I. feel. so. dead.

But one burden is gone!.. Today was my presentation day for History of TV and Film. If you read before we had to do a research on a film auteur, so I decided on one of my faves, Sam Raimi. I’ve been researching on Sam Raimi since last Chinese New Year break (earlier this month) so I had A LOT to talk about. Thing about Sam is that, his life and the start of his filmaking career is so interesting, it’s hard not to write a very long essay about him. There’s just so much to talk about. The more I write and research about him, the more interested and fascinated I became.

If you didn’t know, Evil Dead was the very first horror film I watched when I was 9 years old. It had me terrified for weeks. My neighbor’s brother brought back the vhs tape so we watched it at her house, and I got so terrified. It took a short while to lose the fear, and I asked to watch the tape again, and THAT’S the starting point of my horror movies and zombies obsession. So yeah, Sam Raimi’s Evil Dead is what started my crazy horror movies obsession right now. That’s why I decided to write on him.

After I got home from class yesterday, I rested for a bit and started working on the notes in the evening.. Then I realized how much I had to write on him.. o.O; So it took me ALL NIGHT LONG to gather all the notes about him for my powerpoint slides. Then at 4 am, took me an hour to fix my my printer because it was fucked up and 2 hours+ to edit and reconvert videos for powerpoint because only wmv format could play in o.O; Did the slides then I only had around 1 hour ish sleep .. woke up at 11 am and started doing my slides.. in a rush.

When I rehearsed, I realized I’m gonna have a big time problem because my slide takes more than hour to present.. so I was like SHIT. It was too late to fix it already so I just went to school.. LOL I found out EVERYONE was up all night doing their presentation.. no wonder Esther replied my sms at 5 am, lol.

During the presentation.. I was like ‘eh’… with everyone’s presentation.. yes I have 83 slides in powerpoint, and pages of long thorough notes.. it’s because I did such a thorough research on Sam and tried to gather every important info for it.. but everyone else? Mostly they just described a bit of the director’s movies and a little bit of info. Most of them had absolutely no clue what they were talking about o.O They even got their info wrong. Barely any relevant clips shown, unprepared, obviously showing last minute work etc.. I was shocked O.o They claimed they couldn’t find any clips to support their presentation, that’s bullshit o.O I tried to dig every possible way for Sam Raimi’s clips on the net (not just youtube) so was I the only serious one about my presentation? O.o They did on big directors like Tim Burton, Quentin Tarantino, Steven Spielberg.. omg if me, I could talk for HOURS about them cuz they’re so big and so much stuff to write about.

During my presentation, I had already expected that Mr Eddie would tell me to speed up, lol.. I tried my best to speed things up but everything is relevant and connected.. I don’t really mind not having to read the slides or talk more on Sam, but I was worried Mr Eddie wouldn’t let me play all the clips I had but thank god, he let me :D So thanks Mr Eddie! I was happy :D The clips were vital because they’re the most relevant thing to support my research on Sam. I think he said I did good and I hope he’s satisfied, lol.. because man, took me a month to research on him, lol. Mr Eddie said that I’m much a better speaker so I didn’t have to put all the long notes in the slides.. haha I HAD to… I’d get so nervous and will forget what to say…

I felt I did so-so but relieved and satisfied I got it all done.. Unlike my History of Art class… Aaron knows how pissed off I was, and how badly I cried on that day and how depressed I was. I am still NOT over it. I will never be. It’s the only thing since I’ve been in Segi College so far that I felt I was used, and been given unfair grade… if only that subject I got an “A”, I would have gotten 4.0 GPA overall for that semester so imagine how pissed I am. I felt so disappointed and angry at myself. I never cared about school before but I’m finally doing something I like, something I have passion for.. so I gotta get everything perfect. I don’t care if my group members don’t care about their grades, but I do care on mine.. so fuck ya’ll *breathes*

I think I’ve babbled enough O.o; I passed out earlier so now don’t think I can sleep. My main comp still has not been fixed, so I gotta call the comp company again tomorrow. I also have a meeting.. hmm. Oh on a little extra note, if you shop at Kohls, you can get yourself some extra Kohls coupon codes. Nite! Now I go rest.