Wow the past few days has been… wow.
Depressing post, you’ve been warned.

I’ve been in a seriously bad mood. Maybe I’m PMS’ing but urgh. I hate it. Been having stomach pain too for a few days which is double bad. My mom keeps bitching at me about my ‘addiction’ to SL.. and H had a problem with it too. Oi. If real life isn’t about pushing me to the edge, I wouldn’t be too ‘addicted’. I’m so much happier ‘living’ in SL than in real life. Blah. Yeah so what if it’s just a ‘game’..so what if it’s just a ‘virtual world’? If people don’t give me shit in real life I wouldn’t be depressed all the time and wouldn’t turn into second life to keep me happy.

My mom has been seriously testing my patience since couple of days ago. Seems like she likes to provoke me more and more. What’s worst is that she’s starting to call me bad names… implying stuff then later denies it which piss me off even more. She purposely say stuff to piss me off like she’s trying to pick a fight with me…then when I exploded she plays the blame game and of course denying everything. I don’t want to say what else we fight about because I don’t know who reads this blog but jeebus cripes, i’m so sick of this.

God, there’s too much drama in my life. Ever since I was 13, there has been too much drama, too much shit … I don’t want to go back to being the friggin depressed girl who cuts herself and attempts suicide. I’ve worked so hard to hide my emotion so just leave me alone x.x Stop provoking me and testing out my patience limits.

Heh, you don’t see this type of post from me a lot.. I must really be PMS’ing or having one of those unexpected mood swings. I wanna go back to college but I seriously hate to think it’ll turn into another ‘Olympia’…… oh god, extreme drama and crap. Extreme racism. Extreme politics. Oh god. Why the fuck did I even go to that place.

Special thanks to Aaron aka Elvis for being such a sweetie to me tonight. Thanks a bunch hun :)

I need to go to bed now. Argh driving to KL tomorrow at 7am.. Goodnight. Sorry for the depressing post but I needed to let some things out. I’ll just keep the rest to myself XD I know nobody likes a whiner.

PS: I saw the last part of Good Charlotte in Malaysia concert on MTV. Shit. I missed it because of the stupid exam that I couldn’t even do? God. I could’ve just gone there, snuck myself into their van, then rape Billy. Seriously. He was even hotter now then when I saw him personally in Singapore :( Urge. To. Rape. Billy. Arising. You know what mom said? She said I SHOULD HAVE GONE THERE. Wtf? She was the one who said no in the first place. Typical of her. Always changing words later on. BLAH.