happy to talk to my baby Aaron. God I love that guy, lol. Anyways.. I’m so fricken sleepy now so I’m gonna sleep. Blog about today will be posted tomorrow. Couldn’t finish writing it as I’m too sleepy. Nite!

I’m at work but just thought I’d post this news article real quick about the accident that killed the unfortunate Nigerian students from my college Segi College and Sunway College (refer to my previous post)

4 foreign students killed in car crash

PETALING JAYA: The four students killed in the traffic accident on the Damansara-Puchong Highway (LDP) just after midnight yesterday have been identified as Africans.

The fifth student injured in the rented Toyota Vios was in stable condition at Universiti Malaya Medical Centre.

According to police, the students were travelling from Kota Damansara to Bandar Sunway in the middle lane of the LDP.

At Km11.3, near the Kelana Jaya LRT station, they tried to move into the fast lane but knocked into the rear of a Proton Iswara already in the lane.

The Vios spun into the divider and crashed into a bus parked at the LRT station.

Three of the students were killed on the spot, while the other two were sent to the UMMC for treatment. One of the students died on arrival and the other is being treated.The five Africans are studying at Sunway College and SEGi College.The four fatalities have been identified as Hassan Ahmad, 20, Bashir Nuuman, 20, Yasmin Aliyu, 19, and Aisya Abdul Hee, 18. Fatimah Taflima Hassan, 18, is in hospital.The driver of the Proton Iswara was unhurt and has lodged a police report.

Sad, isn’t it?

Today I realized something…

LIFE IS SHORT, ARE YOU FULLY PREPARED?

So what does that actually mean? I was working part-time job at school today for open day (full photoblog coming tomorrow or so). I was stationed at the registration counter and while working this morning I heard something really terrible that made me sick to my stomach…

3 Students from my college died from an accident

The guy wasn’t serious about the news so we thought he was joking but then he said it was true and he just got a call from the morgue. He handles international student so apparently the 3 dead were international students from Nigeria. Muslims. 2 girls and a boy. YOUNG. The news didn’t get to me until later of the day when some of us were talking about it and until the end of the work, it got horrible. I was sick to my stomach.

Here’s the story. There were 5 of them, 2 from Sunway College. They were driving a car at 2 am around the Kelana Jaya (Damansara-Puchong Highway), when one car tried to overtake them (or the other way around) and one car hit the bumper of the other car, and their car swiveled and skidded to the other side, and crashed into a parked bus at the Kelana Jaya LRT station. There were a lot of different versions we heard throughout the day though. What’s worse is that the guy was describing us how the bodies looked.. and how severe the injuries (one has no eye, brain splattered, half head gone etc) it was like oh… my…god…and the car is totally wrecked.

Imagine.. what it was like for that guy to tell the deceased parents in Nigeria.. and how would they feel… he said even though he didn’t have emotion at first, but he nearly broke down when he tried to tell the parent. It’s just too fucking creepy. Gave me goosebumps. It was like one minute you were there.. you did your daily stuff, went to school, hung out with your friends, planned for tomorrow or next week ..then suddenly BAM, you’re gone! Usually I wouldn’t care that much but it suddenly creeps me out.. to imagine that they use to be there at my college… in class… in hostel.. but then suddenly gone and never coming back. I wonder how the classmates would react on Monday or whenever they have class.

I couldn’t even concentrate while I was driving home.. I was so sick to my stomach.. so creeped out.. so weird… I was thinking what if on my way home, I crashed and die? What if my heart suddenly stops? What if I went to bed and don’t wake up the next morning? What would happen? What would happen to my things? What would happen to my family? What would happen to my loved ones? And the most important question of all - AM I PREPARED?

I always talk about suicide before.. I always take life so lightly.. I always feel life is useless.. but now I know.. unless I’m fully prepared.. I’ve repented from all of my sins.. I make my mom happy.. I’ve lived my life to the fullest.. I’m not ready.. I want to die peacefully of old age.. happy to go because I’ve lived my life to the fullest.. not sudden like that.. that I lost my life on the road (yes they died on the spot). Now I will never look at the LRT station the same way again O.o And I’ll try not to speed now :(

My  condolences to the  family of the victims.

