I was browsing youtube yesterday. You know that shitmyx (our stupid slow poke internet ISP streamyx) has decided to throttle youtube??? Not only they throttle torrent before, now youtube? I mean come on, YOUTUBE? I didn’t even know that. I mean it was still okay in terms of loading time until couple of weeks ago youtube has become SO SLOW. Like a 1 minute video would take 5 minute to load. But yesterday I tweaked my setting and now the speed has improved a bit. There are a few sites that I can’t load now.. could it be.. they’ve blocked some sites?! Because I used to be able to load.. now it says server not found, but when I use a proxy, I could load it. FUCK SHITMYX. It has already a piece of shit, and they dare to be even more stinking piece of cow dung by implementing this? What the hell is ‘unlimited broadband’ supposed to mean then?

ANYWAYS.

I have not been into JPOP for a long time. Yesterday I stumbled upon Arashi’s new single, “Troublemaker”.. saw their interview and performance in music station and instantly fell in love with the song! It’s so friggin catchy and fun.. and it has fun dance routine too.. of course, Arashi members haven’t aged a bit. Damn Japanese. So I watched their PV (music video) and I so love it! It has cute stop motion animation at the beginning which is something I so wanna do if I have a chance to make a video.. ! I thought it’s very creative. It has cute stop motion throughout the video.. Ahh Nino.. so friggin cute. I love how he pushes Ohno a lot in this.. Ohmiya SK :D Here’s the PV.. it’s so cute!

Okay, almost 10 am now.. gonna finish my breakfast and go to the gym.. I have to meet my trainer at 11 am.. gotta use up my remaining 2 free training session before it expires >.< They never told me about the expiration! Oh yeah, have you heard maxoderm? I was reading something and saw this word and I thought, hey it sounds like a skin care product.. because most of skin care products have ‘derm’ in it.. so I read what it is, and it turns out to be a topical med for men so they can have harder and longer lasting erection.. haha. But if you look at the website and see user’s comments, they’re hilarious.

A note to self: Please remember to pay the domain! If not the domains go kaput.

Just a last quick blog for tonight. You know how I’m always in depression.. well most of the time that is. I found this site that has treatments for depression. It’s mostly those basic ingredients/vitamins in dietary supplement so I guess no harm compared to prozac or any other controlled medicine like that which I’ve heard don’t even work. Some antidepressants can make you have weird behavior.. and in the case of Columbine school shooting, they blamed Eric being on antidepressant that made him have such rage to do cruel things.

Speaking of Columbine school shooting, wow next month marks their 11 years ‘anniversary’.. wow has it been that long? I even forgot that last year was a decade ‘milestone’. To think I was so fricken obsessed with the whole Columbine thing before.. I better not start talking about it because I’ll get obsessed again and I can’t afford being obsessed again with school shooting stuff, especially Columbine. I go weird.

Today I was supposed to help my friend with something but plan changed so I went out at 9.30 am and went to the gym instead. It was my first time going to the gym and actually doing something since I registered. Last time I was just have an hour session with my trainer because I have 3 free session with trainer so it was just getting to know me and my body & strength. It was a Sunday so since I went early, there weren’t so many people until it gets near in the afternoon. Well, not bad for first time. Even though I only managed to burn 300+ calories, I did bike for almost 20 km and walked 5 km or so on the treadmill. Unfortunately because I was too focused on my legs and not yet my upper body, I’m currently having the worst cramps ever on both of my knees area haha.

Anyways. I finally got half of my starter pack.

I was supposed to get the bag and face towel along with water bottle and headphone but they still don’t have any stock on the headphone and water bottle.. since before Chinese New Year. So the girl advised me to take the bag and face towel first before it runs out so I did. I actually need the bad because I have no bag to put my stuff in when I go to the gym.

By the way, today my face is peeling so badly at areas that wasn’t burned with the laser and I have no idea why. The burned skin has peeled off so not so much of embarrassment of having burnt skin but the peeling skin.. urgh! It was so bad. I wonder if it was a reaction towards any medication? Or my cetaphil? Couldn’t be.. cetaphil is soft on skin, even though it stings a few times when I first washed my face with it. Hm. Looking at this exposed skin care, there’s a product called Pronexin. It sounds extremely interesting, and sounds like a good acne medication but obviously it’s not available here.. but the question is, is it really as good as it says?

My leg cramps are annoying me to the extreme. So I’m going to do something else now to get my mind of it.

I’m supposed to write about communion invitations, which is about this site that sells custom made communion invitations.. But since I’m a muslim so I really have no idea what to write except aren’t the invitations cute? lol. Well of course they have other invitations too such as parties, birthdays and more but since I don’t have that many friends, if I ever have the need to invite people to my party, SMS or calls will do lol Well except for my wedding of course, because that’s tradition o_O; The nicer the card, the better. Hehe.

I’ve written long blogs today.. wow. A big pat for myself on my back. This is what boredom will do to ya. I still have more blogs to write about and pictures to post.. my phone, this one campaign I went to, some other activities… let me take a breather first.