Innalillahhiwainnailaihirojiunnn……..Amin.

May their souls rest in peace.

So I went to the dentist today.

But before that, I had an argument with my mom. She HAD to mention my ex’s name TWICE. So what I did was I penalized her. Every time she mentions my ex’s name, she’d have to pay me RM100 bucks.. so she mentioned twice so she paid me extra RM200 :D! I got RM500 today cuz I forced her to pay back the dental cost lol. :P

Anyways, at the dentist I had to wait half an hour for them to finish up with the patient. There was this old dude before me that did filling.. prolly on the molar.. and he couldn’t stand the pain o.o; So I got scared, lol. So when my name was called, went in and sat on the chair and got myself ready.

First Dr Amy put the anaesthetic (the raspberry flavored first, lol) on the upper gum of my two front teeth then she injected to make my upper mouth numb. I was like this:

Dr Amy: Be strong for a bit ok? :) This is gonna painful for just a short time…
Me: *blinks* Uhhh ok… *gets nervous*
Dr Amy: *injects slowly*
Me: *blinks*…. *waits for the pain*
Dr Amy: *keeps injecting*
Me: …………… O.o *expecting pain…*
Dr Amy: *jabs again for 2nd time*
Me: ………. *thinking “Where’s the pain?”*
Dr Amy: All done. How was it?
Me: ……… uh… did not feel a thing O.o
Dr Amy: Really? Wow good.. then the procedure should be ok for you…
Me: Hehehe

I did not feel a thing… O.o I didn’t feel the injection either. For all I know after she’s done, 1 second later I had numb upper lip and nose lol. She then proceed to drill my teeth. At first I thought it’s gonna hurt too but nope.. didn’t feel a thing the whole time. The only thing bugging me was the sound of the drilling which making me have headache and the vibration of her drilling causing my headache. Plus like the water from the thing keeps dripping to the side of my face my neck was wet even though the assistant had the suction thing.

So after an hour with a very tired mouth, it’s done! And all that fear for nothing, lol cuz I didn’t feel a thing the entire time except the sound of drilling and vibration. Oh also smelled the machine burning.. oh memories. I smelled that too when I had laser done to my face. BURNING FLESHHHHH! Anyways. So paid up and was given panadol in case there’s any pain and went back. I have one more filling on the molar next Tuesday. That I’ll expect pain lol. So for the whole day I didn’t talk weirdly or feel pain after the numbness wears off, just that I felt my nose is huge (cuz of the numbness) and the feeling of extreme ‘tightness’ on my front teeth hehe. I’ll take a pic tomorrow.

Then sent mom back home and went to school for meeting. Nyeh. Meeting got long and boring lol. Then waited for an hour to know if I’m working part-time tomorrow or not. There were A LOT of annoying chinese people bugging Kak Wan asking if their friends are working and asking to change the works and whatnot. Fuck. I nearly wanted to punch each one of them. Stop asking too many annoying questions and asking if your friends are working or not.. FUCKKKK. Because of them Kak Wan was ignoring me :( For an hour I stood there :(

After that I went to McDonalds to buy food. I saw cupcake chic at the new area of the mall that they’ve renovated so now I can see cupcake chic store everytime I pass The Curve.. so tempted to buy but I want my teeth to be done first so I can enjoy them fully :P Ga, I”m craving all these fattening foods I’d need good diet pills and hours of exercise to burn off the calories. I’m fucking fat.

I’ll try to take pics tomorrow during my school’s open day :)

I’ve been emo again. I don’t know. It seems as if my life is going down the drain yet again. I’ve been trying to be strong but I just don’t know how long will I last before I snap. I may be paranoid but I don’t know.. it seems like I don’t have friends anymore in college. I feel so distant. Urgh I have 2 more years to survive there.

I have dentist appointment today at 12 to do 2 fillings for my front teeth. I’ve never did fillings before and when Esther did it at school, she was complaining that it hurts so yeah I’m quite nervous. I have a meeting at 3 pm. They better not cancel it and not tell me about it because if I go there and see an empty room, they’re gonna get a serious bitching from me …once my teeth is ok that is lol. I’ve been looking at food blogs yesterday because I couldn’t have any sweet, sugary stuff to cure my depression so I just looked at pictures. I’m so craving cupcakes from Cupcake Chic! I think that’s where Sherra got the cupcakes to sell on Valentine’s Day. The yummiest thing ever. The menu changes everyday and today they have the yummy cupcakes on sale but since I’m going to the dentist I don’t know how I’m going to enjoy the cupcakes :( They’re expensive though. RM4.50 per cupcake and RM25-ish for half a dozen but the yummyness of them, I don’t care.

I’m going broke. After I’m gonna spend RM160 today, I’ll be really broke. No more buying stuff at the PC fair. No more buying a vacuum cleaner that I desperately need. No carpet for my room and no 29″ tv. No stuff from the furniture catalog for my empty apartment. NO YUMMY FOOD lol. I”m dying to buy the fondue set at midvalley megamall. Plus fruits to eat them with… Haagen Dazs ice creams…. *drools* Ok I better stop before I torture myself even more.

I’m emo. So fucking emo. lol

Mmm right. Anyways… I’ve been having totally bad luck for one week. I don’t know if it’s karma or I’m just prone to bad luck but yeah, it’s kinda draining me and fucking up my emotion.  Ok.. I don’t give a fuck if anybody in my class or school reads this. If you’re offended, well too bad. Eat shit and die.

In class today we were told to form a group of either 4 or 2 for our final project which would be cutout animation. Guess what? Everyone is like so happily choosing their friends and me? NADA.ZERO.NONE. I’m left alone. I’m the odd one out. Oh I’m heartbroken /sarcasm

Mr Eddie was hesitant but in the end had to let me do the project alone which means triple the burden. I like doing my own project myself because there won’t be any drama, any disagreement, time problems etc and I can work on my own pace but like I don’t have enough stress and holdem poker pckostenlose online spiele pokergratis poker texas holdpoker 5 cards drawpoker zum online spielenseven card studonline poker no downloadstrip poker game download,strip poker game gratis,strip poker gameparty poker bonuscodeonline poker trickspoker spiel download kostenlostexas holdem poker online gratisonline poker softwarestripp poker gratispokerspiel texas holdempoker gratis downloadenpoker spielen ohne einsatzkostenlos poker spielen ohne anmeldungpoker spiel deutschmultiplayer championship poker holdemonline poker kein downloadpoker regeln einfachkostenlose poker spielenpoker bonus geldpoker net downloadtexas holdem poker onlinepoker spiel kostenlosgratis online spiele pokeromaha poker regelnonline poker tipspoker regeln straightfive draw pokerpoker bonus ohne einzahlenpoker game set 300poker spielen gratis downloadbet and win pokerpoker spielen mit spielgeldonline poker räumefaire online spieleonline 7 card stud spieleonline poker javapoker texas holdem tipssofort kostenlos poker spielentexas holdem erklärungstrip poker gratis spielen,poker gratis deutsch,gratis pokerpoker ohne geldtexas holdem online gamepoker deposit bonus codeonline 7 card stud spielensichere online spiele burden on my shoulder. I swear, if I die or get killed nobody gives a fuck except for my mom, my baby Aaron and prolly one or two people out there. I fucking swear, no matter how nice I am to people, I get shit in return. Sometimes I feel like being a cold bitch is worth it but I don’t have the heart to do it. Not fair treating people like trash like how people is treating me. Well.. bitches & assholes don’t stay happy for too long. Mark my words.

2nd BAD LUCK

Class was dismissed early at 11 am so I went to see Kak Wan for a bit, then went to my car and guess what? I opened the car door and I saw this huge cockroach on the floor… I was panicking and terrified because if I see the cockroach when I’m driving, I will definitely be hysterical, scream, crash the car and die. I stood there under hot sun for half and hour trying to figure out what to do……. then finally I tried to play brave and drove to the gas station which is 1 minute from my school and bought the spray for mosquito..i was desperate… went back to college, sprayed the fucking thing and waited half and hour again and it didn’t come out so I drove back.