Since my last post of Dermlaze and my treatment there, I’ve gotten quite a lot of questions from my visitors about the place.

My July 2008 Blog Post on Dermlaze
My August 2008 Blog Post on My First Fraxel Treatment

It’s been more than a year since I last went for treatment at Dermlaze. My final year was hectic, and I had absolutely no time to go for treatment. Plus I was too busy with assignments that required me to shoot outdoor all the time so doing laser treatment is not a good idea. However, after my graduation showcase, due to extreme stress we had to endure with our final semester, when it’s done, I slowly had a breakout. Small at first, but then it became huge and bad. After 2 months, now I’m left with bad spots/scarring so I need help immediately while I still have to complete one elective subject.

My biggest mistake was not getting any treatment before it became bad. I’ve had 2 dermatologists before, and seriously, neither seemed as friendly as Dr. Jeswender. I didn’t have good treatment either. Of course my 2nd one (a dermatologist from Gleneagles Intan) left me with very, very, bad scarring. Not only that, he wasn’t friendly at all. So anyways, I went there on Tuesday to ask him what I should do. Back to fraxel laser. So I made an appointment for Wednesday morning.

The next morning, my stupid elevator was scaring me with some sound. Mind you, the day before 2 elevators were stuck on 4th floor.. one of them with people stuck in them. That was so scary. I ended up walking up the stairs to 13th floor. :( So I was quite late for appointment. Well, there’s a new assistant there. So as usual I was given painkillers, then I was put on some topical medication on my face, and some numbing cream. I miss the smell of numbing cream at Gleneagles hospital though. It got me high haha. So I rested for I think about 30 minutes or so? Until the numbing cream sets in and my face is numb. So I watched some youtube on my phone lol. I was getting really comfortable.

THE FRACTIONAL (FRAXEL) LASER

It’s always interesting to go for treatment. Maybe I have a secret addiction or hidden liking to getting laser treatment lol So I was brought to a different room to do my treatment. However it wasn’t Dr. Jes, but the assistant who’s doing the treatment. One thing about fraxel is that it doesn’t hurt as much as pixel, doesn’t look as bad as pixel, and skin isn’t burnt badly as pixel would. It just feels like hundreds of tiny pin pricks, poking your skin at the same time. It’s not bad. But then for some deep scars, the used different setting and yowza! It was just a split second for each deep scar but it felt like someone was pulling the elastic band/rubber band at your face real hard.. so each time was really painful, for a short while only though. After that they put some huge ice pack on my face.. ahhh. Cool down time before 2nd round.. then it’s the same process again. Then put some cream then I’m done.

Again, I really love fraxel because it doesn’t hurt that much compared to pixel that I’ve done before, and it doesn’t burn the skin badly. Usually before I’d have really black skin, sometimes bloody after the pixel laser treatment and God knows how much it hurts, throbs and burns after… it was torture. But with fraxel, it shows nothing except a bit of redness, some large opened pores (haha) and that’s it. I got my medicine, plus some extra medicine.. Neostrata product! I love neostrata product. And thank God they sell it, because I’ve been searching it everywhere.. it’s only sold at skin clinic. I’ve yet to get my Neostrata toner that I’ve been searching for ages though.. not enough money. Plus I want to get some slimming pills.. it’s hard for me to follow diets that work so I need some help. I also bought an expensive sun block lol..

Anyways. That’s my treatment story after 1 year break. It’s been 3 days and goooooosh my face is so itchy right now.. my eyes and my nose are peeling, and stinging and I have no idea why. lol. I’m healing okay. Can’t see much improvement now since it’s my “first” treatment. Need a lot more to see the result. Anyways, if you want to check out the place, here’s the address:

Dermlaze Skin Laser Clinic
75G, Jln SS21/60,
Damansara Utama,
47400 Petaling Jaya,
Selangor.
Tel: +6 03 7710 2295

Of course, don’t forget to tell Dr. Jeswender this blog sent you! :P

This was supposed to be written a week ago. Okay so last week, when I came back from Ipoh on Wednesday (February 24th), I had an invitation to go to this lose big programme designed by Dave Nuku, Biggest Loser Asia’s blue team trainer. I’m a huge Biggest Loser Asia fan (as well as the US version) and also Dave Nuku’s fan. Not because he’s hot (lol) but he’s very caring, gentle and supportive in the show. So of course, when I got an invitation to meet Dave in person, I would not waste it.

It was held at e@Curve (formerly cineleisure) and I arrived at 7 pm and had to wait for roughly 30-40 minutes there until everyone was there. When I arrived there was already a lot of people waiting and those who got the table at the front there will get to mingle with Dave and take pictures. I wanted to do that but he was so busy. After that we were all asked to go into the cinema, where he would give the talk. Oh and I also met this lady who was very talkative, so I wasn’t really alone and looking all dumb. Hehe.