3rd BAD LUCK

Thought after all the crap I had I decided to go to THE CURVE to get donuts even though I didn’t have appetite. After I got them, and wanted to pay for ticket you see…I checked and it says first 15 minutes I don’t have to pay. So I went to my car, drove out then guess what? The machine swallowed the parking ticket! Fuck. Then suddenly the guy says I have to pay RM2… fucker. That’s fucking stupid. Basically I had to pay for it because my time was up while I was driving for the exit.. fuck.

Shoot me dead, maybe that’ll rid of my bad luck

I finally said “FUCK IT” and went to the dentist.

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Actually it wasn’t so bad o.O

I’ve been fearing dentist all these years since I was 15 and it’s actually nothing. Well of course, if I go to public government hospital, I would come out terrified right now cuz even though they’re free, I -

1) hate the place and environment
2) Everyone there is scary
3) HATE THE ENVIRONMENT (can’t stress enough)

Call me stuckup or fussy or picky but when I go somewhere I care for the environment.. if it looks cozy, comfy enough, that’s the place for me. Second thing is customer service, if they’re friendly or not. I don’t really care money though. I’ll dig up the ground to search for buried treasure if I have to, just to pay for good service and comfy environment (or in better words, ‘high class’ looking)

My first choice was DentalPro (Bangsar Utama), where the place is so comfy and relaxing and nice… but I bet it’s expensive.. plus it’s quite far from where I’m staying. Maybe I’ll go there for other treatment someday. Yesterday I stumbled across the ISmile Dental Center (Damansara Uptown) website and found out it’s just 5 minutes from my place. The place looks good so I decided to give it a try. The place looks comfy enough :)

The reception area

Rooms….

…and part of the waiting area. This place has wifi :)

I went in today and my dental checkup was done by Dr. Amy Chin. She was nice and gentle. She explained to me about my teeth problems.. well surprisingly enough, my teeth didn’t have much problems considering I haven’t gone to the dentist for like years…o.o; I just need to do 3 fillings (one at the back, and two at the front which is noticeable in my pictures)… now what about my swollen gum? She said there’s 2 possible reasons - infection or wisdom tooth. I need an xray first because we don’t know. You can see the wisdom tooth coming out halfway on my right side of mouth but left side we can’t see.

So what she did was explaining about teeth, problems and stuff… then we proceed to the standard stuff - scaling and polishing. Now I remember I did scaling back in high school.. that’s what caused my fear of dentist. The dentist did the scaling at my high school and OH MY GOD. I had tears running down my cheeks… it was hurting so bad. She didn’t even do it properly because she was rushing and all and was so ROUGH. That was the cause of my phobia. With Dr Amy, first she put numbing cream (which tasted like raspberry) on the swollen gum area..and gave an injection. Even the injection didn’t hurt much unlike last time at the government hospital. Then the procedure started. Of course, the pain is there but it wasn’t THAT bad as I thought it would be. They put headphones on me so I’d hear music instead of the scary machine sound lol. Music was soothing, I would’ve fallen asleep if I wasn’t being jabbed by the needle.

After it was done.. she taught me how to correctly floss the teeth. Then I was told to go downstairs to get an xray and I did. After waiting for 20 minutes I went back up and gave the xray to Dr Amy. FUCK. There we go. Now you can CLEARLY see the fucked up wisdom teeth (one that’s not visible and buried) in the xray.. it’s like way tilted (or HORIZONTAL IMPACTION to be precise). So that’s what causing me the pain and swelling.

And the verdict?

Fucking surgery. I need a fucking surgery. However, there’s a complication. Both of my wisdom teeth are very close to the nerves. They can’t take the risk so I’d have to be referred to a specialist. Ack. The thing is, if I wanna be sedated during the surgery (which is a definite yes since I don’t wanna be awake during the surgery!) it’s going to cost me Rm1200+ per tooth. Oh My God. Thank god it’s not a serious case so I can put it on hold. However I’m going back there for 2 fillings first this Friday.

Overall my first trip to the dentist after years wasn’t so bad. I’m actually looking forward now for the next treatment. Even though I’ve burned RM170 (which isn’t too bad - scaling, polishing, antibiotic, painkiller and xray)… now I’m broke again. The filling might cost me another RM240. Blah. Hopefully mom can ‘repay’ me back lol. I’m only using my money now cuz she hasn’t got her pension yet. I need all the money back to buy external hard disk and laptop cooler and possible other stuff at the pc fair this early April.

Ouwwwww my mouth is throbbing now.. but I’m very relieved there was nothing serious…oh I want thank my babe Aaron for encouraging me to go to the dentist. If not, I would not have gone :P I’d be living in fear and fucked up teeth for the rest of my life. Thanks sweetie. Mwah.

Even if I’m anti-social, doesn’t mean I should be FORGOTTEN

I hate this. I fucking hate this. I hate taking all this craps from other people. Last Thursday, I was up all night working on my flipbook animation that was supposed to be due on Friday. So I was so stressed, tension.. cranky, fucking sleepy as hell …tired… then come Friday, mom asked me to send my uncle (who came for one day) to the bus station but since I was so busy with the flipbook I said no. I felt SOOOOOOO bad because mom and uncle were panicking and I couldn’t do anything because I was only halfway finished with my drawing. Plus, I was told there was a meeting at 3 pm.

Guess what?

STORY #1–> Just before 3 pm, I rushed in HEAVY RAIN to school for the meeting and when I got there the room was fucking E-M-P-T-Y! So I messaged Ally and guess what? It was a a “LET’S TELL EVERYONE THE MEETING IS CANCELED BUT LET’S FORGET TO TELL TANY‘ day! I was so fucking pissed because I rushed in heavy rain, declined to send my uncle because of the meeting and turned out it was fucking canceled and no one even fucking bothered to fucking tell me!

*breathes*

STORY #2–> After that, I went to the library to finish my drawing and I messaged Rashman if he submitted the flipbook already and guess what? Now it’s “MR EDDIE SAID FLIPBOOK CAN BE SUBMITTED ON MONDAY NOW BUT LET’S FORGET TO TELL TANY‘ day! Weee! *sarcastic look* So pissed, upset, disappointed, I called mom.

STORY #3–> To add insult to injury, it’s now the “LET’S MAKE TANY FEEL EVEN MORE BAD AND BLAME HER FOR NOT SENDING UNCLE OFF” day! Mom was yelling and making me feel sooooo bad that after I hung up the phone, I ran to my car and cried my fucking arse off because I felt extremely bad.

I’m pissed that no one even bothered to let me know anything.. fucking vice president of student leader my arse! I don’t have a fucking clue what’s going on…if I tell anyone, I get yelled at for not asking other people what’s going on… yeah sure, ask them… when I ask, they don’t tell me.. when I don’t ask, they don’t tell me either so what’s the point??? I’m seriously thinking of resigning my post middle of the year and just concentrate on my studies. I can’t take this stress anymore.

However, after crying my arse off, I went to the mall and got myself starbucks and big apple donuts and that made me feel better until the next morning, when I woke up and smelled cat pee. Turned out, my cat Jojo fucking peed on my LAPTOP and new bed! I don’t know if the piss went inside the lappy or not but for 2 days my lappy smelled of cat pee. I was so fucking depressed and I guess I was pms’ing that I just snapped and was in a bad mood for 2 days. It unfortunately affected me and Aaron but I’m sorry, I couldn’t help it. It was just too much for me. Plus with the toothpain. Urgh,

Speaking of toothpain… my gum has swelled up now and the pain has spread from my left jaw to my left side of neck now. I made a dentist appointment for tomorrow (it’s called iSMILE Dental Center, in Damansara Uptown, only 5 mins from my place) and hopefully it’s nothing serious and not involving the root where tooth extraction is necessary… oh heavens no.. please god no… heaven forbid..

I have also changed the layout. I got bored with the last one, this one looks cool to me… and also updated link exchange request :) Oh and new site coming very soon!

Last but not least, truck bed liner anyone? Anybody uses truck here?