I was surprised that Ally Iskandar was hosting the event. He’s the famous TV3 (local station) host. He’s a funny guy. After a few talks, then Dave gave a really interesting (and he’s hilarious) talk about how to lose weight and get motivated to do so. Then another surprise guest appeared — SYANIE! Okay, she’s this famous Malaysian comedian artist who is morbidly obese. Last year she surprised everyone when she decided to do the gastric bypass surgery. And to date, she has surprisingly lost 60KG!  Wow. When she appeared, she looked a lot thinner than healthier than she was before. She’s also joining this programme. Of course, her being an artist, and obviously now ambassador for this programme, she’s getting in for free I assume. Even if she’s not, she could so afford it. Unfortunately, I couldn’t. It cost RM3600+ for this 13 weeks structured programme to lose weight.. well Rm1000 less if you register that night. If I was morbidly obese and didn’t get through the audition for Biggest Loser Asia, then I might consider this but I’m not morbidly obese.. I’m not even obese.. I’m still in the normal range, just out of shape lol.

Though, having a trainer, in this 13 weeks programme along with other fat people with the same motivation is good. I just need upper body strength to tone my arms and chest… I’d need something like this dip station… I need to stop being lazy and go to the gym once my face is healed.

Before my phone’s battery died completely I managed to snap this picture of the 3 of them (Mr Shawn (sp?), Syanie and Dave) having a chat together. I didn’t register for the programme but I did get a (useless) goodie bag by Fitness First. I got a deodorant for MALE. Geez. Deodorant would be useful but it’s for male >.> Either the girl mistakenly gave me the male bag or they only have male deodorant to give away. Oh well. At least I had a delicious mini bruschetta-like snack and 2 bottles of free mineral water lol.

And I got this too : -

A picture with Dave! I look fat. The girl didn’t know how to use my phone camera to take a picture.. this is the 3rd picture and the only clear picture.

Oh and the next day was my birthday! haha. Didn’t have a good birthday but I did get some wishes in facebook. :) Ok, now.. next blog!

Owww my eyesssss…!

Not only my face is peeling but I don’t know why around my eyes, as in upper eyelids and the bottom of the eyes are like itchy and tingling and stinging.. like when I put my cream it stings like a bitch. So because of that, and constant scratching, I have black eyes. I want to put my night eye cream but I’m scared that it stings a lot more and make it worst.

Well, I will write about my treatment a bit later.. today I’m gonna write quite a few blogs because I have nothing better to do and I’m fricken bored and that I haven’t been blogging much so I’m gonna blog today before I get busy or lazy again. So after this I’ll write about my day at the dermatologist after I download some pictures from my phone.

Owww my eyes.

My face is peeling and itchy and tingling. It’s so annoying. I hate the hot weather.
I was supposed to go out today but looking outside, geez, feels like the sun is gonna be right above your head. Can’t even see properly without being blinded by the mega brightness the sun is emitting.

My car’s tire has a problem since weeks ago. You see, the front right tire would become almost flat every 2-3 days and I have to keep pumping it every 2-3 days. Yes, signs of punctured tire or something but I don’t have money to go fix it. I just hope it won’t go flat in the middle of nowhere. That’d be scary. I don’t have insurance either so I can’t get any roadside assistance.

I’m still contemplating whether I should take the part time job at the cinema or not. Part of me says hey, it’s something to do, for experience sake, but other part of me says I’m happier at home right now, doing my other stuff, preparing myself for when I have to really apply for a real job. I don’t know.

Well last 2 days ago I decided to check a local cinema website and checked their vacancy. For fun. I’ve been searching for part time job that doesn’t require me to be under the hot sun all the time. I also did my first laser treatment yesterday after a year which I’ll write about it soon. So because of that I can’t be exposed to sun anymore. So I saw the part time service crew part and they have online application so I thought why not. I didn’t expect to get a call from them the next day. So today I went for the interview, which took like what.. 10 minutes? Wasn’t much. I still have no idea what I’d be doing so we’ll see. I do know staff gets free movie lol

I’ll start my part time work (I chose weekday evening shift) on Monday so we’ll see how it goes. It’ll just for the sake of extra money, experience and something to do to kill time while I have one class a week. Mostly in for experience, for other job I want. Why getting a job is so hard nowadays… they have extreme tough pre-employment screening and thus the chance of getting the job is like 1.5%. Plus there’d be thousands applying at the same time. AND employers would rather give jobs to non Malaysians.. they rather employ people from Indonesia, Bangladesh, Myanmar, Nepal etc.. why? Thousands of Malaysian are unemployed, but these foreign workers are everywhere.. and I do mean EVERYWHERE. From labor work to good work.

I read this slimquick reviews and this is an example of a product that doesn’t work. Unfortunately reading the ingredients confuses me because it has all the name jargon of either the drugs or herbs or whatever. However Clinicallix is rated 1st with 99% satisfaction? Is this believable? Does it really work? Obviously it won’t be available in Malaysia.. but I read this kind of reviews a lot of times and the top list changes each time. Is it safe?